Chapter 964

These three days, Han Li Tong did not enter the underground palace.

She has been thinking about her life over the years, whether she thinks she likes it, whether she really likes it, whether she really falls in love with Fengxi, or whether she feels more guilty about him.

She found out that she really didn't know.

She thought that after he left, she finally fell in love with him, even more profound and concerned than when she fell in love with that person. She thought it was.

But over the years, her life is still without him.

She couldn't help asking herself, what was she doing?

If we say who is the best person to her in the world, there is no doubt that it must be her brother Fengxi. But she never really cherished his feelings, until finally, he finally had no feelings for her. She has been particularly clear about his last words. If there is an afterlife, we should not meet again.

If there is an afterlife, let's not meet again.

When he closed his eyes and lost her life, she felt that her world was dark. From then on, she was really helpless.

She was so self righteous and stubborn that she didn't get anything back.

She thought she had sacrificed the people she had saved, and now probably no one remembers her.

And the person she once loved was dead long ago.

She felt that she had nothing left. In the end, her brother Fengxi, who loved her most, died and no longer loved her.

She thought countless times these days, what's the significance of her being immersed in these irreparable pain and feelings? As Han Jing said, what's the point of her not letting him or herself go?

No one hurt her. She hurt herself.

She was so proud and self righteous that she always thought she could do anything, but in the end she didn't do anything.

Even her two daughters have no feelings for her, because she has never done her duty as a mother. Even qingjue, who grew up beside her, has never held her or given her the slightest warmth of her mother. She is not a qualified mother. She didn't care about this before, but when she saw Hanjing getting along with suyao Zheng, her heart was really hurt.

She thought she didn't need anything, she was lonely, she was not favored by God, she stayed in her own world, and she never thought about why she would fall to the present situation.

Who does she love? She really didn't know.

"I know that even if I apologize to you, even if I admit my mistake, it doesn't make any sense." Han Litong went to the coffin of Fengxi and quietly gazed at the face of Fengxi, but she said this to Han Jing.

"I admit that, as a mother, I have never loved you or jue'er. I used to think that all family relationships are like this. They are responsibilities, not feelings. I took my life, blindfolded my eyes, and didn't see the world seriously. "

"I have been taking the surface of the flashiness to cover all the real feelings, forget that the heart is the softest thing."

Just like her naive thought, she and nine elder brother's mutual affection, interest congenial, is earth shaking to the death of love, how ridiculous.

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