Chapter 259 - Ch. 259 She Can't Forgive Her

Roxy listened to everything her mother had to say, explaining how much she regretted it since Britney hurt her feelings. Everything she did when she urged Kaylee to accept Declan's advance and so on was to bring Roxy back.

If she hadn't met Helena and seen the face of her friend's son, Britney would never have thought of 'forcing' Kaylee to meet Declan. However, if the matchmaking didn't work out until the end, Britney wouldn't keep forcing her and started over.

"I know I have no right to say this, but I don't regret bringing you into this world, Roxy. I never did. I don't know why I lost control at the time, and I repent it." said the mother, who was now in tears.

Roxy bit her lip at the sight of her mother's tears, and ever since she found out her mother's true feelings, her heart began to tremble.

Her mother has also suffered as much as her ever since the plane crash, and both of them could not bear Kaylee's sudden departure.

If only Roxy were on the plane and Kaylee survived, maybe everything would be fine. Kaylee didn't look like one, but her mentally much stronger than her.

"To me, you are the most beautiful gift I have ever had. You two and I don't want to trade you girls for anything. You can hate me, and you can scold me or whatever you want to punish me. But, please… don't live as someone else. Don't let your other side take control over you."

Roxy held her breath without realizing it.

She knows? Her mother already knew that there were two different personalities in her?

Roxy turned to Declan with a questioning look, and although no words were spoken, Declan understood what she wanted to ask.

"She knows. I learned it from her too."

Roxy turned back to the laptop and listened to her mother's continuation.

"To tell you the truth, I didn't expect you to fall in love with Declan and agree to this arranged marriage. Even if you speak up and don't want to marry, your father and I will always hear it. I know you think we've never listened to your opinion, but do you realize… since we've lived here in New York, we've never once refused your request. You asked to leave this house to live independently; we granted it even though it broke our heart because you are not with us as long as it used to be.

When you want a career as a pianist and join an orchestra group, we also allow it, although we both hope you don't have to work. Even if you want to work, at least you can work in your father's banking company.

When we were back in Folkland, I disagreed with the idea of ​​everyone expecting you to be the next Hades. But this time, I support your father to make you a director in one of our banks.

But most of all, I will support you to do whatever you want.

Please, go home, my baby. I miss you and I… am ready to face you. Just be yourself when you go home. I love you to the moon and back, my little angel."

And that was the end of her mother's video recorder. Roxy neither reacted nor shed tears even though her heart was currently sobbing. Her gaze looked at the laptop with a blank stare.

"Hey, are you alright?" asked Declan gently as he kissed her crown.

"No. I'm not alright. I don't know what to say. I don't even know whether I should hate her or… go back to the way we used to be. Declan,"

"Hm?"

"If you're in my shoes, what would you do?"

"Hm… Well, my birth mother took me away from my father and abandoned me in the orphanage. Luckily, I have a second mother that cherished me and adored me sincerely. But if someday my birth mother showed up and wanted to meet me to apologize, I would meet her and say, 'I forgive you and thank you.' That's what I'm gonna say."

"What? I understand that you would forgive her, but why a 'thank you? Don't you ever hate her?"

"I did. I used to hate her."

"Then?"

"Then I realized, no matter what she had done, she is still my mother. She was the one who gave me birth, and I thanked her for that. Otherwise, how could I meet you and fall in love with you?"

"That's… I've never thought like that."

"Roxy, she said she regretted bringing you in the world, but she said it in her lowest state. People would make bad choices when they were mad or scared, or stressed. And your mother just lost her youngest daughter and made her feel depressed and chose to blame you. But in the end, she regretted it too."

"But… I can't forgive her. I was suffering too, and I was… scared and stressed. I barely hold myself not to succumb to my guilt, and I needed her… I needed her to comfort me. To give me strength, but she didn't. She even blamed me and… said that words… What kind of mother is that?"

Roxy settled her laptop aside, and she got up and walked around. She felt her heart filled with something suffocating, but she didn't know how to get it out.

"Roxy,"

"Your mother was different from mine, Declan. Your mother abandoned you in the first place, and there was no guarantee she would look for you… or your sister. No offense, though." Roxy said the last words in her most sincerity. "But my mother… was like an angel and always there for me. She was the first one to know whenever I wanted to pour my heart. But she hurt me. She betrayed me! And now she wanted to see me so she could get rid of her guilt?"

"Roxy, calm down." Declan coaxed while walking towards the girl, but Roxy refused and stepped back.

"No! Please, I need some time alone.." Roxy turned around and locked herself in her room.