Chapter 458 - Part Of Him

"That's not just a fever. It's a high fever."

"This is not just nothing. This is a big cut!" Su An An pointed at Yan Chu's hand as she spoke with the angered voice and took the medical kit out.

Su An An had never been more than thankful for having a medical kit at home even though it was Yan Chu who bought it. She quickly got an ice pack from the fridge as well before she pulled Yan Chu out to the living room.

Yan Chu gave up on fighting back or arguing with Su An An because he knew that there was no way out of this argument if they continued on. He knew that neither of them would back down. Hence, he sighed as he let her pull him out of the kitchen. However, despite the annoyed look on his face, deep down, he was feeling very happy. He felt a very strong sense of bliss that he had never felt before, not even when Mo Xi helped him, and he couldn't help but smile a little.

Su An An applied direct pressure on Yan Chu's wound with a piece of sterile gauze until it stopped bleeding before she cleaned the area with a saline solution. She then searched through the medical kit for antibiotic ointment and wrapped his thumb with a sterile bandage.

Yan Chu looked at Su An An as she dressed his wound carefully and anxiously as though he was the most precious person to her in the whole world. He couldn't help but smile as he looked at her. He felt his heart beating irregularly and he took a deep breath to calm it down. There was a part of him that told him to let his guard down and that he knew that he could still love a person. This part of him knew that as long as he wanted to, he could love the person and take care of the person for life. This part of him wanted to smile at her idiotically and pull her into his arms. However, there was a part of him that told him to keep his guard up. This part of him told himself and tried to convince himself that he didn't like her and that he shouldn't be smiling while looking at her. This part of him told himself that he was making a mistake and the consequences would be detrimental. That was because this part of him told himself that he was not capable of loving someone and making that person stay. Yet, he was falling in love with a girl that he could accidentally hurt because of his nature.

At this moment, the part of Yan Chu that wanted to let his guard down won the part that wanted to keep his guard up.

Yan Chu no longer avoided looking at her as he did just now, and this time around he was the one that was staring at her while smiling idiotically. He was now just a man looking at a woman because he wanted to. He was not the CEO that was here to protect the woman just because he was told to. He was also not the person that took care of the woman the whole of last night because it was his duty to keep her serve. He was only here because he wanted to. He was only here because he cared about her from the bottom of his heart.

Meanwhile, Su An An hadn't notice Yan Chu staring at her because she was engrossed in taking care of his wound. She gave his wound her full attention and once she was done wrapping his thumb with the bandage, she placed the ice pack over it to prevent swelling.

Su An An then looked at Yan Chu to see if he was feeling alright, and she was stunned to see him looking at her with gentle eyes. His eyes were filled with happiness, pain, love, and sadness at the same time and that confused her a lot. She didn't understand why he felt all of those emotions when he said that he was only here because she was his duty. She, even more, didn't understand why he would be sad and happy at the same time.

Su An An shook away the thoughts in her mind before she spoke, "How are you feeling? Did I bandage it too tightly? Do you feel light-headed? Do you want to go to the hospital or to the clinic instead?"

Yan Chu snapped back to reality when he heard Su An An's voice and his eyes turned cold immediately. It was as though the gentleness that she saw earlier on was all fake and she had imagined them. He sat up straight and his demeanor changed instantly to the professional CEO that he was. He was no longer just a man. He was once again the CEO that was here to protect her only because he was told to.

Su An An was stunned once again because of the sudden coldness and her heart sank once again. She didn't like this part of Yan Chu because this part of him kept pushing her away and hurting her with mean words that he probably didn't mean to. Although she didn't know how he felt about her, she was sure that he wasn't just here to protect her because he was told to. If he did, he wouldn't have stayed up all night, he would have sent her to the clinic instead. If he did, he wouldn't have been caring for her. She could sense that he was saying mean things because he wanted to push her away and she could feel that he had been keeping his guards up just like what Mo Xi had told her. She really liked the part of him that she saw earlier on because this part of him would let his guards down in front of her and not push her away.