Chapter 131 - My Son's Laughter

Megan's POV

After closing the door hard in front of Ashton's face, I couldn't stop my limbs from trembling as I realized he had found out about Axel. And I am now one hundred percent sure he hired a private detective to know everything about me, and he must bribe my security guard why he could get inside my property without a sweat. He ruined my plan for the entire day, and even if I wanted to have my early jog, I couldn't get outside because I felt so worried if he was still on my front porch.

"Are you okay, Megan?" I heard Clara ask me by the time she found me leaning on the door frame.

"No, I am not, Clara; Ashton is outside, and he wanted to see my son," I said, and Axel's nanny smiled at me.

"You have to relax, Megan. I am sure your ex will not do something stupid that will hurt your son. Now that he came here, maybe he wanted to know Axel. I know I don't have the right to tell you what to do, but in my opinion, you should introduce him to your son." Clara said as she looked at me with tenderness.

She had been Axel's nanny for many years now, and I consider her as part of our family member; that is why she knew everything about Ashton and me, and even about Gael. I hated that Clara was one of Ashton's fans during his football career, but I can't ask her to stop watching football because the star he idolized was my ex, and we had an unpleasant past.

"You told me last time Axel asked you who is his biological father, and I think this is your chance, Meg; you don't need to tell Ashton about your son since he already found out about Axel." Clara declared.

"I don't know, Clara, if it would be a wise decision for me, but for now, I felt so afraid if I would end up humiliating and hurting myself more," I said, and I could feel my entire face was blushing.

"Well, it will always be your decision, Meg. We are here to support you. But maybe you should give him a chance to know Axel and set aside your fear and your pride for the sake of Axel. I am sure he will be ecstatic to know that his football hero is his father." She said, and my heart swelled, and I became more confused about what to do about Ashton.

I know Clara has a point since I was worried about how I would approach Ashton and tell him about our son, and Clara was right when she said this is the best time. But I am not yet ready to face Ashton. I can't trust my heart, and I hated myself that I looked at his compelling eyes, and I felt so glad I didn't throw myself at him, it would be a disaster knowing he is getting married, and he will know I am still head over heels with him.

I felt a pang on my chest when it dawned on me that Ashton was talking about Axel when he said he wanted to claim what was rightfully his and not me, and I hated him more for giving me false hope. I needed Gael to come since I can't face Ashton alone, and I can't do this because I know I can't stop staring at him like a starstruck fan; how could he become so yummy? What? What is wrong with me? Why am I even thinking Ashton like food? I need to get a grip before I go crazy.

"Don't let him get inside the house, Clara, and please tell the household staff that man is not welcome in my home," I said, and I could see the stunned look on Clara's face. And I excused myself from her, and I climbed the stairs hastily since I wanted to speak with my best friend before I went crazy.

"Hello, what's up, Meg!" I heard Alice's voice in the other line, and I was walking inside my room like a lunatic since I couldn't stop the rapid beating of my heart.

"Where the hell are you, Alice? Why aren't you here when I needed you the most?" I asked her, and she was laughing on the other line.

"What is wrong, Meg? I have a relaxation right now." She calmly said.

"Ashton is here, Al. Can you believe it? And the worst part he knew about my son, please come here, Al, I needed you to you here now." I said as I released a heavy breath.

"You have to relax, Megan. I am sure Ashton will not kidnap you or Axel; besides, this is your chance to prove to him that you are no longer affected by his handsome face or his presence because the more you hide or stay away from him, the more he will think you still feel the same way towards him." She said, and I couldn't believe them. First, it was Clara, and now even Alice was talking the same way.

I don't have a choice but to end the call because I know I can never convince Alice to come into my house right now; since she told me she will be having some shopping alone because she wanted to look good during our retreat. And now that this is all happening to me, I wanted to go on the retreat with Alice to forget all about this.

And maybe during the retreat, I could find the answers that I have been looking for, and I needed time to clear my head, and I will have an idea of what to do with my life, and of course, on what to do with Ashton because I need to forget him because he is getting married and I am still hung up with him. Do I need to follow my best friend's advice to tell him about Axel so he will cancel his engagement with his fiancee? Am I that pathetic that I am going to use my son to bring back Ashton's affection for me?

I dove on my bed headfirst and put my face on my pillow, and I screamed as I realized my once peaceful life became chaotic again because of one person. Why do I need to see him again? I tried dialing Gael's number, and I was ready to hang up on my fifth call when I heard his voice on the other line.

"Hey, Meg? What is wrong?" He asked, and my tears fell on my cheeks.

"Do you hate me, Gael?" I asked, and he laughed.

"What kind of question is that, Meg? How could I hate you when I am trying my best to forget about my feelings for you." He said before I heard him release a heavy grunt.

"I am sorry, Meg, I don't intend to say it aloud." He said while I tried to stop myself from crying, I knew I was crying because I felt so frustrated with myself.

"I am sorry, Gael," I replied.

"You don't need to say sorry to me, Meg. It is not your fault if you can't give me more except your friendship. And please don't feel guilty about it since it was my choice to love you even if from the start I know I can never take his place." Gael said, and I could feel the piercing of my heart. How I wish I could love Gael back. And why do I need to feel this way towards my son's father when he had done nothing but hurt me.

"Hey, are you still crying? I wasn't avoiding you, Megan. I am busy, and I hope this tour will be over soon, so I can be with you and Axel." He said, and I smiled.

"Did he receive the gift I sent him?" He asked.

"Yes, he did," I replied, and I felt guilty knowing my son didn't touch the gifts he received on his birthday except for the baseball ball he received from Alice, and every night he slept on his bed hugging the ball. And I hate to think why he got almost everything from his father, his looks, and even his passion for football.

"But you know my son, and he wanted to see you, Gael. He missed you so much." I said, and instead of telling him about Ashton, I opted not to say anything because I knew I would only hurt him.

We talked some more until he told me he needed to go. I felt so empty after Gael ended the call, and I was lying on my bed when I suddenly got up and ran outside my door, and I was panting when I reached Axel's room, and my body turned so cold when I couldn't find him on his bed. I was calling my son's name as I ran through the hallways down to the staircase.

"Where is my son?" I asked Clara when I found her in the dining room, and I couldn't see my son. And the expression that I saw on her face was telling me I've got my suspicion right.

I moved away from the dining room at once and ran towards the front door, and I could hear the loud pounding of my heart as I went outside. I stopped in my tracks when I listened to my little boy laughing so hard as he ran away from Ashton.. Then my heart melted when his father reached him, and Ashton took Axel into his arms, and I couldn't stop my tears from falling as I continued to hear Axel's laughter reverberated the entire place.