Chapter 225 - A CONTEMPLATION...

PRECAP

"If she still could love you as you are...why can't you accept a part that would be hers too even if it's not yours...it would be hers!"

Madison concluded and Kian did not speak out one word at that moment. Their eyes bored into each other. There was nothing much left for Madi to talk about either.

"I m sorry!"

It was the first thing that came out of Kian's mouth, breaking the waves of the silence in a strike.

"I m sorry for Lana...I did not mean to..."

Kian had no intention of turning things the way they did.

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"Let's talk over dinner!"

He proposed and she peeked at him a little. Mentioning about food, her mouth started salivating. She was always hungry for food ever since she hit five months of her pregnancy.

"Only because I m hungry...for food!"

She dropped an excuse of why she was going with him, for not wanting to make it seem like she was agreeing to go out with him just like that but only because she was hungry.

"Sure! Only because you are hungry!"

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"She is fine! She had a panic attack!"

And he sighed in relief, knowing that she was fine. The doctor continued.

"But Mr Randall, it's not a good thing in her case. I had checked her pregnancy and all her miss carriage reports, the major cause was her mental stress and anxiety that created a hormonal imbalance in her body and hence those last two pregnancies resulted in a miscarriage...

She was doing fine so far but since you are here now, make sure to keep her out of stress if you don't want your wife to lose the baby now that she had come so far..."

The doctor briefed him, not leaving any information untouched. She was serious in her words and tone.

It got him into thinking that how things would be like because he was the cause of that panic attack she just had a whole ago.

He had gone so far as to threaten her of taking the baby away from her if she did not give in to him when she was already in a very vulnerable position ever since his arrival and it made him very disgusted of himself.

He had seen the footage of her losing their second one, alone and in that cold night, with no one by her side to help her.

And here he was back to ruin things for her once again. He had heard enough from Madison and why she had come forward with the pregnancy.

It was because she had felt lonely, with no one to relate to herself. After she had thought that they were divorced...there was nothing much for her to look forward to and he could understand that part.

Right after she had left him in the office, he could not carry on. All he could see was her face...that sad and morose one...and the words...the last ones, she had directed at him.

His resort was to isolate himself, get drunk till his mind was numb to erase her memories from his soul but how could he do so when he had lived with her for so long, shared his space with her...it was as if she had become his part...

And without her, he felt himself missing it altogether. Perhaps, she had felt the same way and she resorted to having a child to wipe that empty hole from her soul.

And here they were, in a very different spot of life. He knew that he could not just take her with him anymore...she was not alone anymore.

So to confirm things, he found his feet taking him to the doctor's office and she was a bit taken aback to see him standing by her door.

She nodded for him to get inside. During this recess, she had taken up the liberty to google him and she was beyond shocked to find out that her patient, Tinsley was the wife of a self-made billionaire.

"Good evening, Mr Randall! Is there any problem??"

She questioned, not knowing exactly why he was here. She had ordered the nurse to let him see his wife as she was fine by then.

"According to the IVF policy, there is no way the donor could come claiming for the parentage right?"

He implored and the doctor understood why he was here. She handed him their file and explained it to him.

"Yes, there is no way. It had been legally acertained that the baby is only Tinsley's and now that she is married to you, of course, you become the father if you want to...?"

Kian did not say another word as he ran his eyes over the file. He borrowed the file from the doctor and gave it to his lawyer for review. The doctor allowed it.

He did not dare to step inside the cabin where she was sleeping peacefully, not before he heard it from his lawyer.

He waited impatiently, contemplating if he really wanted to accept a child, that was not his...if he wanted to go on with it??

He knew that he could never have her now that this child was in the equation. Five minutes after, his phone rang and he picked it up immediately and the lawyer give him a green signal.

He let out a breath that he had been holding it in for so long. All of a sudden, he felt free, felt alive...not trapped anymore.

Madison's word rang in his head as to how she had claimed what else does it matter if that baby was a part of her also...if he could accept her back, could he not accept a part of her even if it was not his??

He had lived a long with three miscarriages and perhaps at one point he had even given up on the concept of having children of himself.

The first time, he was against the thought of a child was after Serena had left out of nowhere, right after the miscarriage and it led him to deny Tinsley of not wanting the kids when she asked for it the morning after their wedding night.

Because everything was going fine with him and Serena and then this miscarriage had ruined everything.

And he did not want that to happen between him and Tinsley. Yet, later on, it was him who initiated to get her pregnant because he liked the idea of her carrying his baby.

And then they had the miscarriage which ended up scaring her off from ever wanting to get ready for another one sooner than when he was ready.

And the second time, it was entirely his fault now that he understood why it happened and he shall forever curse himself for it.

Perhaps if he would have stayed back with her that night, nothing would have happened and instead of carrying another man's child, she would have been carrying theirs.

To think of, he had pushed her too far and now she did not even want to come back to him.

And he was too late in time to start over again, not that he wanted that either. He was too attached to her that he could ever be willing to move on, now that he had her.

When Tinsley's eyes fluttered open, and she felt her throat dry from being thirsty. She tried to reach for the glass of water on the nightstand and ended up knocking it down the table.

It got Kian's attention and he immediately stepped inside without a second thought and poured another glass of water for her, sitting beside her, helping her up, he bought the glass closer to her lips.

Tinsley was too thirsty to notice who was helping her. She gulped the water down her throat hastily. When she coughed, he rubbed her back and that was only when she tilted her head to see him.

Their eyes interlocked and he was afraid that she would freak out to find him back, near her...

Meanwhile, she was cautious about why he was here. The memory of his threatening with snatching her baby girl from her was very fresh in her mind.

And instinctively, her hands wrapped around her bump protectively and he noticed that action. He understood why she did that and it made him sigh, in defeat that she thought of him as a danger to her and her child.

She did not trust him with it. And he deserved that. But the moment he had stepped inside through the door, he was no longer going back.

He extended his hand and placed it on her covered bump, Tinsley was taken back by his action.

It was in the exact moment, baby Ava chose to kick, making them know that she was present at the moment and it was a miracle for Kian for he had never felt something like it.

He placed both his hands, wondering how it could be, a smile graced his face when he felt the kicks were directed to where he would touch.

"He is kicking!"

"It's a she!"

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