Chapter 192 - The Agitation of Youth

When Zhang Yunyan thought of Du Xiaotian, her heart was beating and she was emotional. If the second prince of Tianyue Country and Du Xiaotian were from the same era, they would definitely be regarded as the same person.

Thinking of her brother in the alienated world, Yunyan secretly sighed. In this life, she had parted forever with her beloved one. The beautiful marriage had long been lost, and she could only love him and miss him in vain.

In her thoughts and pains, she didn’t think that God would be so considerate of herself that in the crush of people, he let Du Xiaotian, who looked exactly like her loved one, come to her. Maybe it’s also because of fate.

Although Xiaotian was not the second prince, his seemingly similar image and other similar aspects all made her bitter heart feel warm, became her emotional sustenance, and comforted her resultless love.

In her thoughts, Zhang Yunyan thought that the thing was a bit strange. She could meet two people who were very similar, especially two who had been separated for thousands of years. This was unbelievable and incredible.

Was there really a secret that was unknown? If so, what was the secret that couldn’t be told?

Zhang Yunyan deeply loved the second prince of Tianyue Country, and naturally she had romantic feelings for Du Xiaotian, the “second prince” of this generation.

This love for Du Xiaotian was separated from the second prince, and it was also because of Yunyan’s gratitude. Du Xiaotian was not only her benefactor, but also a beautiful man who looked like her beloved one very much. How could she have no feelings about him?

She had lost her beloved second prince, and her longing for marriage had long vanished. At this time, only Du Xiaotian could let her have the spark of love, and soothe her thoughts of the prince in alienated world.

In her thoughts, Yunyan had regarded the two similar brothers as one person. The appearance and shape of them were similar, their voice and the personality were also similar, and the age, too. There was no way to separate the two.

When she thought of the second prince of Tianyue Country, she would naturally think of Du Xiaotian in this world. When she thought of Du Xiaotian, she would miss the second prince. In her mind, the two men shared the same image, and one image could represent them. She really couldn’t separate them.

When Zhang Yunyan thought of her benefactor Du Xiaotian, she would remember the days and nights of serving him. The embarrassing scene would clearly flash in her mind, and then she would be blushed and shy.

She couldn’t avoid this situation. She couldn’t stop thinking, and felt that it was weird. That was the first time she had met Du Xiaotian, and they became sworn brother and sister for the first time. Also, it was the first time in her life that she had experienced the embarrassing thing, and she was faced with a man who looked like the second prince.

When she thought about it carefully, she felt that this might not be so simple. It seemed to have an indescribable cause. How could this be? Was there an unknown secret?

The embarrassing things were awkward and made her shameless, but it was a very special period, in order to preserve the life of her benefactor, she had to do it, and of course there was gratitude.

Later, when she thought about it, she didn’t know how she had gone through those days and nights. She couldn’t believe that she could bravely face an adult man who was naked and did those unimaginable things.

She was very emotional, not to mention that she was still a single girl, even if she was a married woman, facing a strange man, in this embarrassing situation, she would also be blushed and shy.

However, Xiaotian was so seriously injured in order to save her. He had lost his life and no one took care of him. She couldn’t leave him alone. Even if the situation was hard to accept, she must face it. This was gratitude and responsibility, and she must bear it.

In order to save her benefactor’s life, to make him get through the danger and recover soon, was there anything that couldn’t be done? She could only force herself to do it.

Fortunately, she finally came over. She scrubbed and changed fresh dressing for the wound for her benefactor again and again, and once again faced the place that shouldn’t be faced. Even though she was ashamed and shy, she could only do what she should do, which was also a kind of tempering.

In the tempering again and again, the shame became gradually less, and she could face it with her eyes wide open.

Zhang Yunyan didn’t want to recall the embarrassing things, and she couldn’t avoid them. Whenever she thought of her benefactor Du Xiaotian, that scene would naturally flash in her mind. Then she would be ashamed and blushed. That was the experience of the first time that she met with her benefactor, and it was so special. There was really no way to erase it from her mind.

However, with the shame and heartbeat again and again, this mentality had also been eased. As time went by, shame might be eliminated, and the embarrassing situation could be slowly accepted.

Zhang Yunyan was still a single girl. It was the first time for her to face the naked body of the man. In the face of such awkward situation, this shy mentality was also inevitable.

However, she had grown up after all. As time went by, her mentality had changed, which was natural, and she should be able to face it.

It was impossible for her to forget the scene. After all, she went through it, and it was her first time. The mark left in her heart was deeper.

Besides, she was in youth, and it was time for her to consider her marriage. It would be impossible to avoid such scene. Moreover, she would have countless thoughts while being shy.

In any case, in the days of serving Du Xiaotian, Yunyan saw something new, and became the person who had the experience. If such a thing happened in the future again, she should be able to face it.

Not knowing how long it took, Zhang Yunyan woke up from her thoughts and memories. She looked at the monk Shikong next to her, and his vague figure didn’t move. She didn’t know what he was thinking.

She sighed secretly. Her benefactor might be painful because of the desperate situation, or, like herself, he remembered the unforgettable past.

Yunyan saw her benefactor Shikong again, and the inexplicable feeling followed. She didn’t know what the feeling was, or why it was Shikong who made her feel that way.

Shikong was an ordinary monk. Apart from being her benefactor, there was nothing special with him. Why did she have this inexplicable feeling only when she saw or thought of him?

Zhang Yunyan was puzzled and silently sighed.

She couldn’t help but think of the words that Turtle Elf said with doubts about herself. She smiled silently, her heart beat faster, and her face became rosier.

Yunyan whispered to herself, “Turtle Elf was too suspicious. How could I do such things? Besides, Shikong was not that kind of person. Even Misty Flower couldn’t disturb him, how could he be interested in me?”

She looked at the silent Shikong and secretly sighed. She didn’t know how many years the benefactor had converted to Buddhism. He had no distracting thoughts about the mortal world, and he was not interested in female. He must have practiced to a high degree.

To say the least, if Shikong did anything to her, she would give her life to resist even if he was her benefactor. Gratefulness had a bottom line, and this kind of thing was absolutely impossible.

Yunyan glanced at the vague figure and smiled silently. She laughed at Turtle Elf’s suspiciousness and at herself being oversensitive. How could she think of such things and keep thinking? It was nonsense.

She sighed. She had grown up, and she was young and young. It was inevitable that she felt so restless. It was also difficult to calm down.

Zhang Yunyan looked at Shikong. She sighed and couldn’t help but think of her fiancé Lin Jiaxiang.

If this person was Jiaxiang, the suspicion of Turtle Elf might be possible. In this undisturbed cave, no one could see them, she might hug her fiancé. Maybe they would kiss and caress each other, as for the next…It’s a shame to think about it. Why wouldn’t she stop thinking? It’s such a shame.

She sighed silently, and her heart couldn’t calm down. Unfortunately, this person wasn’t Jiaxiang, but her benefactor Shikong.

She was a little sad, Jiaxiang had already passed away, and her longing for marriage had vanished…

Zhang Yunyan inspected the dim cave and gently breathed a sigh of relief. She seemed to want to spit out the painful feelings of grief and anger, and the remaining embers, and let the tight nerves relax.

Her mental burden was too great, and her mission was too heavy. She must bear it, and she must bear it with a strong will.

Yunyan had no way to get rid of the heavy pressure, nor could she get rid of it. She must complete those life-long vows and melt the hatred in her heart.

Regarding to the question that when these vows could be realized, she couldn’t even think about it now. She was in desperate situation and had no hope of escape. There was no way to complete the vows this life.

Zhang Yunyan prayed that she could live, not only for herself, but also for those missions and the grand ambitions that had just been revealed. In this life, she was destined to fight for these missions, and to fight for the grand ambitions until the end of her life.

However, the reality was too cruel. It was about to destroy her life. All the vows and everything would be ruined.

What was more tragic was that Yunyan had been unable to comfort the dead of her relatives, and she couldn’t face her relatives in the other world.

Suddenly, there was a sound outside the Cave of Fate.

Zhang Yunyan and Shikong awakened from meditation and listened nervously, worrying that the devils couldn’t find the prey and came here again.

At this time, there was a low inquiry sound at the entrance, “Yun Feiyan, what is inside? Are you in danger?”

It was Turtle Elf asking. It cared about the safety of Zhang Yunyan and Shikong, and also concerned about the mysterious things in the mysterious cave.

The devils didn’t come. Zhang Yunyan and Shikong felt relieved.

She got up and came to the entrance to meet Turtle Elf, not going out for safety.

Zhang Yunyan told Turtle Elf that after careful inspection, they found that the cave didn’t have access, and it was a relatively large cave. From the shiny handwriting on the rock wall, this cave was called “the Cave of Fate”. In addition to the name, there was a big word of fate, and there was nothing else. It was empty and was a very ordinary cave.

After entering the cave, there was nothing terrible and mysterious happening except for the shiny handwriting. It seemed that those speculations and imaginations were superfluous and too fascinating.

Turtle Elf was very disappointed, but still could not believe it. Since the shiny handwriting suddenly appeared, it meant that this cave was extraordinary. There might be other mysterious things happening. And other mysterious stuff would appear, but they wouldn’t appear for the time being.

Unexpectedly, Turtle Elf’s guess was right, and the mysterious thing really happened…