Chapter 130 - "Love Me Once Again"

"I've thought about it carefully, from the moment I left you." I was silent for a moment, and tried to smile but failed. "... Now, please, I beg you to leave right away. I don't want to see you again."

Hearing my words, the expression on his face suddenly changed. His eyes that had oozed gentleness were now gradually darkening; showing an intimidating gaze at the stubborn refusal in his heart. Gritting his teeth, he asked carefully, "Is it because of Kim? You don't really like him, do you?"

"Then, what if I like him? You have no right to rule my life. After all, we don't have any relationship anymore. It's up to me to put my heart anywhere. Stop blaming him. He's even better than you." Without hesitation, I said all of this.

Behind his straight face, I could see the emotion that was about to explode, but it didn't stop me from talking, "If I have to choose, then I'm better off with him than having to be with someone who said he loved me ... but he ... he ... he even ... hurt my feelings."

It felt so heavy as soon as I said my sentence, made my shaky tongue struggle to put together the words so that to make them sound clearer. Then, after struggling to finish the sentence, I lowered my head to hide my face. I didn't want to look into Donghwa's eyes directly that showed a sharp glint, piercing right into the agony.

Honestly, I never intended to bring that up. However, for some reason, my lips couldn't hold back the urge to reveal something that had hurt me the most. Besides, it was Donghwa who seemed to force me to convey everything as if he didn't give me a choice.

Naturally, I shouldn't regret all the words I had said to him no matter what. However, the more I said, the more I could feel the pain from those words even though they actually made my chest filled with wounds relax a little after saying them.

However, that's the essence. When you tried to be honest, then you would be considerate. And when you managed to say all your honesty, then you're like a bird that could fly freely after being confined for years.

Not wanting to think about it any longer, I slowly lifted my face, then looked at Donghwa who was still showing the same expression in front of me.

A second later, a cold smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Seeing him smile, I was about to speak but he did it first, "Chunghee, don't ever compare me to anyone. Especially with that bastard. I don't like it." Taking a silent breath, he continued, "And about Kim, I'm not lying to you either. Kim isn't a good guy. You only see what you will never see when he's with other people. He's cunning, you know."

"You too!" I interrupted in a high tone, staring angrily at him. "At least, he knows how I got hurt because of someone, so he won't do that to me either."

Donghwa fell silent for a moment. He looked at me as if he couldn't believe what he had just heard.

"I don't care if he's bad for other people. As long as he's good to me, then it's fine." I continued, sneering, "It's not like you, who treat others well, while I, the one who has accompanied you and fully gave my love to you, have been ignored all this time. What about that?"

Remembering that, I smiled faintly, there was a bitterness that I really felt in my heart when I said that. "You know, I've known him for a long time ago. Long before I knew you. And do you know? Daehyun is the person I ever loved. It's just that a situation should make me get rid of that feeling. If only I knew, you would make me like this in the end, I better—"

"Chunghee!" Donghwa suddenly interrupted, "It's just your past. Don't bring it up again. Now, you have a relationship with me."

"Heh, ever since we parted, we broke up."

There was a long pause before Donghwa spoke in a low and weak tone, sounding like sobs and rage merging.

"You know, if only you were with Kim at the beginning, it doesn't rule out that he's the one who would hurt you and I was the hero for you. He might hurt you more than me. No one will ever know that."

I stared at him in silence before I turned my face sideways and said indifferently, "The point is, I still don't want to reconcile with you. I'm tired of facing you. I can't afford to continue our relationship anymore."

After my words, there was a pause before I turned to him again and looked at him deeply. I said that just to make him understand and to make him leave. Doesn't he understand?!

I forced a smile, then continued, "And, I don't like it either if you keep forcing me to come back to you. I—"

Before I could finish my phrase, something cold and wet touched my lips, suddenly causing me to stop talking with my eyes bulging as if my eyeballs were about to fall on the ground and roll away.

A sudden deep kiss blocked my words, made me stop breathing and my blood seemed to stop flowing. My whole body went numb for a while.

The next moment, my body was suddenly pressed against the wall firmly, while Donghwa continuously pulverized my lips violently causing a sensation of pain, which gradually felt ... good. Fortunately, I could still control my sense so that as soon as his tongue tried to penetrate my oral cavity, I immediately bit his lip.

Donghwa immediately parted our lips and blood flowed down his lip. It looked painful, but he didn't seem to care much about it as if he didn't feel any pain.

Even crazier, he didn't seem to give up. After he wiped his lips with the back of his hand, he then grabbed my face again and kissed me harder and harder.

I, who was staring at him in a daze, was suddenly startled as soon as I was pushed back all of a sudden.

Donghwa kissed me too hard as if he was punishing me. The sweet and fishy taste stirred a little with the saliva as soon as our tongues got tangled up with each other.

After a few seconds, he shifted my body to the side and immediately pressed me beneath him.

This had happened before. In the past, he would torture me sexually when he felt jealous or angry. As he didn't dare to hit me, so he could only torture me in bed with terrible savagery. I was afraid ... if he would do it again.

In this situation, I was trying to get his body away on top of mine, but it's hard. His strength and weight were beyond my capacity. However, as soon as his hands started to drop on my hips and began to squeeze them, I immediately shouted, "Stop! You disgust me!"

Donghwa immediately stopped, and slowly parted our lips. He still had not left my body yet, and just looked at me with a pathetic look as if my words just hurt him. And, as he spoke, there was a deeper feeling I could feel in his words.

"Chunghee, I love you so much. If you no longer love me, so please love me once again for this time. I will take this as my last chance."

As soon as I heard those words, there was something like hitting my chest so hard, causing me pain. It made me want to cry.

Donghwa's voice was so gentle to my ears, even felt like caressing my heart, made me suddenly realize that I didn't lose the slightest bit of my love for him.

How strong could I run; how deep was I hiding; and how hard I tried to keep quiet, it's all in vain. This person would always catch me; he would find me; and he would know everything visible or invisible to me. It's just that he's stupid and stubborn, so he would be very careless in his actions. His pigheadedness had to cost him a lot.

Beneath his body, I stared into his eyes deeply, as if I came into his eyes, then walked up to his heart to open the files that held memories of our past. Amazingly, I seemed to find the same thing. The love stories that had been written in his heart were still colorful and well preserved. It's just that, it's all so hidden, I could even hardly find it.

In the silence, our eyes looked at each other as if they were telling stories, complaining, and scolding each other, for what had happened. Everything looked like the sky at night filled with stars, then suddenly it rained.

My mind was immediately distracted, as soon as I felt tears fall on my face. I suddenly realized that Donghwa was sobbing while continuing to stare at me as if his eyes were shedding regrets in his heart.

He stroked my face gently, wiping the tears that incessantly trickled down my face with his thumb while saying in a hoarse voice with deep sorrow.

"Chunghee, please ... love me once again."