Chapter 404 - Lovers

"Of course, you can say that my parents are working hard to earn money so that I can have a good environment to study and grow up in. Most parents do that because they believe that only the best environment can give rise to the best leader. Well, if my parents were normal then I would have believed that that was the case. If my parents had a normal marriage then I would have believed that they were both working hard to provide a good environment for you. You are probably thinking that my parents are indeed working hard to let me live a comfortable life and you are most likely thinking that I am overthinking things or that I am being a brat. However, do you really think that that is the case if I were to tell you that my parents, both my mom and my dad, are fooling around with other people?"

Su An An's body stiffened when she heard Luo Bing Bing's words. She never expected to hear such things from Luo Bing Bing and what's more terrifying was the fact that Luo Bing Bing was talking about it as though it was the most normal thing in the world to find out that her own parents were both fooling around. It also kind of traumatized her that Luo Bing Bing seemed so calm despite the anger and sadness in her voice.

Luo Bing Bing looked at Su An An and laughed. A laugh that was more like mocking herself than at Su An An.

"Judging from your reaction, you probably don't think so anymore. Yea, I don't think so either. They are working hard to get what they want. I am not involved in their life in any way. I am probably not in the future they saw for themselves. It sounds quite depressing and I know it sounds as though I am insane to remain so calm. However, what else can I do? I have gone crazy before but they didn't care about me. Sometimes. Just sometimes. I wonder why I was given life into this world if I was something that could be thrown away. They rather spend time with their own lovers and work than to spend a little bit more time on me."

"You probably don't know how it felt for a twelve-year-old girl to go to her father's company and find out that he was sleeping with his secretary. Then, on the very same day, find out that her mother was sleeping with her shareholder. I don't think anyone would know how that feels and I don't think anyone could have had it worse than me because I found out about their marriage agreement that very night when I was crying in their study room. Do you want to make a guess what their agreement was about?"

Without waiting for Su An An to reply, Luo Bing Bing continued on in a calm voice.

"The agreement state that my mother would marry my father if he promised to provide her some money to start Starlight Entertainment. In exchange, my father would obtain the shares of Luo Finance Company from my grandfather through their marriage. Yeap, they married each other for mutual benefits. However, unlike other arranged marriage, their marriage was meant to be open. They were not bounded by their marriage in any way because they knew that they didn't love each other, and at least not enough to stay committed to one another. Hence, they had agreed on letting each other play outside. Unlike other arranged marriages, they didn't bother to even fake being in love or at least tried to look like a normal couple. Well, I guess they did try to look like a normal couple on a certain level. I guess the only reason why they didn't bring their lovers home was that they were afraid that either of their parents would find out about the matter. Or maybe it was that there was only one master bedroom and it wouldn't be fair for them to only let one person have the master bedroom while the other used the guest room. Or maybe they thought that I was clueless about what they were doing since I am only an underage girl in their eyes. Do you know what's more interesting?"

"I don't even know if I am really their child? Perhaps I am the child that they had with either of their lovers and not their child. Even if I am their child, I am most likely an accident that came because they were drunk or when their hormones were high. Well, even if I am not their child, I am most likely the child of my mother and her lover. After all, I have all her features and my mother only has one lover. Meanwhile, my father has too many lovers and he changes them too frequently. So, I guess he would have taken care of any possible child he had outside. Then the interesting question comes, if I am the child of my mother and her lover, why would he bother to respond to my requests. So, I guess I am probably still their child."

"However, if I am really their child, why do they treat me as though I am non-existence? I went crazy that night and smashed everything in the house. The servants were shocked and they called for my parents. However, they didn't even bother to come back and see if I am alright. They told the servants to either lock me up in the room or get some doctors to attend to me, in case I had really turned nuts. Do you know I felt when I heard their words? I felt as though I was some dirt in their lives. Their words made me thought that perhaps, just perhaps, I was a crazy person that was meant to be locked up in the mental hospital. Perhaps, I was crazy and had been hallucinating all my life."