Chapter 67 - Eleanor Insecurites.

Eleanor hugged Cedric as if her life depended on him. Once in a while… a sob would escape from her throat. But Cedric's constant rubbing on her back made her feel at ease if only a little. 

"I-i-I am s-s-so so-sorry. I always try to give our relationship a try as much as possible but I feel so insecure with you," she admitted. 

"Why?" He asked. 

"You do so much for me. But in return, I didn't do a single thing for you. And again… Whenever I try to take a step forward towards 'us'. Something hits me and makes me back out suddenly from 'us'. Even now… when I brought the topic about my brother out… I felt nothing but when you said nothing but offensive words about my brother, I flared up on you. 

"I am not suitable for you. You deserve someone better. I am known for broken shoes. You find… someone… someone better than me," Eleanor said. 

She felt a lump in her throat when she asked him to marry someone else. But she also knew she had to be strong. as he deserves someone better. 

Eleanor tried to get down from his grip and but she was pinned on his bed by him. 

"Eleanor…" He called out, making her look at him with a frown. 

She looked at him with her green eyes which were filled with hesitation, and fear. And precisely fear of losing him and hope. 

"If you are not worthy of me, why would I wait for a long time? Hmmm? I don't want you to help me or become my aid. I want you to be with me and stay beside me. And as for the things I did… I did them because I am capable. But… you can do them too when you become capable too. Don't think too much." He said. 

Eleanor found herself nodding her head at him. 

"Also… don't cry too much. When we meet your father… he will think I am bullying you. If you wash your face now… we can go down and have breakfast before we leave to your place," Cedric said to her. 

Eleanor nodded her head and went inside. 

As she stood in front of the sink… she thought about everything. Could she really be with him? Putting all her insecurities aside with him? 

She thought about it very hard… even her heart and brain weren't helping her all that much. She needed someone to help her think. 

Myna! Her friend Myna could help her. 

Fishing out her phone from her pocket, she dialed Myna's number. 

"Hello…" Eleanor said. 

"What!? Didn't we agree to meet this evening?! Do you miss me so much!?" Eleanor has to pull her phone away from her ears, to get some distance for the sake of the long life of her ears. 

"Myna… slow down. I need your advice. Right now and right in this call," Eleanor said seriously, pulling Myna into serious mode. 

"Do face time," Myna said to her, before cutting the call. 

Eleanor sighed and did a video call to her. 

"What do you want? You are calling me from inside the bathroom?" Myna asked. 

"I am confused," Eleanor said truthfully. 

"About?" Myna asked.

"Cedric Emerson," Eleanor admitted. 

"Hmm… What about it?" Myna asked. 

"Myna… that…" Eleanor wanted to say a lot but she doesn't know what to say. 

"Say it clearly!" Myna said in an annoyed voice. 

Myna knew that if Eleanor starts feeling hesitation, then she would never say those words. Only with her annoyed tone… could she make her spill out the beans. 

"Myna… he helped me, in dealing with Jacob, Jessica, the company, and even my brother's health. He was there in every part of my life. But… I couldn't do anything to him. And he never asks me to do anything but my for my love. I don't know what to do? I feel he deserves someone better than me. I am so confused. I never felt like this when I was with Jacob. Tell me! What should I do?" Eleanor almost begged her friend, to give a conclusion to her feelings. She doesn't want to be in a dilemma for a long time. 

"Eleanor… first tell me… what do you feel about him? When he was near you… what do you feel? Does your heart race? Do you feel like you blush a lot when he was around you? Do you want to rip his clothes and have your way with him?" Myna asked. 

Eleanor fell silent at her words all of a sudden. Indeed… whenever he was with her… she saw his genuine smile and care for her. No matter whenever she was in a trouble… his hands sneak it's a way around her waist and pulls her body closer to his hard chest to protect her. 

When she was bullied by her enemies… he KO'ed them in a single shot making them never be able to get up again. 

When she needs support… unknowingly he came to her side and became her pillar, to lean on and take support. 

But along with all of these things… he was a big pervert. He just says what he wants to her. Every word that left his mouth, would make her heartbeat in passion and lust. She feels like a crazy teenager who was freshly in love. 

Just the thought of him would make her blush. Eleanor didn't notice that Myna was watching her every move and action like a hawk who was waiting to catch its prey. 

Eleanor's face turned from being pale, to grateful, to thankful, to shy, and then she started blushing. And the way she kept her hand on her chest made Myna realize that her friend finally met her true soulmate. She should push her further towards him so that she would never feel unworthy because of that stupid scum, Jacob Boris. 

Because of him, she even feels unworthy of her Mr. Right. What could she do to mend her best friend's heart? As her best friend, she could do limited things in matters of the heart. But Cedric could do more than she could. Maybe this would be a chance for her and him? 

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