Chapter 171 - I NEED TIME AND SPACE!

Tinsley held onto the bedsheet as she felt his warm breath hitting her skin. Her pebbled nipples, poking through her dress and legs wide open as he was in between her...made him crazy for her.

Her chest heaved up and down as he began kissing, licking and leaving bite marks all over her exposed skin...making her scream out when he licked her erect nipples through the material of her cloth.

When she felt his fingers on her core, it was her waking up call and she rose up, pushing him off of her, shocking him and her both.

"What the hell!!"

Kian cursed out, coming out of the mood.. He was not expecting her to push him away at all.

He thought that he had her consent when he was waiting for a moment to move or do something but when she did not, he thought he had her consent.

"What the hell?? What the hell are you doing??"

Tinsley stroke back, straightening her dress. He narrowed his eyes at her. She stood up.

"What do you mean by what the hell I m doing??"

Kian retorted back and Tinsley did not hold back either. She just could not grasp the fact that after everything that he had done, how could he just make it seem like everything was perfect and normal between.

"You can't just pretend nothing happened. I can't just forget what you did and still let you take me on the bed!!"

Tinsley spat. She was beyond angry at him. He did not even take her approval about the whole honeymoon thing.

"What??? I did not...I m not asking or pretending to make you forget, ok?? I just thought of surprising you!"

Kian whispered the last part, feeling dejected and unappreciated for the efforts he had put in. 

"Surprising me with a fucking honeymoon??? For your own sexual pleasure??"

Tinsley mocked and it made Kian furious. He was about to break out but stopped himself, somehow.

He did not want to ruin even the slightest bit of improvement that had happened if it actually happened.

"Now you are going just too further..."

Kian replied and Tinsley narrowed her eyes at him. She crossed her arms over her chest, challenging him to explain her.

"If you mean taking advantage of you is having sex then it is what people do on their honeymoon...that is what any normal married couples do, Tinsley!!"

"And as if we are normal married couples?? Are we, Kian??"

Tinsley throttled and he sighed, not knowing what more to say to make her understand and see that he was sorry and he wanted to build their way back in like it was before.

"I m sorry!!! I know I have hurt you but I m not the perfect man, Tinsley. But I m trying here. You want a husband that can be there for you every time you need but that can never happen with us...not when I m back at my job, doing what I know to do."

He stated in one breathe and was glad that at least, she was not stopping him in between and leaving the room.

"With our present situation, it would be all the more impossible to be like what we were in that town...I will be away for business trips and you would have to spend the night alone...this is our reality now and it cannot be changed..."

He concluded. He wanted her to see that he could not be there for her every time but it did not mean that he was not interested in her.

"It was never about work! You have been working for two months now...you don't even look at me anymore.. It's like you are still holding onto my one mistake when you could go around and lie to my face that there had never been another woman who was not a distraction to you than me!!!"

Tinsley shouted the last part, with extreme fury, jealousy and hatred. She could still see it in her head how his eyes admired that fucking Serena Williams.

It itched her eyes for having to encounter a moment when her husband was actually admiring a fucking woman that was not her!!

"I know...I lied about that but it was only because it was so long ago...I never even thought that she would pop up like that from nowhere...the thing is it does not matter to me...it does not matter to me anymore, Tinsley..."

"I saw you...I saw how you were looking at her...admiring her as if you were in love with her!!"

Tinsley openly accused and it made Kian to strode forward, cupping her face in between his hands.

She tried to back away from his touch, protested but in the end gave in. He would not let her go.

He needed her to hear him from closer, not when they had such a big distance between each other...even bigger than the ones he was responsible for creating.

"Listen to me....please!!"

He begged, repeatedly when she was not giving in. He had never been so desperate to make someone understand that he needed her in his life.

That there was no one else in his life anymore except for her. However the hell, they got together or married, if it was solely to protect her, it did not matter anymore...because he had been so immersed into her, life was just impossible without her in it now.

"There is no one else...only you, my love...only you!!! Please trust me!! Do not give up on us just yet...I m begging you, baby!!! Please..."

He softly let out each of those words, resting his head on hers. He wanted her to listen to him, grasp his every word in and understand him.

It made Tinsley only more volatile and emotional. He was her weakness...he was so smooth and he was so always good with words.

Even when her mind was screaming at her to not buy it, but she just could not. She could not see him on his knees, defeated like last night, she could not see him begging her for another try....she just could not face him on his own because it was too much for her to handle.

"If you want, I can crawl back on my knees but please, do not hold yourself back....do not because your presence...your entire presence gives me hope, baby...I do not say it often but it does...I m a complicated man...you did not sign up for my bullshit but I just can't let you go...I just can't..."

And Tinsley just remained silent, not knowing or understanding what to say next or what to say not....what to do next or what not to do either.

"I need space and time!"

Those were the words that came out of her after a few seconds of silence. And he was grateful for that.

He was ready to give her all the time she needed to heal back and love him. Even though he was not sure he felt for her, but he was aware that it was as stronger as what she directed it to be love for him.

Two days had passed by, and they were living in a separate room. He was quite silent and patient in giving her all the time and space she had asked for.

She tried to avoid him in all the possible ways, she could. Yet it was impossible because he would be the one doing all the cooking and chores and she could not even avoid him at that point.

It was getting hard to keep herself stake to her demand because every time, he would cook without a damn shirt on, and she could not help but salivate at the sight.

She was attracted to her husband and she was not ashamed to admit it. It was the truth and the fact that they were on a fucking honeymoon was not helping either.

For two days, it had been the hardest for him too. He would see her looking so sexy and delicate, soaking the sun on the beach and he could not even dare get close to her and feel her for the sake of her demand.

He did not want her to see like he was an impatient man, hungry for her body which he was always and he did not see any reason to hold back because he was her husband, yet he was trying to keep hold of words...the words he had given to her.

Their interactions and conversations were limited and he kept wondering if she was going to make him wait just like he did too.

He knew that he would have no choice but to stick to his promise but everything was just so difficult when you are on a honeymoon with a very sexy wife...who knew how to seduce you!!

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