Chapter 719

Tessa only felt that her chest was very stuffy, either heartbreaking or stuffy. She seemed to be out of breath. She lowered her head and took a deep breath. Then she could see William sitting on her left side with tears streaming down her eyes.

William sat quietly in the same place with a smile on his lips, but the tears continued to fall like broken pearls. He did not raise his hand to wipe them, nor did he sob or suffer. He just let the tears fall quietly. Tessa's nose suddenly turned sour, her chest tightness made her stomach tumbling and almost vomit.

Death is more real than ever. When life really comes to the end, it is not the earth shaking and vigorous described in movies or novels, but more a kind of quiet, just like autumn leaves falling, silent, but little by little outlining the desolation and loneliness.

He raised his head again, looked at Adam calmly, and stated to Catherine how normal it is to die, because "everyone will die, just at different times.".

Pale lips, not a bit of blood; Sunken eyes, thick black circles mixed with a trace of blood; Haggard cheeks, can not see the slightest luster; Only that pair of eyes, that pair of dark brown eyes, dim light is still flowing, light sadness and helplessness, surging. With that, his eyes turned red, and before the thin mist even condensed, he blinked, hiding the fragility, leaving only those quiet and sad eyes, like a bright moon in the water, which broke when touched.

Tessa's heart began to pull like this, as if a big hand was holding it hard. Push, push again.

Chemotherapy didn't work, and surgery was the only way, but because the size of the tumor exceeded expectations, the risk of surgery was hard to predict. This is not a "5050" problem. There is no chance of success. It's just a gamble. Even the attending doctors can't make any assessment until the surgery is over.

So, this is the end, this is the fork in the road of death.

Anger finally dominated Adam's brain. He blames Catherine for her helplessness, his mother for her over control, Kyle for her selfishness, and the damned cancer for ruining all his life. He was just like a madman, driving his car on the road, risking his life; Like a psychopath, he drove Kyle out of the co driver's seat, pounded the steering wheel crazily, and vented his anger wantonly.

"Ah..." Adam grabbed the steering wheel with both hands and cried out, as if the last glory and brilliance of life were blooming. The tearing voice was so angry, so helpless and so painful.

Tessa covers her mouth to death. The hot tears blur her vision. She lowers her head in embarrassment and quickly wipes away the tears, but burns the back of her hand. Then Tessa sees William's shoulder gently twitching. He bites his teeth to the extreme. The tears continue to slide down. The lip is slightly white because of too much force, It revealed his vulnerability at the moment.

Any language is pale at the moment. Because, in the face of death, any excuse, any description, any action is so small. He is so young, he is so healthy, he is so sunny, he is so energetic, he is so kind, he is so sincere... In this world, there are too many ugly, but in real life, it is always those beautiful to bear the heartbroken despair.

Just thinking of this, Tessa felt she couldn't hold on any longer, and her tears broke the bank completely.

After the catharsis, Adam finally calmed down and bit by bit put his life back on the original track: he prepared the food for the dog, he sorted out the cupboards that hadn't been cleaned for a long time, he cleaned up the mess in the bathroom, he lost the garbage in the kitchen, he replaced the sheets and bedspreads for the room... Finally, at midnight, Left home, along the familiar street, with their feet to measure their own life bit by bit.

It's a farewell. Maybe it's farewell to the past life and embrace a new future; Maybe it's a farewell to yourself, a farewell to all kinds of things in life, sleeping forever. Finally, looking at himself in the bathroom mirror, he was bald, haggard, dark eyed and bloodless. There was a faint light in his eyes, which seemed to disappear at any time, but always bright.

Turn off the light and go to sleep. good night.

It's such a calm picture, such trivial details, but it smashes all Tessa's defense lines. Looking at Adam's every move, so real, but so unreal, she could not help crying. The light in the deep of her eyes, she just wanted to firmly grasp, grasp, grip.

50 percent chance. What does that mean?

Sitting on the bed, the doctors explained the precautions, and asked Adam to sign the relevant documents, and then began the preoperative preparation. Accompanied by father and mother, father came up with a smile, patted Adam on the shoulder and showed off cautiously, "I have a new coat."

"Is it?" Adam closed his jaw with a smile and listened attentively.

"Brooks brothers." The more the father said, the happier he was, just like a child, "the pocket is made of silk, you can feel it!" Adam really reached into his pocket and touched the lining. "How do you feel?"

"Good." Adam laughed brightly, nodded his approval, then pulled out his hand and patted his father on the shoulder. "Listen, I know it's difficult for you to keep up with the situation, but I just want you to know that I love you, a lot." Adam looked at his father with a smile and firmness. The light in his eyes gradually became bright, and the curve of his mouth was so wonderful.

Father looked at Adam, suddenly stunned, smile a little disappeared, eyes inexplicably red up, "OK." So his voice choked. But he still didn't know what happened. With a blank and confused face, he looked up at his wife and looked for help.

It was such a small action that Adam's voice choked. The anesthesiologist came for anesthesia. "Please relax. I will inject the anesthetic into your infusion tube. It will take a while for the effect to start."

"Do you... Do you want to start now?" Adam some flustered to ask, the nurse began to invite parents to wait in the waiting room, Adam can't help but continue to ask, "how long will the medicine last?"

"It varies from person to person." So said the anesthesiologist.

"Yes." Adam nodded. "But, how do you know it's long enough to keep me from waking up during the operation; How do you know that it won't last so long that I'll never wake up. " Then Adam stopped, his eyes blankly and violently shaking, and he couldn't help but ask for help, "Mom?"

The mother quickly leaned up and hugged Adam, "baby, you'll be fine." Hold tightly, tears fall down, she quickly raised her hand to wipe away, must not let Adam see.

Adam clenched his teeth and tried his best to suppress and control, but tears still filled his eyes. The loss, helplessness and fear in his eyes rippled like ripples, so small, so grand, so calm and so turbulent. This is Adam's first time to shed tears, the first time since the diagnosis of cancer.

Tessa finally couldn't help but cover her mouth with both hands, but the whole person was completely broken up. Not because of fear, but because of life. Life is so great, but so fragile, life is so beautiful, but so pale. At this moment, she finally understood the meaning of Langley's words before the film was shown:

Movies are very important, but there are many more important things in life than movies.

Think of tonight's accident, think of lanli's anger in front of reporters, think of lanli's silence before he spoke. Tessa is a tearful person, watching Adam slowly pushed into the operating room, watching her parents sitting in the waiting room at a loss, watching Kyle standing alone outside smoking, watching Catherine absent from the center of the discussion... Tears simply can't stop.

It's not just Tessa, it's not just hope and William. The whole screening hall is silent, quiet and sad silence. You can hear the sound of wiping tears, and you can also hear the sound of heart beating. At this moment, at this moment tonight, "anticancer me" has become so special, so wonderful, and so heavy. Stripping off the excitement of the premiere, stripping off the entertainment of the film, the commonality of art and life has become more real than ever.

After five hours of waiting, the operation was finally over. The doctor said a lot of jargon, which made people doubt whether it was English or not. Finally, he said something that everyone understood, "... But he will get better." The whole room could hear a long sigh of relief, especially when Kell Tucao, "you should make complaints about it at the very beginning, OK?" The audience burst into laughter.

Tessa couldn't help laughing from tears. Then, the movie entered the comedy mode again. After the operation, Adam, whose anesthetic effect still did not dissipate, was like a child, mumbling all kinds of nonsense. The cute and playful appearance was absolutely unprecedented. Tessa laughed so much that her cheeks were a little sore.

After leaving the hospital, he returned to Adam's apartment. Kyle changed his dressing himself. The two Huobao quarreled again. The audience in the cinema laughed so much that they had no friends. After finishing the treatment, Adam stood in front of the mirror and looked up and down at himself. He couldn't help laughing. "It's crazy. I look very handsome."

"I miss you." Kyle said with a smile, which made the audience clap their hands and laugh together. Tessa and hope laughed together. Tears and snot raced on their cheeks, but the laughter couldn't stop at all. Maybe it was because the burden really poked the laughing point, or maybe it was because of the joy of escaping from the dead. But it doesn't matter which reason. What's more, at this moment, They are happy.

Adam, too, because he has an appointment with Catherine tonight.