Chapter 219 - Ren Is Missing Vega

"I'm sorry ... I'm so sorry. Because of me, they killed the woman you loved..." Vega sobbed. "If it weren't for me ... maybe now you and her are living happily together."

She really felt guilty. Mischa, who was so kind, suffered such great adversity because of her.

Mischa and Elios were shocked to see Vega, who suddenly came and hugged Mischa while in tears.

"Wh ... what do you mean?" asked Mischa, confused. He didn't know what to do. "You didn't do anything wrong. Don't cry."

Vega shook her head. "I already know everything ... They set you up by taking your girlfriend so you can leave Paris ... They then killed her cruelly and injured you. If it weren't for me ... they wouldn't have caught her and killed her..."

Mischa sighed. He raised his face and turned towards Altaïr who was walking towards them with a sad face. He immediately understood that Vega had heard what had happened from her brother.

Mischa rubbed Vega's back, and his eyes were gleaming with tears too. He thought back to Lisa and the terrible events that happened six years ago.

Everything seemed to be played back in front of his eyes in slow motion. His head became dizzy and his chest felt like it was crushed by a heavy object.

"You're innocent ..." he whispered. "I was the one in the wrong. If only I didn't break my promise and meet you at the restaurant, they wouldn't be able to kidnap you. I broke my promise to your father and Uncle Nicolae. I promised them to protect you, but I failed ... I'm sorry. Because of me .. you were separated from your family and lived in suffering for so long ... "

He began to cry. During this time, Mischa was haunted by massive guilt. He thought Vega was kidnapped due to his carelessness. He did not think straight because Lisa was taken by the enemy.

He should have immediately deployed the security to protect Vega and Altaïr, or at least he could send other people to save Lisa, instead of coming alone.

He was a former assassin. He should have known that if they had Lisa, they wouldn't let her live. Mischa should have used his logic and realized that coming to Provins to save Lisa was tantamount to giving away his life...

Ah ... maybe at that time he really wanted to die. Six years ago, he was very heartbroken because Lisa wanted to cut ties with him. Mischa felt there was no more reason for him to live. In his heart, he knew that the enemy would not let Lisa go and they would kill him too, but he didn't care.

Even if he had to die, he wouldn't mind dying with Lisa. However, he did not think that his selfishness at that time, to die together with Lisa, had such bad consequences. Vega's safety was threatened and finally she was kidnapped by the enemy.

Mischa's selfishness made Vega a victim, and that fact had haunted him for years.

But now .. Vega actually came to him and apologized because she thought she caused Lisa's death, even though Vega was completely innocent.

Mischa could not hold back his tears that started dripping to his cheeks.

He hugged Vega tightly in return.

"I'm sorry," he whispered hoarsely. "It was all my fault."

The two of them cried softly, for their own reasons.

Vega felt guilty because she thought she s the cause of Lisa's death, while Mischa considers him guilty of leaving Vega and causing Vega to be separated from his family for nearly six years.

Elios and Altair stood in silence, staring at the scene. Elios understood the guilt that Mischa had been carrying on his shoulders all this time.

He remembered how Mischa worked so hard during the first few years to track down every clue and find all the people who were rumored to be Vega. Every time, he would be devastated to find out that all the clues were misleading or faked.

After three years, they had all become very tired. Not only Elios and his family who suffered from the kidnapping, but Mischa too.

Elios took a deep breath and closed his eyes, holding back his sorrow.

You both shouldn't blame yourself, the man thought to himself. It was the kidnappers who were guilty. And I'm going to make them pay all these debts with interest. I will make them regret having been born into this world.

He clenched his fists in anger.

***

Ren couldn't sleep at all on the way back to Moravia. He really missed Vega near him, and her gentle voice calmed his busy mind. 

Maybe it was true what they said; humans only appreciated what they have until it's gone. He still couldn't get over his grief after losing their two children a few months ago. He did not expect the loss and sadness he experienced could be so deep and rooted in his soul.

Until now, every time he remembered that incident, his body became weak and he became dizzy. If only that terrible event did not happen, soon he would have been a father, and Vega, a mother.

They would have two very cute babies. One of them might look like Vega, and the other one might look like him.

He buried his face in his hands again and burst into tears. He did not know how long he would continue to grieve like this. People say that time would heal everything, but the sadness that surrounded him had not diminished until now.

'Oh God ... please give me a second chance ...' he whispered to himself many times. 

Vega lost their babies a few months ago, and now her uterus should be healthy again to conceive. Because Vega was an alchemist, her recovery was much faster than that of ordinary humans.

Since they made up and had sex again, Ren always made sure he released his seeds inside. He hoped that his wife will get pregnant again. However, until he left Vega on F Island, it seemed like she was still not pregnant.

In his heart, Ren felt relieved that Vega was reunited with her family. They would be able to look after her well while he was gone.

After Amelia shot Vega, Ren had not had the chance to punish her. Back then, his top priority was to treat Vega until she recovered and then restore their relationship.

But now that Vega was safe with the Linden and Schneider families, Ren could concentrate on punishing everyone responsible for his children's deaths.

Just you wait, Amelia. An eye for an eye, a life for a life, Ren thought as he clenched his jaw in anger.

He couldn't wait to get to Moravia and punish her.

The man closed his eyes and tried to imagine Vega sitting beside him and holding his hand. He tried to imagine his wife's voice talking to him about anything.

He really liked Vega's voice, which somehow always made him feel happy. 

Ah .. he just realized how special she was. She always made everything around her feel peaceful and pleasant.

He was truly fortunate to marry such a woman. Gradually, Ren's troubled and restless mind calmed down, and his breathing became slower.. He finally fell asleep and dreamed of Vega.