Chapter 33 - Why did you leave me all ALONE?

As soon as the Kwons left, Ruyi visited her brother who she never visited after that incident. She hated her self whenever she lost control of herself whenever she had panic attacks. She's disgusted at what horrible things she could do or become and whenever she struggles to come back and just returned to normal, she always go to her brother for security. She always feel as herself whenever she is with her brother.

"Shen'er... I'm sorry for neglecting you these days. I wasn't myself and I was someone you don't want me to become. I've always wanted to be happy, you with mother and father with me... and my babies... but the past keeps haunting me." Ruyi was bawling and venting her emotions and wishes.

But the worst had come. The heart-rate monitor started beeping fast. Ruyi knew it was cardiac arrest and called for help. The family called for the doctor and ambulance while Ruyi, who learned first-aid after her brother's first arrest, started doing CPR.

"NO!!! No!!! Shen'er don't leave me!! Don't leave me now!!!" Although Ruyi was shaking and tearing up, she still managed to focus at what is important, to keep Shen alive.

The maids and her family brought inside their private doctor and nurses and they started their routine. Some of the nurses put oxygen mask on Rushen, other were pleading to switch with Ruyi who remain stubborn on doing CPR, others are already readying the defibrillator.

"Nurse Xie, give me the vitals" The cardiologist they hired asked.

"BP, 160/100, Respi 22, temp. 37.5, saturation,96%" NUrse Xie replied.

"Inject Epinephrine and continue CPR, please switch with Miss Chen, and escort the family members outside." the doctor ordered.

Ruyi didn't object and immediately switched with the nearest nurse. She prayed he would survive.

"Charge 200 joules" The doctor said. "Clear!" Everybody immediately stayed away from the body. "Shock" The doctor said.

"No response doctor" The nurse said and continued CPR.

"Charge 300 joules" The nurse immediately went to do the order. "Clear!" and again, Shen was unresponsive.

"360 joules!" The doctor remained calm to not tense the nurses and the family. "Clear!"

"No response doctor" "Again, 360 joules" "Clear!" Several attempts had been made and Shen never recovered. The doctor looked at the time, and went outside to inform the family of the devastating news.

"Chen Rushen, time of death 10:45 a.m..." Everything went dark in Ruyi. Her grandmother fainted and was sent to another room for treatment. Her grandfather was shedding tears the same as her uncle, who supported the weak elder. She went outside the room, not believing what she had heard.

"Shen, you...you're alright? aren't you? You won't leave big sister alone, won't you?" Ruyi was kneeling beside the bed where Shen's dead body was.

"S-sh-shen!!! You can't leave me alone here!!! NOO!!!!!" Ruyi broke down upon touching her brother's now cooling body. It was now a fact that her brother, her only family besides her extended family, was dead.

Ruyi screamed at the pain of losing the one who was her pillar to live. The one who she always relies to. The only proof that she wasn't alone in this world. He was gone.

"Mommy, Daddy, Shen'er WHYY???!!! Why did you all leave me alone!!!" The nurses were alarmed when they heard a thudding sound inside the room. They saw an unconscious Ruyi and the ambulance finally came and escorted Ruyi as well as Madam Chen to the hospital. Yitian went with them while Jackson stayed to instruct the doctor, nurses and staffs to remove the equipments and everything needed to do for the funeral.

Jackson called someone to prepare the body of Rushen for funeral. He knew he had to be stronger than all of them so he will be their support while embarking this sad journey of their lives.