Chapter 51 - To Resist His Charm

Megan's POV

I know I am crazy because I already broke up with Ashton, but when he asked me if he could meet me tomorrow after my part-time job, I felt so happy, and I wanted to jump on my feet. And I was smiling during the entire class of my first period.

"It looks like you are in a good mood, Megan. And I am 100% sure it was because of Ashton. If I were you, I would make him my boyfriend again so you would be like that always. Ever since you broke up with Ashton, I never see you smile genuinely, and I know that you are still hurting inside, and deep in your core, you wanted to be with him." Alice said as we walked towards our next subject, and I am still lost for words after Ashton asked me to meet him tomorrow after my work. And I am still in cloud nine.

"But I can tell that you also felt scared to face Ashton again because you can't trust yourself, am I right?" Alice asked me, and I can't disagree with my best friend.

"Yeah, you are right, Al. Everything you said to me was true, I was excited to see him, and I felt scared at the same time. But I don't have a choice. I need to face Ashton, and I can tell he is only eager to meet me to talk about our literature project because he is still avoiding me." I replied, and my best friend beamed at me.

"You know, Meg, the decision would always be yours. If you still want Ashton, I think there is nothing wrong if you will be the one to ask Ashton that you should get back together." Alice said.

"Do you think I can do that, Alice? I don't want to be humiliated. What if he won't take me back? It would be a big slap on my face." I responded, and I heard the boys in the hallway saying hi to me, and they looked at me differently now, and I couldn't stop blushing when I realized they were checking me out.

I am aware ever since I started wearing clothes appropriate for our age, boys are always looking at me, but I can tell they were hesitant to approach me. Mostly it was Oscar who would deliver messages coming from them.

I have received invitations to go on a date, and they are mostly guys from the football team, but how could I date someone when I am always thinking about the hot quarterback of our school? I know I am pathetic, but I hope I can get over this dilemma sooner because I still need to graduate, and I want to leave this phase of my life behind, but I could tell I will never forget about Ashton, no matter what I do. And that is the only thing I am so sure about in my life because I am not yet sure if I can graduate or continue to study college.

"Well, at least you will try. There is nothing wrong with it, Megan. Besides, Ashton is used to being chased by girls, so it will not make any difference for him." Alice responded.

"No, I won't do it, Alice, even if I am dying to be with him," I replied.

"Good luck to you and your ego, Megan. I hope you will find happiness in the future." Alice said, and she walked inside our classroom ahead of me while I released a heavy sigh as I moved inside with lazy steps.

On the following day, my morning classes passed in a blur, and after the bell rang, signifying our lunch break was over, and we hurried into our classroom. And I could feel the pounding of my heart when I found Ashton looking at me the moment I entered our room for our first period in the afternoon. I quickly averted his gaze, and I couldn't stop myself from feeling so hot. And I know my face is blushing as of the moment, and I became more excited to meet him tonight. I am happy that I reviewed my lesson in advance, or else I will become the laughingstock of my fellow students when our teacher called me to answer the number one equation on the board. I got applauded by the boys when I finished answering the question.

"Wow, very impressive, Megan." Our teacher said the moment I got back on my seat, and our teacher called Ashton to answer the number two question. As expected, he could also answer the equation without a sweat, and I couldn't stop my eyes from checking out his body since I can't deny he looked hotter than ever, and I felt Alice nudged me on my arm.

"You have given all the options, Bestie, but you tried your best to deny yourself what you want with your life, and since you want to forget him. I think you better stop looking at Ashton that way, or he is going to melt by the way you looked at him." Alice whispered in my ear, and I giggled. But, I couldn't stop myself from blushing when Ashton caught me looking at him without blinking my eyes. And I felt the knots on my stomach when we stared at each other for a long while, and then he winked at me and gave me a beautiful smile that made my knees felt so weak. 

"Megan, it is still obvious that you can't stop yourself from wanting Ashton, and I think you should give yourself a break and date him again. I know I told you to stop, but as your friend, I know you are suffering." Alice said after we got inside the bus going to the fish shop, I felt glad we could ride right away because I didn't want to be late for our work.

"I admit I want to be with Ashton, but we both know it is impossible, Alice. And I think, my dearest best friend, there is nothing wrong with liking him from a distance again. At least I have experienced how to be kissed by him." I said as I remembered Ashton's handsome face.

"Whatever, Meg. I will always support you with your decision." She said, and I sighed as I leaned my back on the seat.

"You know what, Alice? Sometimes, I wish I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth, and maybe I am not experiencing this kind of misery right now. Loving Ashton was hard enough for me, and I know it will become harder if we continue dating each other, and once his father finds out about us, it will be a disaster. I need to secure my heart from further injury, so I better stay away from him. Besides, he is no longer interested in me, and I know it is better this way." I said as I looked at the window, and I couldn't believe it suddenly rained.

"Okay, if that is your final decision, it is all up to you. Maybe you need to find someone new." She said.

"Come on, Al, you know me; Ashton is a handful already. Maybe having a boyfriend at this time is not really for me." I replied.

"Yeah, at least your ex-boyfriend was the hottest guy in school." She said, and I couldn't stop myself from smiling from ear to ear.

Because of the heavy rain, we only had few customers in the stores, and Anthony asked us to clean the tank schedule for cleaning. I suddenly forgot about my problems as I watched the fish in the aquariums after we cleaned them. We also made an inventory of the stocks at the back of the shop where the stock room was located. We said goodbye to our boss after our work, and as we got out of the store, I felt glad the rain had stopped.

My steps faltered, and I couldn't stop myself from feeling so nervous when I found Ashton waiting for me, and his intense gaze made my stomach flip.

"How could he looked that way even he was only wearing a simple shirt and shorts. Megan, how could you resist his charm when he looked that way?" My best friend declared, and I looked at her.

"It was harder than you will ever know, Alice, and tonight I am wondering how am I going to survive the night without telling him how I felt, but I know I should think he was only here for our project and nothing more," I said in more than a whisper.

"Who knows, maybe you will realize later that you should follow what your heart wants." She said before she ran away from me, going to the nearest cafe where she would meet her boyfriend, and I walked to Ashton with a smile on my face.

"Hello, Megan, do you know you looked more beautiful when you were smiling?" He said, and my face flushed.

"And you are adorable when you blushed." He added, and his comments made my face turned redder.

"Thank you for giving me a chance to meet you tonight, Megan." He said, and I could see the seriousness of his face as he opened the door for me, and when he touched my arm to assist me in getting inside his car, I could feel the electricity right away, and I am aware Ashton felt it too.

"My parents are out of the country. Would it be alright if I took you to our house?" He asked.

"I don't think that is a good idea, Ashton, and maybe we can find another place where we can talk." I replied, and I could see his face saddened, but he hid the sadness right away by giving me a beautiful smile as he turned around and walked going to the driver's seat.

"Maybe we can go to your house, and we are doing a project together, so I guess it would be alright with your brother and parents." He said, and I was about to protest when he continued talking.

"Come on, Meg, you already broke up with me, so I guess you will not feel guilty if you will invite me to get inside your house because right now, I don't even know if you will allow me to call you my friend." He said, and his words hurt me because I can't deny I want us to be more than friends once again. 

"Of course, we can't be friends, Ashton. That is impossible because I don't fit it in your society, no matter if I dress according to your standards." I said, and he looked at me sideways.

"Who says you don't fit in, Megan? Our status in life doesn't matter to me." He declared, and I could feel my entire body was on fire when he leaned down, and I knew he was about to kiss me, but he stopped when his phone rang, and I felt glad it happened because I knew I could never stop myself from kissing him back, and I can feel my entire body felt so weak. And I couldn't stop myself from smiling as I realized the meaning of his words, and Alice was right.. There is a chance I will follow what my heart desires tonight, and I wish I could resist Ashton's allure.