Chapter 188

Looking at Heather's bright smile, Lan Li spread out his hands, "I think it's more likely that I can't even pass the audition, and then I'll be eliminated directly. Then you'll pass the test and go all the way to the end, become a new American Idol and realize your dream. "

At the beginning, Heather thought that lanli was joking and giggling. But then she caught the focus and sincerity in lanli's eyes, which made her smile frozen in the corner of her mouth. For a moment, she was so stunned. Then the smile gradually became bitter and suffused at the tip of her tongue, which made her almost unable to resist, I need help eating and walking now. How can I go to the American Idol competition

"It's that simple." Lanli's voice was still polite, but at this time it was absolutely irrefutable, which made Heather suddenly raise his head and cast his eyes in amazement, "that's' American Idol '! It's a stage for testing singing. You just need to step on the stage and sing aloud. No one will mind if you are standing, sitting or... Lying

Lanli's joking tone was the same as before, but this time, Heather didn't laugh, and a wave of anger and irritability began to surge up in his heart. His desire to speak stopped several times. At this moment, he finally burst out, "what do you know? You are not the one who is sick, you are not the one who lies in the bed, you are not the one who even exposes the privacy of going to the toilet to the nurse! You don't know anything! You can do anything you want! You don't understand! You're just standing next to you, making a humble comment. It's no different from those selfish narcissists

"I know, I know everything." But Lan Li didn't flinch at all. She looked at Heather steadfastly. The powerful force pinched her neck and made her have nowhere to escape. She could only stare at Lan Li and couldn't turn her eyes.

"I know that when death's sickle is hanging around his neck, when basic survival becomes extravagant, dream is a luxury without any effect, even worse than excrement. But at the same time, I also know that if even I give up, give up my dream, give up hope, then everything will be meaningless. We are just surviving, just like walking dead, struggling to live. Eating and drinking Lhasa is the whole of life. Big brain has no meaning at all. Instinct is all that is left. There is no difference between one day and ten years, so it's better to end it all. "

Lanli's words are still gentle and gentle, but the tenacity hidden in them is loud and sonorous. Heather looks at lanli's bright eyes and stays in the same place in shock. The powerful energy burst out under the bottomless abyss is so real, so urgent, so deep, penetrating her layers of armor, Hit the softest part of your heart. How could he know? How could he have guessed all his thoughts?

The shock was so violent that she just sat there, unable to say a word, and her soul began to tremble.

"I also know that at the end of self pity and self abandonment, I will regret why I didn't at least try to have a look. Even if it's just a try. " Lanli took a deep breath, and his turbulent mood was almost uncontrollable. At this moment, at this moment, he lost control for the first time, because he saw himself in Heather, himself in the last life.

He did not know how much suffering Heather had suffered, because the disease of "gradually frozen man" was far more terrible than he had imagined; But he knew that in the last life, he didn't even lose his vitality. He was sentenced to death early. The result of high paraplegia was so severe that he had no chance to struggle; He knows better that Heather can still fight, work hard and struggle. She still has a chance. Once she misses it, she will miss it forever.

"It's your dream. If you didn't do it yourself? Are you praying for someone to do it for you? Jesus? Buddha? The creator? Or your parents? " He knew that this was unfair to heather. His words were too natural and mixed with too many personal emotions. He had no right to criticize Heather's life in this way.

In the depth of lanli's vision, Heather caught a trace of struggling pain. Although the confusion was fleeting, it was soon hidden behind the eyelashes, covered with a thin layer of fog, and could no longer be seen; But Heather can clearly feel that the deep emotion makes the soul begin to shiver, deep and turbulent, so real, so deep.

Suddenly, Heather's eyes filled with tears, because of empathy, but also because of the inner touch. She suddenly realized that it was as if Langley couldn't judge her at will. He didn't know what she had gone through; vice versa. What story is hidden behind Lan Li's wanton running? She never understood or refused to understand. But in the words just now, Heather felt the fear and fragility in lanli's heart.

Just like her.

Lanli didn't speak any more. He looked at Heather quietly. He could see her hesitation and struggle. He could see her fear and vulnerability. He could also see her pain and anger.

He knew that it was easier said than done. He spent a lifetime of hesitation and hardship, then he woke up and ran barefoot recklessly; Now Heather is only 15 years old, even seven years younger than when he was sentenced to death in his last life. He can't ask her more. But lanli knew that if time could be turned back, he would give everything in exchange for an opportunity, not a chance to come back, but a chance to let go, a chance to have a glimmer of hope - before it was too late.

He was lucky to have a second chance to start all over again, but what if Heather wasn't so lucky? More importantly, Heather's condition has not yet completely deteriorated, she still has the opportunity, but the time left for her is not much.

Fingertips again gently jump on the strings, light and happy, romantic and poetic, the low string sound like a drum, tapping the eardrum, golden sunshine, fragrant coffee, green grass, colorful flowers, black and white butterflies, running children... The vivid sense of the picture is unconsciously outlined in my mind.

Heather couldn't help but raise her eyes. Her eyes fell on the shallow smile at the corner of lanli's mouth. She was broad and bright. The mottled golden halo rippled gently under her eyes. Her confused thoughts disappeared in the light string sound.

"My house in Budapest, my treasure chest, my golden grand piano, my wonderful Spanish wine, for you, you, I am willing to give up everything..."

Lanli hummed softly. His voice was slightly low, but it was as elegant and mellow as the strings of a cello. In a few words, the wonderful mood was outlined. Heather could not help but slowly closed his eyes, imagining the golden piano, dark red wine and shining treasure chest in Budapest's ancient contract, Walking quietly on the dark brown carpet, the oil paintings hanging on both sides show the owner's artistic taste, the carved sofa and copper teapot are quiet and serene, and the faint fragrance of tea is dense in the afternoon sun.

It's all so beautiful.

"The land I own is so vast that it may be difficult for you to believe my sincerity, but I am willing to give up everything for you. Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change. Baby, if you hug me, all obstacles will disappear. "

Moving melody seems not too complicated arrangement, but every section is as beautiful as a poem, pure to the extreme, simple to the extreme, but burst out of the complexity into simplicity. The brisk rhythm made Heather's fingers tap her knees, and even her body began to shake. It was like wandering in a sunny stream. She was warm and free, casual and lazy. Her fingertips could even touch the smooth curve of pebbles, the gentle line of water flow, and the gentle line of water flow The light wind blows the flexible track.

In this way, the world lights up little by little. The golden sun penetrates the boundless darkness and slowly awakens the vitality of all life.

"I have many handmade treasures. The list is long and long. If you say those words, I will run to you immediately. Oh, to you. I am willing to give up everything. Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change. Baby, if you hug me, all obstacles will disappear. "

With no restraint, Heather chuckled, as if he saw the long, long list of parchments piled up at lanli's feet. He was wearing retro French court clothes, holding a quill in his hand, gently checking the rarities on them, then gently raised his chin, and said with a haughty face, "I'm willing to give up everything." That understatement of the words is so firm, with a trace of pride and coldness.

That vivid picture really makes people laugh. As a result, Heather outlined the corners of his mouth, let the smile leak out gently, and even overflow the voice. Happy and happy. Body with the rhythm of shaking up, fingertips and toes have been unable to bear loneliness, began to tap dance.

"My friends and family, they don't understand, they worry about losing too much, if you take my hand, but for you, you, I am willing to give up everything. Give me a good reason why I shouldn't change. Baby, if you hug me, all obstacles will disappear. "

Suddenly unable to defend the ground, happiness to the extreme, happiness to the extreme, beautiful to the extreme, warm tears filled her eyes, but she still did not open her eyes, just let the hot tears fall from the closed eyes.

She understood, understood the call of melody, understood the resonance of lyrics, understood the comfort of Lan Li. At this moment, she really understood, as if touched her own soul. Long time no see, really long time no see.

Note: Budapest - George Ezra