Chapter 1402

Andrew and Langley. In a sense, they are like the same person inside and outside the mirror.

Andrew, a 19-year-old boy, entered the shelver Juilliard Conservatory of music in the real world; After that, he got the favor of Fletcher, entered the Academy's top jazz band, and became the youngest musician in the band ever.

On the one hand, he has low self-esteem, which comes from his father's ridicule and disdain, and from his own bewilderment and predicament. He is not sure whether he can really achieve his goal; On the other hand, he firmly believes that his dream is to become another Charlie Parker or buddy rich. He refuses to give up or compromise, and goes on like a bull.

The jazz band's first rehearsal was contradictory for Andrew.

He was nervous, worried that his performance might not be able to keep up with the rhythm of the band, embarrassed in front of all the top musicians; However, he is proud of himself, imagining that his performance can be amazing, and he can reach the top of the pyramid overnight, enjoying all the applause and lights.

It was in this mood of excitement and uneasiness, expectation and uneasiness that Andrew joined the band's rehearsal for the first time. But all of them, all of them, fell apart in the face of Fletcher's storm. They had fallen into the abyss before they could reach the peak.

The same is true of lanli.

Outwardly, he is confident, but inwardly, he is not confident, and even inferior. There is always a trace of self doubt and hesitation. However, he still did not give up. Instead, he ran all the way towards his dream. He devoted himself wholeheartedly, praised again and again, succeeded again and again, and recognized again and again, which made him climb to the top step by step.

Inevitably, he still forgot himself, and he began to be at a loss.

He needs to get his heart back, he needs to hit the head, he needs to move forward.

As a result, he voluntarily became Andrew, breaking the boundary between fantasy and reality. Even after the shooting, he refused to completely get rid of the performing state, and always immersed in Andrew's world.

The pride, the confidence, the expectation, and the dreams are all broken and broken in Fletcher's thunder. Like a lost dog, they run around in the storm, muddy and embarrassed, but they can't find a shelter. They can only shiver and linger for a long time in the cold and shame.

He carefully hid himself in the dark and licked the wound alone.

He's not sure if this is the right way, whether he can find the right exit, whether he has chosen a way that is too stupid and clumsy, but... No one can have the answer, can't he?

Because he was the first actor in history to set such a record. There are no ancients and no comers. He has no reference object and no model for consultation. He can only grope forward in the dark, just like a blind man. Just like a fool, he constantly bumps into the south wall. Even if he bumps into the south wall, he doesn't look back. Instead, he clumsily expects to break the south wall.

It's the only way he knows.

He needs to firmly remember the sense of shame, and then firmly remember the humility and devotion, and further firmly remember the beginning of the dream.

Awards are very important, awards are very important, no one can deny this, and it can even be said that they are the key criteria to measure the weight of life of the historical industry. Not only the film industry, but also literature, painting, science and technology, education, brokerage, politics and so on. All aspects of life are no exception, and lanli naturally includes them.

But awards lie.

It's not a lie, but an illusion of the times. Because each award is of great significance to the times, history and society.

In 1989, the movie "driving for Miss Daisy", which focused on the phenomenon of white people getting along with black people in the south of the United States, was an epoch-making work in that year. Although the apartheid system has been abolished for many years, the deep-rooted discrimination phenomenon still shows a strong influence in all aspects. Finally, the movie is ahead of the next year's Oscar, It became the first film without a best director nomination.

At that time, it was not a big surprise, until 24 years later, "fleeing from Tehran" became the second work to create such a success.

After the passage of time, purely from the artistic point of view, the "Paradise cinema" or "good guy" in the same year is a better and more classic choice, and the "born on July 4" which won the best director award in the same year is also worthy of recognition.

This is not to say that "driving for Miss Daisy" is not good enough. In fact, the climax of this work has really changed the social phenomenon and played an important role in eliminating racial barriers. This is a work of historical significance, and Oscar has also taken a crucial step.

Artistic creation is not only to cultivate sentiment, but also to promote society. Just as the Korean film "melting pot" directly promotes the melting pot act, the so-called political correctness is correct, because it is an important part of the driving force of social progress. If the so-called "correctness" is lacking, the spirit and significance of art itself will disappear after the disconnection between art and society.

The reason for giving examples is just to emphasize that every award has timeliness. Only by combining the original background and social phenomenon can we understand the status and role of awards in the long history. Therefore, awards will "lie"; But not the work itself.

In other words, art does not lie.

Alfred Hitchcock's "butterfly dream", "back window", "Thriller" and other works, even after 60 or 70 years, are still not out of date; Stanley Kubrick's "2001 Space Odyssey", "clockwork orange", "flash", "all metal shell" and other works can still influence generations of art creators.

These works have passed the awards one after another for various reasons, but time still proves their greatness and freshness.

That's what Langley has been saying since egot. In the face of colleagues' Congratulations, friends' blessings and reporters' interviews, Lan Li all said this. But what he said is what he said. His attitude and action can't be changed casually according to his own wishes. He needs to really put it into action.

He can't be sure whether the movie "pop drummer" and Andrew's role will go down in history, but that's not the point. The point should be that he will focus on the role and performance as much as Andrew focuses on drumming skills.

For the time being, we should put aside the historical records, the attention and the popularity, and really go back to the most basic and original place and start from scratch again. On this level, Langley and Andrew are becoming more and more similar and overlapping.

He needs to break through.

However, how should he break through? How can he break through? Can he make a breakthrough?

"Did you catch up or delay?"

"Jesus - damn Christ! When did shelver start recruiting the mentally handicapped? "

"You can't even read a fuckin 'score, can you?"

"You're a motherfucker with no prospects, no value, no friends."

"You must be very upset. Are you feeling bad now? "

……

"You have no talent."

"Look, those are the geniuses. The real genius not only has the talent and ability, but also needs to have the ability of appreciation and recognition. They know what they are good at and what they are not good at. They know how to stop and give up in time. Only in this way can they reach the peak. You? You are not. You are just a mediocre person who works hard. Do you know anyone else? Farm cattle. "

"It's the stupidest and most boring show I've ever seen."

"Dreams? God, are you sure you're a hall? "

"Shut up. shut up! shut up! You don't know if you have talent. Don't you even know when you should shut up? "

"Philip, Philip, take him away. I have a bad headache now. I can't cope with these boring things. "

"Everyone thinks he's special, everyone thinks he's a genius, everyone thinks he's unique, but I tell you not. They are not, and neither are you. "

"You are not stupid, you should at least know how to give up."

"You're just another fool."

"You should stop."

……

"That's impossible, you know."

"It's a good dream. Anyway, I've been in bed all my life. Since I dream, why not make it bigger? Is that right? "

"Actors? Ha ha, you are a humorous guy

"You mean, you become an actor in your head?"

"Dreams are everyone's freedom. I just want to be an astronaut. It's a dream that can never be seen, right? "

"Anyway, lying here every day, daydreaming is the only thought. Don't laugh at him

……

"Now practice hard, Neyman."

What should he do? What should he do now?

He is not a waste, he is not a fool, he is not a daydream, he can, he firmly believes that he can realize his dream, any difficulties can not defeat him:

He'll stand up, he'll fight back, he'll take the initiative again, he'll prove himself, he'll make those contemptuous eyes bow down and admit their mistakes, he'll stand under the spotlight, he'll have his own stage and time, and he'll go down in history.

But what should he do? The confused thoughts are trapped in his mind, just like being imprisoned in a cage, which is shrinking slowly. That kind of confusion and depression, that kind of suffocation and fear are making him lose his sense of propriety, so that the whole person begins to shiver.

What to do, what to do, he will suffocate.