Jiang Xu was silent for a long time, raised his hand to wipe his tears, and his voice choked: "what's the use of saying I'm sorry What else can I do but forgive you? "
Fu Shen's heart was relaxed. He pinned Jiang Xu's hair behind his ears, and his voice said softly, "ginger, I promise, this is the last time."
Jiang Xiu buried his face in his arms and said in a jar: "come a few more times, I can't stand it."
Zheng Peng clapped his hands and said, "can you pay attention? In public, you and me? That's about it. "
She looked at Gu Zheng: "you still have a bad debt to deal with."
Gu Zheng's face was very cold. After he had faded from his youth, he had always been as gentle as jade. He had been involved in politics, which made him smooth without edges and corners. Jiang Xu had not seen him like this for a long time.
But in the face of Gu Zheng, she really did not know what to say.
So he opened his mouth and said, "Gu Zheng, you..."
Gu Zheng looked at her seriously: "you always remember, right?"
Jiang Xiu nodded gently.
Gu Zheng smile: "then you see me lie to you, don't feel very funny?"
"No, Gu Zheng." Jiang Xiu bit his lip and sighed, "I I've told you very clearly that sometimes there must be something in your life. Don't insist on it all the time. What you miss is missing. No one can turn back the flow of time. No one can change the things that have happened. Do you think so? "
“……” Gu Zheng laughs. He looks at his clenched palm.
When he was young, he clenched a handful of sand. The more tightly he held it, the faster it passed, so he lost his mother.
He was in the ward all night with the woman, she was very unconscious, not very recognizable, always talking nonsense in pain - of course, at that time, it was difficult for her to speak.
In a sunny morning, she finally got better. She opened her eyes and saw him. She grabbed his hand and shed tears. He also shed tears unconsciously. She held her mother's hand tightly and thought what her mother would ask him? Is it study or illness? He had already thought out how to reply in his heart, but she said, "Chiyuan..."
Her name is Gu Chiyuan.
At that moment, Gu Zheng's heart fell heavily and fell into countless pieces. Each fragment was like a mirror reflecting his sad face, so he suddenly felt ridiculous.
Gu Chiyuan abandoned her and took advantage of her. She left with her son stubbornly, leaving the last proud bone. He thought she had forgotten this man, but now he knows that no love that can be put down is just self deception. As she returns to light and is about to die, she holds him like a girl Hand, said: "Chi Yuan, the flowers in the yard are blooming, aren't they? I can smell the flowers. "
After many years, Gu Zheng can't remember his mood at that time. Is it disgust or hate? But he remembered what he said: "yes, the flowers are blooming. Do you want to go and see it?"
She shook her head, smile, said slowly: "no, no, such a good scenery, don't be defiled by me."
She said, the breath is very weak, but still struggling to ask: "Chi Yuan Have you ever loved me? "
That sentence, like exhausted all her strength.
She opened her blurred eyes and seemed to want an answer before she died. She wanted an answer that had been waiting for many years.
Gu Zheng was silent for a while and said softly, "I loved you. "
she smiles contentedly and dies with that satisfaction.
The doctor said she was walking in peace.
It's very peaceful.
Gu Zheng thought, just to death, she is most concerned about Gu Chiyuan.
Now, Jiang Xiu is like the handful of sand he holds in his hand. He tries very hard to hold on to it, and finally it all flows away.
Gu Zheng was smiling and suddenly felt desolate. He looked at Jiang Xiu, and her appearance was reflected in his eyes. It seemed that there was no difference between Gu Zheng and his youth. Time treated her well.
He remembered a lot of the past, or when she was very young, picking up garbage alone in the park, or being bullied in the alley that year.
It's all good memories.
Gu Zheng closed his eyes and asked, "Jiang Xiu, if I Did not leave without saying goodbye at that time, would things be different? "
just like he was, Jiang Xu was silent for a moment and said," maybe. "
Even the answer is the same as him.
Gu Zheng remembers that he was pitying his mother at that time. Now, is Jiang Xiu pitying him?
Things to this point, Jiang Xu even willing to pity him.
Gu Zheng covered his eyes and said in a hoarse voice, "go, you go."
Jiang Xiu pursed his lips and said, "Gu Zheng I don't blame you. "Gu Zheng smiles: "I know."
Jiang Xu always feels uncomfortable, but she can't tell why.
Zheng Peng patted her on the shoulder and said, "let's go."
Jiang Xu nodded and followed Fu Chenhan to the door. She suddenly heard a gunshot and turned back in amazement.
Gu Zheng stood in the small yard full of flowers, dressed in a snow-white shirt, standing there like a jade tree facing the wind. He looked at Jiang Xu, pulled the trigger, and the bullet went through his chest. He didn't look. He saw Jiang Xiu, and his lips even had a little smile. It seemed that he said something, and then it was like Yushan collapsed and fell to the ground.
A crape myrtle flower petals from the mountains and rivers, fell in his hair.
Jiang Xun burst into tears.
Fu Chenhan had expected that he would die. Otherwise, he would have been exiled if Gu Chiyuan's affairs were found out. If he had colluded with Gu Ci, he would have been exiled if he didn't get locked up. If he died today, he would have written a heavy ink in your heart
Jiang Xu ran over crying and knelt down beside Gu Zheng. His eyes were still open, gentle and indulgent as ever.
"Gu Zheng Gu Zheng... "
Her voice of crying was dumb: "why do you have to Why do you have to
But Gu Zheng will not answer her again.
Jiang Xu's fingers trembled over his eyelids, and his hands gently caressed him. Gu Zheng closed his eyes with her action.
Wind, crape myrtle flowers flutter and down, Jiang Xiu thought, she will always remember that day.
Gu Zheng died of that, Lagerstroemia flowers in full bloom, sunny autumn.
It was a sunny day, the sky was blue, the clouds were lazy, and there were birds singing in the distance.
Gu Zheng died in the 19th year of their acquaintance.