Chapter 183 - Let Me Take Care Of You

His eyes were red and swollen when he returned to the room where Fae was being treated. Ren then lay down on the bed beside his wife, holding Fae's left hand.

His body began to feel weak because he couldn't put any food in his stomach at all. He felt nauseous and just wanted to sit still and do nothing.

He knew he should take care of his health by eating regularly and getting enough rest, but he really couldn't bring himself to eat anything. After a few bites, he would feel sick and vomit all the food he had swallowed.

He still didn't know how he was going to tell Fae that they had lost their children. His wife's grief must be as great as or even worse than his own.

***

The soft squeeze on his hand made Ren, who was sleeping poorly, immediately jolted up. He got up from his sleeping position and sat on the bed. He turned to the side and found Fae opened her eyes and staring at him.

"Hey .. are you awake?" asked Ren softly. He tried hard to get rid of the sad and worried tone in his voice. "You slept for a long time ..."

He looked at the clock, it was 6 am. Fae woke up longer than the doctor's estimate.

"Where am I?" asked Fae in a weak voice. She looked around her and did not recognize where she was.

"You're in my penthouse," said Ren. "I brought you to be treated here. Do you remember what happened?"

He took Fae's left hand in both his and looked at the girl deeply.

Fae frowned and struggled to remember what had happened. She remembered going to the royal gala at the palace and then waking up next to Doctor Lehmann, trying to treat her, but suddenly—

"Amelia ....!" Fae was about to sit on the bed, but Ren's hand immediately held her back.

"Don't get up yet. You're still weak and have to recover," Ren said quickly. "I'm going to punish Amelia. But she's not my priority now. What's most important to me now is your health."

"My babies ..." Fae's tears flowed profusely when she saw that her right hand was still wrapped in bandages and that her stomach was in a lot of pain. She could guess what had happened.

Ren immediately climbed onto Fae's bed and hugged her. He tried to be very careful not to interfere with the IV and touch Fae's wound, which was still healing.

"They're okay .." he whispered, suddenly chose to lie to her. "You managed to protect them. But your hand was injured, and your stomach was also hit by shrapnel. Doctors were doing their best to help you and our children. Now you are all well."

Fae gave him a look of disbelief. She looked down at her flat stomach and frowned. "They're ... okay?"

"That's right ... The doctor said their condition was very vulnerable, especially if the mother was stressed. That's why you have to try to recover soon so that they also get better," said Ren.

He decided at the last minute to lie to Fae. In this condition, he could not imagine Fae's mental state if she knew that she had lost two babies in her womb. Maybe she would lose her will to live and her recovery process would be hampered.

Later, when Fae got better ... and asked why her womb was not getting bigger ... then Ren would tell her the truth.

Fae sighed with relief, and her tears flowed profusely as she stroked her stomach with great care. "Oh .. God. I'm so scared. I think I've lost my children ..."

"No ... I won't let it happen..." Ren said in a choked voice. He hugged Fae even tighter. His own tears flowed even more profusely.

Fae sobbed as she remembered that terrifying event. After a while, her consciousness began to recover and she was able to think calmly. As realization dawn on her, she pushed Ren's body hard with her healthy left hand.

"DON'T HUG ME...!" said the girl with burning eyes looking at Ren. "You caused this thing to happen ..."

The man was stunned by Fae's attitude.

"I'm sorry ..." He understood that Fae blamed him for hiring Amelia and taking her to the pavilion where Fae was being treated in the palace so that Amelia could have the opportunity to shoot Fae. 

"If you don't let Amelia to hover around you all the time .. she won't be jealous of me and try to kill me ..." said Fae. "She accused me of being pregnant to tie you down."

"I've known Amelia for a very long time. I didn't know she could do something like that ..." Ren said in a low voice. "It's my fault ... I shouldn't have allowed her anywhere near you. I thought you were safe with Doctor Lehmann..."

"Please ... go. I don't want to see you again ..." Fae said. She bit her lip in despair.

"Fae .. I'm so sorry. I want to make amends to you. Let me take care of you until you recover completely and also care for our children," said Ren.

Fae shook her head in tears. "I want to go ... let me go."

She tried to get out of bed but her body still felt very weak. Ren hurriedly held her hand.

"Fae, if you love our children, don't be selfish. You have to let me take care of you here until you get better. Later, when you have recovered, you can do anything you want. Please listen to me." ..."

Ren knew the only way he could persuade Fae to stay and not refuse treatment was to use her children as an excuse. If Fae found out that she had lost her babies, she would lose her desire to live and would not try to recover.

He was right. When she heard Ren's words, Fae wept even more poignantly, but she no longer tried to get out of bed. She was very frustrated and wanted to leave, but she didn't want to endanger her pregnancy.

Finally, she can only cry until her tears went dry.

***

The third day after she regained consciousness, Fae still could not assuage her grief. She still cried occasionally. Her body was recovering, and doctors had removed the bandage that covered the wounds on her stomach and now only a small plaster was attached. The wound on her hand had also improved. The best doctor and the most advanced medical care in 2062 provided by the prince helped her heal faster than expected.

Initially, Fae didn't want to see Ren at all. She really hated Amelia for attacking her and she blamed Ren for bringing Amelia to the pavilion when she passed out in the palace.

Ren repeatedly apologized for hiring Amelia as his secretary and causing the incident, but Fae didn't want to look his way.

"Fae ... let's eat first," called Ren that afternoon, while touching Fae's left hand gently. For the first two days, Fae was still getting food intake through the IV, but after her condition improved and the IV drip was removed, Ren insisted on feeding her.

The first day Fae still refused, but Ren didn't want to give up. He continued to wait beside Fae's bed and coax her.

"Fae ... if you don't want to eat, where will our children get their nutrition from? Don't be selfish. You have to eat something..."

Finally, Fae was forced to accept the food that Ren was feeding her, but she still didn't want to see the man. Ren didn't force Fae to look his way. As long as Fae was willing to eat, he would be relieved.

"Thank you. After this, you have to take your medicine," said Ren softly. He wiped the corner of her lips after she finished eating and gave her two pills and drinking water. He would make sure Fae take her medicine after a meal.

Fae swallowed the medicine quickly, then lay back down and closed her eyes. She didn't care at all about Ren's presence in her room unless he asked her to eat for their children.

On the third day, Ren also began to take over the task of washing his wife's body. Ren simply didn't want to let the nurse take care of Fae's personal needs once he could do it himself.

He insisted on feeding his wife and washing her twice a day with a warm wet towel. He learned how to do it well. The doctor or nurse was only allowed to change her bandage or give medicine.

Fae initially refused his treatment, but Ren kept begging her to let him do it all, to make amends. And he kept using Fae's pregnancy as an excuse so that Fae would stop rejecting his care.

"You have to eat regularly and rest so that your health will recover quickly. After you recover, I will take you to Asia, and there you can enjoy a warm summer with our children. You will love going on a vacation there. Please, let me take care of you ...." Ren coaxed her many times until Fae finally relented.