Chapter 133 - I Don't Want To Take Any Pills!

It seemed so hard for Fee to believe that Ren could fire Amelia just like that. Weren't they friends since childhood? Hadn't Amelia been with Ren for a long time? Why could he so easily agree to Fae's request to fire this secretary of his?

Was he serious, or did he just say it to coax Fae? Unfortunately, lately, Fae didn't know if she could trust her husband.

"Are you really going to do it?" asked Fae, turning her body to face Ren.

"Yes," Ren replied as he looked closely at Fae with his honey-colored eyes.

"Why did you make that decision?" Fae asked him again, still unsure of her husband's sincerity.

"Because I want you to be happy," Ren replied again. His voice sounded tired. "This house gets really gloomy when you're unhappy."

He closed his eyes and tightened his hug on Fae. The girl felt confused. Did this mean she had to stay in this secret marriage?

"You promised to accept me for who I am," whispered Ren, still closing his eyes, as if he could read Fae's mind. "You know I have a complicated life and background, and we promised to keep our marriage a secret for five years. As long as we respect each other and make each other happy, it was enough. Now, it's only been one year, Fae. Why do you want to change your mind?"

Fae fell silent. She knew they shouldn't have decided to get married too soon. But now it was too late. She must not break the promise she made when they got married. Moreover, she saw Ren try to improve their relationship on his part by keeping away from Amelia, who had hurt Fee's heart.

Finally, the girl could only nod. "Okay, then."

"Good. I will ask Amelia to complete all her duties and train her replacement. Next month she will no longer be working for me," said Ren.

Fae actually wanted to protest. She wanted Ren to fire Amelia as soon as possible. However, she didn't want to force her will. Ren had compromised, so she should do the same.

"I have to think of an excuse that wouldn't hurt her, Fae," said Ren again. "Not only is she an old friend of mine, but she also knows our secrets. If I'm not careful, she can use it to blackmail me. I can't let our marriage go public, yet."

Fae bit her lip and nodded. She understood that. She just wanted Amelia to be as far away from Ren as possible. But she didn't want to damage her husband's reputation if Amelia held a grudge and exposed their secret.

"Very well," said Fae then. She then got out of bed to clean herself. However, she suddenly remembered something. The girl sat on the bed's edge and looked at Ren with questioning eyes. "Ren ... earlier, you released it inside. We were not using protection as usual. What if I get pregnant?"

Ren took a deep breath. He admitted that he was blinded by jealousy earlier. He had seen Fae sitting on the park bench and crying in the company of a stranger for ten minutes before Fae saw his car.

While they were making love earlier, for the first time in years, Ren felt like he was losing his cool, and didn't care about his surroundings. He just wanted to show his dominance to his wife, subtly reminding Fae that she was HIS woman.

"I'm going to get you pills to prevent pregnancy. That won't be a problem," said Ren. 

"Do you mean morning after pill?" Fae asked. "It won't work if fertilization already happened. I think I'm already ovulating."

"No, this is different. The pills will prevent any pregnancy, even after—" Ren didn't continue his words. He sat on the bed and pushed back the blanket and was about to get out of bed, but Fae quickly grabbed his arm. The girl's face looked teary again.

"I don't want to take any pills," said the girl. "I will not demand anything from you. I will not demand you to announce our marriage or acknowledge our child if we have one. You can continue to carry out your duties and your life as usual .. but don't take this child away from me."

Ren was stunned by Fae's attitude. "Fae, there is no child in your womb. Embryos only form a few weeks after a couple has sex. Please, don't be unreasonable."

"I just don't want to take any pills." Fae remained adamant.

"If you don't take it, then you might become pregnant, and our situation will be difficult. How about your school? Don't you want to continue your studies? Aren't you the one who wants to be an educated woman? Why now you changed your mind?"

Fae fell silent. She couldn't retort back to all of Ren's questions. True, she felt inferior as an uneducated woman and was eager to improve herself. However, now, when she thought about the possibility that she could be pregnant with a child, her heart suddenly felt moved.

It so happened that she was indeed in her cycle. If she was pregnant, for whatever reason, Fae didn't want to have an abortion.

Because ...

Because she was feeling so lonely.

She really wanted to have a family of her own.

"I don't want to involve a child in our problems ..." Ren said firmly. "I don't agree."

"And I don't want to take any pills to damage my body. It's my body, my choice." Fae looked at Ren boldly. "You forced yourself on me just now. I didn't even criticize you for what you did to me earlier. I hope you won't force your will anymore."

Fae rose from bed in tears. She took her clothes and immediately went into their bathroom and locked the door.

Ren remained there, contemplating on Fae's words. His face seemed to turn cold like earlier before they made love.

"I don't want to involve any child..." Ren muttered again in a very low voice. 

***

When Fae came out of the bathroom, she didn't find Ren in their room. She thought Ren was working in the study or library. However, when she came looking for him to the two places, she did not see Ren.

When she asked Linda, Fae was shocked to hear that Ren had left the mansion with a small suitcase.

"Does he have an overseas assignment? Why didn't he tell me anything?" asked Fae in amazement. She immediately took out her cell phone and called Ren.

RING

RING

Ren picked up Fae's phone call on two rings.

"Where are you?" asked Fae anxiously. "Did you have an assignment abroad and forgot to tell me?"

"No. I will be temporarily living in my apartment downtown. I need to calm down," Ren replied in a flat, almost emotionless voice. "You take care of yourself."

"Why? Why do you feel the need to calm down? I am the one who—" Fae bit her lip. She should have been the one who was angry at Ren's attitude earlier.

"I don't want us to fight, Fae. I think I should distance myself first. I feel very emotional today. Too many things stress me out. I don't want to scare you. I'm not a pleasant man to be around with when I'm stressed." Ren took a deep breath. "Please give me some time. You take care of yourself."

Ren then hung up the phone. Meanwhile, Fae was stood rooted in her place, with the cellphone still pressed to her ear.

She didn't even know that Ren owned an apartment, another residence in the city center. She felt even sadder. She wasn't yet pregnant, but Ren had left her because Fae insisted on not taking the pills he wanted.

Oh .. why did my life have to be so complicated? cried Fae to herself.

***

Ren arrived in front of the entrance to his penthouse in the most luxurious apartment building in downtown Almstad. He opened the door with his fingerprint and entered. His expression was a mix of anger and grief.

As soon as he closed the door behind him, he grabbed the large antique vase on the shelf to his right and slammed it onto the floor.

The vase shattered into pieces with a loud noise.

He regretted his own carelessness earlier. Why was he so overcome with emotions today? Usually, he was very calm and calculating.

However, when he saw Mischa Rhionen for the second time near Fae, he couldn't help but feel the irritation in his chest. He hated the man to the core.

Two weeks ago, Mischa "coincidentally" helped Fae from Hendrik's harassment, and earlier he "coincidentally" met Fae again in the park and even calmed her down. There was nothing coincidental about it, he was sure of it.

If it were another man, Ren wouldn't bother too much because he was very confident about himself. He knew Fae only loved him.

But this was not the case if that man was Mischa Rhionen. Ren couldn't let him near his wife.

Really, today he completely lost his cool.

What if Fae got pregnant? Ren really didn't want to involve a child in this mess.

Their child was innocent.

Unknowingly, tears rolled down from the pair of honey-colored eyes.