Chapter 55
In a trance, as though I was listening to the devil’s tantalizing whisper, Bleon pushed me back gently, taking this silence as my permission. Then, through my wide open thighs, the whole of his thick length that had been lying beneath me was revealed. I stared intently at him, not looking away, and Bleon’s large hand wrapped around his member.
He began to stroke it skillfully, unlike the clumsy actions I had previously done. As before, when he rubbed the prec*m flowing from the tip and down, all over his manhood, the flesh collided with each other, and the sound of friction mixed with a squelching sound echoed. This sound was so identical to the sound I heard when I woke up that time, goosebumps rushed down my spine.
“Nngh, haa…”
His eyes were filled with pleasure as I looked up at the sound of his moan above his head.
“The wife is looking at me, and I think I’m going to come already…”
Then, what if I touch it? Wouldn’t he come faster if I touched it? As soon as I thought of that, my hand touched him by itself. And past his lewd hand, which was rapidly stroking the length, I carefully rubbed the blunt end where his most sensitive nerves were.
“Huk, Wife…”
To be honest, I even thought about putting it in my mouth, but it didn’t look like I’d be able to fit that big girth in my mouth. So, I compromised and used my hand instead, continuing to stimulate him. Bleon’s breathing suddenly became harsh.
“Huu, hah, nngh, Wife, A— Astell, nnnngh…!”
I had placed my hand on his length, closed my fingers over him and started stroking it like crazy. With an intense moan that seemed to come from the depths of his abdomen, sticky white fluid burst out of him. The fluid that was squirted out without even having a chance to stop it was all over my face, chest, and other parts of my body without mercy. I looked at him with amazement.
“Haa, I’m sorry. Wife… I didn’t mean to do this…”
Bleon took a deep breath and, with an ashamed face, hurriedly wiped the s*men off me with his hand.
“I-It’s okay.”
He seemed to be blaming himself quite harshly, and as I smiled awkwardly that I was fine, Bleon gently grabbed my face and gave me a kiss.
“I love you. I love you, Astell.”
“Yes. Me too.”
“I love you.”
“Yeah, ah, mmph…”
With the passionate confession the light kiss along suddenly turned into a sticky and erotic kiss. As he pulled out my tongue and sucked it like he was going to devour it, Bleon started rubbing his hardened manhood again on my clitoris and entrance.
“Huht, uhhng.”
“You’re very wet, Wife.”
“Hnngg, ahhhk, ah…”
“Can I put it in…?”
As Bleon said, as I watched him pleasure himself, my thighs were dripping with my wetness, so he was ready to come in.
“Uhngg, put it, mmngh, in…”
When I asked to put it in, Bleon lightly lifted my waist, aligned the tip of his member with the opening, and slammed my hips down at once.
“AHNG…!”
The thick flesh that came in while scratching the contracting inner walls touched the most sensitive part of the inside, and in an instant, my entire body shuddered. However, Bleon did not let me feel just this on my own, and immediately started moving my waist up and pounding his weight strongly.
“Ahheuk, ah, huk, Bleon, ahhng, ahhhk…!”
As if my whole body had become an erogenous zone, I felt a chill in my back every time he went in and out with the distant pleasure, and my whole body was trembling. There was no way I could control my body, so I hugged his neck tightly and instinctively pulled his muscular body closer to me, pressing down on my chest.
“Hu-hanng, ahhk, ahng! AHHNGH…!”
But then a finger touched my clitoris and rubbed it quickly. When two of the most sensitive parts, inside and outside, were stimulated at the same time, a huge amount of pleasure began to rush in like a wave.
“D-Don’t, huhk, aahkk, ahng! Ahhhnng!”
In an instant, my body stiffened and my vision became white. In the midst of a violent climax that could not be stopped, my thighs twitched, and the inner walls repeatedly contracted and relaxed like crazy.
“Huuuhk, huuuh, huk.”
Tears welled up in my eyes at the intense sensation. Still, it was when I was breathing slowly with a feeling of relief that it was over with a feeling of languor. Suddenly, Bleon spread my thighs all the way out and thrust his length entirely to the hilt.
“AHH!”
Then he grabbed my hips and pounded into me at the speed of a beast.
“Aaahh, that, huk! Huwang! Don’t, aaahhng!”
I wanted to tell him to stop, but Bleon was moving his waist at a breakneck speed, with such force and intensity that I couldn’t even say a word. So, in the end, I gave up and surrendered myself to him, just sobbing in pleasure. And after quite some time, as if he had lost his mind, he thrusted inside, then burst out a roaring groan and ejaculated deep inside me.
“Haa, ugh.”
“Uhhhk, huht, heuuuhhk.”
I was panting from the unimaginable pleasure that came over me again, and my body was laid back. His length was still erect. Bleon looked down at me from above and gently swept my hair from my face one lock at a time. But unlike his hand, his lower body moved again.
“…Nngh, again?”
Contrary to my astonished expression, Bleon’s eyes were filled with lust that was not yet satisfied.
“One more time, one more time.”
“But… Hngg.”
“Wife…”
Even when he was still asking for permission, he didn’t stop moving, and in the end we didn’t leave the room until the day Bleon was set to leave.
* * *
The day Bleon left for the battlefield, he told me not to see him off, but I couldn’t stay still. So I went out to the front of the mansion to watch him leave.
“Careful, go on.”
I thought I would cry if anyone touched me even a little bit, but I held it in. I didn’t want to show myself crying in front of the person leaving. Instead, I smiled broadly. I had a smile on my face, like someone who firmly believed that nothing would happen to us and that we would soon see each other again.
“Wife.”
Bleon embraced me in his arms. The armor he was wearing felt very unfamiliar, so I wanted to take it off even now.
“I will be strong and do well. So, you must be careful and come back, Duke.”
“Yes, my wife.”
Bleon’s voice was low and hoarse. He wanted to cry with me, but he was holding on.
“I love you. I love you. I love you.”
“I love you too. I love you. I love you, Wife.”
We threw the words that we loved each other like we didn’t want to lose the other.
A loud horn rang in the distance. Now was the time to leave. Bleon gave me a long kiss on the forehead with sad eyes and then mounted the horse with one fluid motion. We didn’t talk to each other anymore. With only our eyes, we promised each other that we would meet again soon.
If there’s a god out there, please, bring him back to me.
Bleon left. I watched him leave, knowing that he would not be back for a very long time.
* * *
It has been three months since he left. The last two winters I spent with him were not so cold, but this winter was extremely cold because of the fact that Bleon wasn’t with me. As the new year began, I turned thirty-six years old while Bleon was twenty-three.
But a very big change happened to me. I wasn’t expecting anything, but I went to see the doctor, just in case, I was given the news—I was pregnant.
Before Bleon left, I purposely stopped drinking birth control pills. It was the greatest obligation I could have left as Duchess Einer, and it was my heart for Bleon. It was for a terrifying and hopeless tiny possibility that I would never want to think about, but still have to think about. To be honest, I never thought I could become pregnant. Pregnancy was not so easy, and it was because it was so uncertain.
But, strangely, only after a few days of stopping the pills, I became pregnant. My child—the child of both Bleon and I—was now growing in my womb. So, I thought that Bleon would be very happy when he came back, and I thought that I should live a good life, eating well and sleeping well.
I felt a bit of pain later and, at first, I thought it was a temporary pain caused by pregnancy and didn’t tell my doctor. But the pain got worse and worse, and in the end, the suffocating pain made me sit down and roll over. Now that the pain was unbearable, I finally called the doctor.
“Madam, the doctor is here.”
“Let him in.”
“Yes.”