Chapter 462

For lanli, his performance is entering a new stage, which may achieve breakthrough or nothing.

The filming of "anti cancer me" has entered the last quarter. Cancer is eroding Adam's body bit by bit. At the same time, the coldness and cruelty of reality are gradually dragging Adam to the bottom of the water. The swelling of drowning is gradually becoming clear, and the sense of lung burst makes fear and blood become real.

One punch, another; One layer, one more layer.

Adam is like a spring, slowly compressed, again and again heavy fist, finally compressed the spring to the extreme: not only cancer, but also the fear of death is clearer than ever before, life finally tore off the mask, showing the real face of ferocious distortion.

The doctor made the final verdict that chemotherapy was no longer effective. Adam's only choice was surgery. If the surgery was successful, he would not be able to survive, but it was certain that if the surgery failed, that would be the end point - the operating table was the end point, and he might never be able to open his eyes again. The moment you close your eyes is goodbye.

What's more cruel is that he has no room to think and no choice.

The night before the operation, Adam was upset and Kyle went out with him to relax. Looking at every image in the world, it seems calm, but full of vitality, seemingly ordinary, but full of nostalgia.

He was suddenly at a loss. The word "death" was so abstract that he did not know what he would face after death, whether there was a soul, or whether his existence would disappear completely. The dark night sky and the lights in front of him seemed to be a simple part of his life. He had been used to these things for a long time, but now he might never see them.

The brain is in a mess, full of taste but can't find a suitable description, but Kyle never forgets to go to the bar to find a date to enjoy the wonderful one night stand.

Adam knows that Kyle is trying to open himself up, to divert his attention, to relax and enjoy himself, but he just can't restrain his impulse and anger.

There seemed to be something in his chest that began to swell and almost burst. He wanted to vent, but he couldn't find a way. So he wanted to give it a last go. He wants to drive. He's always afraid. He never learns how to drive.

"Is that what you want to do? That's your last wish? drive a car? We could be with prostitutes now, but you want to do what I would have done when I was 15. "

That's Kyle's response.

The night before the operation, the night before the confrontation with death, the night before the last stop with cancer. All he wanted to do was just drive. He knew it was ridiculous and insignificant, but... He didn't know what he wanted.

People always say, before you die, what are your last wishes? While still young, as soon as possible to achieve, do not leave regret. But sadly, he didn't.

Everything came too fast, too fierce, too cruel. Before he had time to breathe, he had been forced to the edge of the cliff. After he learned about the cancer from the doctor, his memory was still a blur. He was just trying to survive, struggling and longing to overcome the cancer. So that there is no sense of reality, when the reality strikes, death is close at hand, the scale of the suspected end has been far away.

He has no time to think, no time for himself, no space for himself. His brain is blank, he can't think of anything, he doesn't even have any desire. Driving is just a vent. His only thought is that he still wants to let go, he wants to continue to live.

yes. He wants to live. This is his only wish. But... But there's nothing he can do.

This is Adam, not chuka Shu.

Before his death, Chu Jiashu felt relief. His ten-year long bed life finally came to an end. He knew that he still had many regrets, and his life was over before he even started; However, living is a kind of torture, but death is a kind of relief.

Before Adam's operation, he felt fear, despair, panic, desire, struggle and explosion. Before the end of his life, all of a sudden, he was forced to draw a stop, and he couldn't know whether this stop would continue or end.

For most cancer patients, the doctor may sentence them to have a year or two, even if it's only six months, and they have breathing space. They can travel around the world, they can squander, they can make a wish list, they can cry, they can abandon themselves... The announcement of the deadline of death makes them see a different world and make a different choice.

But Adam didn't. Before he even had time to struggle, all the resistance was declared futile. Suddenly, cancer could not wait to be sentenced. As a result, it was forced. What's more, he has no choice but to wait for trial.

How ridiculous that he didn't even have a wish list. Tomorrow may be the end of his life, but the only thing he can think of now is driving. As Kyle said, driving is a trivial thing. It's ridiculous.

Unwilling, the chaos and anger brought by the extreme unwilling, the despair and regret brought by the desire for survival, just like the spring compressed to the extreme, burst out completely. Previously repressed emotions, and finally found a vent.

Lanli suddenly thought of heather cross and the kite left in the ward.

His vision fell on the script in his hand. However, he repeatedly read a few lines for dozens of times. Gradually, the focus and focus began to blur. Those words were deeply imprinted in his mind. The swelling of his chest made him suffocate.

Put down the script, look up and say, "I'm ready."

In a word, the whole crew seems to have lifted the magic seal of the black forest, the sun fell down, suddenly became fresh, everyone closed their mouths, busy into their work, the long silent crew immediately began to run at high speed.

Jonathan is excited. He immediately steps forward and looks left and right. Then he finds that Seth is standing behind him. There are three actors in the play. Seth and Langley are rivals, while Anna Kendrick is in charge of the play. Her character Catherine will talk to Adam.

As Anna will not appear on camera, she can play with the script, so Jonathan only needs to pay attention to Seth and Langley. Jonathan was completely at ease with Langley, but worried about Seth's state. He turned around and came back, whispered a few words, and repeated his idea of the play. After receiving Seth's affirmative reply, he was at ease.

"Where's Lan Li?" Seth frowned slightly, and he was still a little worried about the state of Lan Li.

Jonathan rubbed his temple. As bystanders, they didn't know what happened to lenley. Of course, even if they did, they couldn't help, but the only thing they could do was "trust him." Jonathan said, then shrugged helplessly. "To be honest, I don't think anyone else in the whole crew can give lenley any advice. Can you do it? "

In the face of this rhetorical question, Seth immediately made a gesture of surrender, and repeatedly waved his hand in denial, which made Jonathan shrug again. He didn't say much, but his expression and action were no more straightforward.

Seth bowed his head, walked forward honestly, took two steps, then turned his head, with a reluctant expression on his face, "will traffic safety be OK for a while? I have an appointment with my sister tonight? " The embarrassed character was as like as two peas in the script, Kell, who made the laughter of the staff around him.

The next scene is that Adam drives for the first time, and then runs into danger, scaring Kyle in the co driver's seat into a cold sweat. But this is not the end. After the adrenaline rush, Adam drives Kyle out of the car, and all his emotions are completely broken.

For the safety of the actors, it is impossible to really go on the road, otherwise, if the traffic accident becomes a reality, it will be unimaginable. All the vehicles Adam met on the road were driven by professional stand in actors. When he knew about the whole scene, he consciously created danger and then finished shooting.

In fact, the whole scene will be divided into two parts. The first part is Adam's reckless driving, and the second part is Adam's collapse in the car. However, the two scenes come down in one continuous line, and the shooting is planned to be completed tonight, so the preparation work is also carried out together. That's what happened when lanli read the script for a long time.

What Seth said just now seems to be a complaint, but it's actually a joke. Sure enough, the scene was silent for nearly 45 minutes, and the atmosphere became active again.

Seth saw lanli stand up, waved his hand, and said hello easily. Then he saw lanli's deep eyes, the corner of which was a little red, and it was not obvious in the dark. But now the lighting group has turned on the headlights, and the whole production group is bright. That's why Seth noticed the small details of his face.

"... are you ok?" Seth pretended to be relaxed, but found that Lan Li had no intention to respond. He just tilted his head and looked at him straightly. His usual sparse brow wrinkled slightly, and his deep eyes were covered with a layer of mist. He could not recognize the mixed emotions hidden in it, but was heavy and sharp, which made people unable to look directly at him.

It seems to be Langley, but it doesn't seem to be. In the panic, Seth thought of will before the operation.

Just insist on two seconds, Seth can not resist, embarrassed to avoid the line of sight, a panic in the heart.