Chapter 105

“The Young Lady isn’t someone who will do something that could harm herself. And….”

When Vivian suddenly stopped before caressing her belly, a gasp could be heard clearly from Amanda’s lips.

“Are you perhaps……”

Before Amanda could shout, she held onto her own mind and instantly closed her lips. Only after she had checked that the door was shut tightly did she whisper carefully to Vivian once again.

“That’s not it, right? You’re not actually carrying that Grand Duke’s child, are you? That person is the Young Lady’s fiancé!”

“We can’t be really sure of it yet since I haven’t been examined by a doctor at all.”

“Then…”

“I haven’t been menstruating for these few months.”

Vivian slowly drew a bitter smile. At first, she thought that she might be getting it late since there had been a lot of stressful work recently. But as it turned out to be much later, she then thought of her nutritional balance as being the reason instead.

Then, she shut out all the ‘maybe’ thoughts. Since it was something that shouldn’t have existed, she drove off all those pieces of happiness as she adamantly denied it.

Nevertheless, Vivian just couldn’t help but acknowledge it as of now.

She didn’t want to deny all those nights, which she had spent with him. She didn’t wish to turn their feelings that had been real in those times to something that never existed.

“It might not be that as well. Who knows, maybe this is just a common flu.”

“Vivian……”

“But still, I just can’t ignore the possibility of a pregnancy. That’s why I will run away—in order for me to live.”

As she began to accept it herself, words started flowing smoothly from Vivian’s lips.

Who would’ve known, perhaps it was because of her perfectly fine belly which never felt like it was real as well. To say that she was pregnant; her still flat stomach had given her much serenity.

Still, it never meant that she accepted the fact that she had a child already. Thinking that it was a child born between herself and Knox, she immediately felt like her head was in a complete mess. However, she also didn’t deny the child at all.

There was absolutely no difference even if she had a child. He still loathed her and she instantly thought that she could have never been able to stay by his side—him, who despised her so.

Maybe—

She then thought that the situation could have been different if only he wasn’t angry at her. She might have been able to talk to him carefully about all of the secrets that she never had the chance to voice them out all this time, and of course, the existence of their child as well. Maybe—such a dream could actually come true.

However, it had now been only turned into a mere lost chance. A thing that was already lost wouldn’t have come back—ever again. Unless Vivan could become completely Alexia herself, it was evident to say that his wrath would never… down at all.

Vivian immediately straightened back her expression that was already weakened by the distress as she clasped upon Amanda’s hand.

“Amanda. Can you help me?”

Amanda heaved a sigh at the sight of her desperate eyes.

“What do you want me to help you with?”

“Please find this doctor for me—discreetly.”

Vivian wrote down the name of the Grand Duke’s chief physician on a piece of paper.

‘Cedric’. As she wrote the name, which he had told her about despite the fact that she never called out before had only made her feel incredibly awkward.

“What should I do when I find this doctor?”

“Please tell him that; Vivian is looking for you and she hoped to meet you at the very first place you’ve met each other.”

“At what hour?”

Vivian glanced up at the sky. She would like it when no eyes were prying about.

“Right after the people in the mansion have fallen asleep.”

***

It soon became a dark night. In a place where even the chirping of grasshoppers were swallowed by the darkness, only the rustling of grass could be heard.

When Vivian turned her head upwards, there he was—the physician with his usual smile.

“It’s been a long time, Young Lady.”

When he referred Vivian as the Young Lady despite being aware of her plain attire, Vivian furrowed her brows in response.

“Why did you call me this late at night?”

“There is only one reason to meet a doctor.”

The physician was surprised when the words that had been said by Vivian were exuding such coldness.

“Oh my. Are you sick somewhere? Then, how about getting examined at my clinic?”

“No, it’s fine since I’m not actually sick. I would just like you to check something for me.”

“What is it?”

“If I really am pregnant or not.”

The physician who was talking cheerfully, froze all of a sudden. Only the back of his hand had crackled slightly and the light was shaken up a little bit.