Chapter 121 - Distance

Gabe

I was left speechless, which in my case, isn’t normal. Ady wouldn’t have let me live it down. I pulled my shirt from my body and stepped into the bathroom. I didn’t bother with the light as I walked towards the shower and turned it on.

I stripped out of the rest of my clothes and didn’t hesitate as I stepped under the ice-cold water. My body tensed and hardened as goosebumps exploded all over my body. A shiver worked its way down my back and spread to my arms.

I haven’t had those kinds of thoughts or entertained any ideas of being with another. I don’t know if I could be with someone other than Olivia. The thoughts I had prior to her didn’t cross my mind when I saw Sasha downstairs.

In the elevator when she made her way over to me, I fully intended on turning her away. When she reached out and touched me, I flinched away. I felt disgusted. I didn’t want any female to touch me, I didn’t want her to touch me.

The memory of Olivia’s hurt face when she found out I’d been with Sasha the night of the ball crossed my mind. I couldn’t… I wouldn’t… Even with Olivia no longer here to see it, my broken heart still beats for my mate.

I wouldn’t do something I knew would have hurt her. For the first time in my home, without Olivia, I smiled. It wasn’t until Odis stepped in that I wanted to entertain her offer. If only to see his reaction.

It was… cute.

When he told her I wouldn’t be needing her, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t turned on. It doesn’t take a minute of that confession to sit in my mind for the shame to hit. It filled my chest and I felt like I was drowning.

My head became heavy and the air thicker. I can’t picture a life without anyone else and I won’t pretend. I couldn’t give a part of me that no longer exists.

I close my eyes and all I see is Odis’s eyes staring back at me. When the doors closed and he turned around to face me. I grit my teeth and lift my head so the water hits my forehead, covers my eyes, and cascades down my face to my body.

The hungry look he had in his eyes brought warmth to my body. I wanted to know what it meant, what he wanted to say. I’m under chilled water, I shouldn’t be warm. The feel of his hand in my hair reminds me why I’m warm.

I exhaled a breath I didn’t know I’d been holding. Felix remained oddly silent on the subject and I thanked the Goddess for that. I don’t know if it was because I was scared of his disgust or if I was scared he’d agree. The way his eyes froze on my mark and let me go, caused my chest to tighten.

Not her.

“If not Sasha, does it mean he doesn’t want me with her? Or does that mean he doesn’t want her with me?” I asked the question out loud and it bounced off the wall before being swallowed by the sound of the water falling to the floor.

Enough.

I need to keep my distance from Odis.

I dry myself off and stand in front of the mirror as I poorly dry my hair. After I wrap the towel around my waist, I open the door. I walk out of the bathroom and I’m not ready for what I see.

Sasha.

Her scent hits me first and my eyes see her next. And nothing. She isn’t wearing anything. Her hair falls and curves in silky waves down her body. Her eyes stared at me seductively. Her legs are wide open and she’s… she’s laying in my bed, in our bed.

I see red.

My canines protrude out and Felix is just as angry as I am. Every thought I had in my mind is lost. I can’t stop the shaking as it takes over my hands. She looks up at me as I take slow steps towards her.

A smile widened across her face and for the first time in my life, I wanted to hurt a woman. After what I saw growing up, I swore to myself that I would never cause a woman physical pain but the closer I got to her the harder it was to keep hold of the reins.

When I stood before my bed, I towered over her and I glared down at her. She stared up at me and she still didn’t register the mood. She reached out to me and touched my chest. Her fingers started to wander lower and I grabbed her hand.

“You want it rough today?” She purred.

I couldn’t hold back and her hand cracked as I gripped it. I put one knee onto the bed and the movement brought me closer to her.

“Who… the fuck… do you think you are?” I growled.

Sasha squeaked and her eyes widened.

“Gabby, what’s wrong?” She whined.

“This is my mate’s bed,” I said through clenched teeth. “She hasn’t been cold long enough for me to take another woman.”

My chest heaves as I struggle to calm myself.

“You. Are. Nothing.”

“Don’t say that,” she said. She flinched and her eyes lowered to her hand. “That’s hurts, Gabby.”

I growled and snapped near her neck. She screamed and struggled to get away from me but I held onto her hand tightly.

“Don’t ever come into my room again. If you do,” I growl as I lean in, “I’ll kill you.”

She starts sobbing and pulls on her hand. This time I let her go and she hops from the bed. I don’t watch as she fumbles for her clothes.

“I thought I could help you,” she murmured.

“No one can help me,” I spat.

She whimpered and took a step closer to me.

“Don’t,” I hissed.

She froze and when she didn’t start for the door I turned to face her.

“Don’t fucking do this again. Get the fuck out.”