Chapter 363 - 361: Giving J Another Chance

"Eunji, what's wrong?" He asked but Eunji didn't say a thing but just looked at him.

J wanted to go to her to check on her but she waved him to stop. Eunji looked pale behind that mask. Something was really wrong with her.

"Are you hurt? Don't be like this. Say something, yeah?"

Tears dropped from her eyes subconsciously and she shrugged off this annoying feeling she had.

Eunji took off her mask and placed it beside her. She also subconsciously wiped the tears in her eyes. Then she looked away from J as she tried to avoid eye contact.

Eunji thought that it was a mistake coming inside J's room.

Since she came here and seemed to have no intention in talking to him, J decided to maximize the opportunity and tried his best to once again ask for his apology.

"Eunji. I know I made a lot of mistakes in the past and I regretted everything. If only you could give me a chance to redeem myself. Just tell me what to do to gain your forgiveness and I will do it."

Eunji then turned her attention back at him with an unexplainable expression.

"There's nothing you can do with a broken glass J. No matter how you put them together with glue, it'll never be the same. The water will still leak."

Though he was saddened by what Eunji said, J still accepted all those pain and bitterness from Eunji to himself.

"I know that Eunji that's why I regretted doing that. I regretted hiding the truth and trying to do things which I thought was for your sake."

"That's the point. This is my life. Not yours! Funny when I should have not existed from the very beginning should Evelina survived and didn't die."

Eunji's tears started pooling on her eyes and there's no way she could stop them from falling down anytime soon.

"I'm tired. But I should not be tired. I have my children relying on me to be strong. They need me to be strong. And sh*ts continued happening to the point that I want to give up."

"No! You should not give up! You have gone though this far. It's not the right time to quit." J immediately comforted her.

"I know. But with all this setbacks...I don't know anymore."

"You may not be the original Eunji. You may be a mere clone as what you described yourself to be. But you are the Eunji that I know. The Eunji whom I admired for being so strong despite everything that had happened to her." J winced in pain as he got up and tried to walk towards her.

He sat down a few meters from her to keep his distance. He didn't want to intrude on her space.

"You're stronger than you think. I have seen you fallen down many times. Yet, you come and made a come back every time. You rose up and faced it like nothing happened. Don't let this another dark episode hold you back from doing what you have to do. Come on. Toughen yourself."

Eunji only showed a sad smile on her beautiful face. That's what she's trying to do at the moment. She was trying to suppress her emotions and push all those irritating thoughts to the back of her head.

But even doing that was hard. She didn't want to be a robot. A person who lacked emotions and only made decisions based on logic. She's afraid to lose herself in that process. She didn't want to transform into that horrible state.

"Do you know why I hate you now?" She suddenly threw a question to him which caught him off-guard.

"Because I lied to you." There was a hint of sadness and regret on J's voice when he said that.

'I hate you because no matter how I tried to hate you because of what you have done, I just couldn't bring myself to hate you longer.'

That was what she wanted to say but Eunji only told him the other half of it.

"Because you're the person that I trust to not betray me. You're the first male friend that I have. My male best friend. I would go and defend you to anyone because I trust you. Yet you failed me."

Eunji sighed as she wiped away the tears on her face.

J looked down on the floor as if he could find the right words to say that could make the situation a little better.

What he had was shame. He was really ashamed of himself yet there's no way he would give up on Eunji. Not this time.

"Right. You're the person who knew me so well aside from Nathan and my mother. So I guess I don't have to explain to you on what to do."

Then Eunji told him what happened why she came here.

"Neechan's on the operating table at the moment. She's fighting for her life. If you have any idea who is helping the Luo Brothers to make a comeback, for the sake of our past friendship J, tell me all that you know."

Eunji only wanted him to be honest with her. She wanted to test him.

"What?! How is she?" Eunji sighed when she saw genuine worry and concern reflected in J's eyes.

"I don't know yet. But if the doctors perform their job well, then she'll get through this."

"I don't know. When they locked me up, I have lost my connection to everyone. Maybe...Asia knew who?"

"Right." Eunji was trying to be not disappointed. Anyways, she still had options.

"Believe me." J wanted her to believe him.

"J, when I tell you to kill your grandfather for me, will you do it?" It was just a random question that Eunji threw at J.

She didn't expect him to answer right away.

"Yes. Without any hesitation." There's no hint of hesitation on J's eyes when he agreed to her.

"Why?"

"Because you are my family Eunji. Him and I are only related by blood but I don't feel the bond. I only have hate towards him for sewing discord between us."

Eunji then took her mask and wore it back.

"Have a rest J. I can't give you the forgiveness that you asked for, yet. But I won't let you die either." Starting that day, J would be walking on bridge made with broken glasses.

Her response gave J hope that in time, she would forgive him. And he'd work hard to earn that forgiveness and her trust.

Those two were what matters for him.

"I understand. I'll be here always ready to help you."

J watched Eunji's lonely back slowly walking away from him and disappeared as she exited on the door.

Eunji decided to go back to the waiting area to wait for the operation to be done.

When she went down, Eunji happened to bump into Alice.

Since Eunji was wearing a mask, she didn't recognize her immediately and instead ignored her and continued walking towards the waiting area outside the ICU.

Alice was holding packed food from the restaurant a couple of blocks away from the hospital for everyone's dinner.

Eunji didn't mind and she walked behind her.

When they turned the corner, Alice approached her wife Iris.

"Hey! I brought dinner everyone. Why don't you we eat dinner while waiting first?"

Eunji didn't listen to her and she decided to slump on the nearby chair ignoring Mo Jing-sheng and Sam.

"EJ, are you okay?" Iris asked her which caught Alice's attention.

"I'm fine. I'm just tired maybe?" Eunji answered with closed eyes.

But then, she suddenly passed out from the chair which caused everyone to panic.

"Eunji!"

***

Eunji woke up in the VIP room with Alice and Iris around her.

"What happened?" She said while trying to get up from the bed. She looked down and saw that she's back wearing the Mo Hospital gown again.

"Don't. The doctor said you have to rest." There was displeasure on Iris's tone.

"Oh?"

"EJ! Who told you to donate more than how much you could give?! The fact that you just had a miscarriage and is still slightly bleeding? Are you trying to kill yourself?!"

Iris was really upset with what Eunji had done. Alice could only comfort her wife on the sideline while looking at Eunji.

"The important thing is to save her. They don't have our blood available. I was given the last bag the other night. I just thought my body had replenished what I lost and recovered pretty quick."

During the screening, the nurse told her that she's not qualified to give given that she just had a miscarriage and had a bleeding.

However, she hypnotized the nurses and med-techs inside the room and had no other choice but to agree.

She was advised to stay in the room to have a rest but she didn't listen to them and decided to go back to wait.

Eunji smiled bitterly after receiving Iris' outburst.

"EJ! Please don't make such reckless decisions next time! You all got us worried." Iris once again told her with a calmer tone this time.

"I'm sorry." Eunji recognized her wrong and therefore she apologized immediately.

Iris and Alice walked towards her and gave her a hug.

This time Iris and Alice cried on her shoulder.

"It's fine. I'm already awake. I feel better now. In fact, I can k*ck someone's *ss right now."

Eunji said some jokes to lighten up the mood.

"Nice try but you have to rest tonight. You're pretty beaten up. You're not invincible than you think you are."

The whole time, Alice stayed silent while watching their interaction.

"Babe, what's wrong?" Iris had finally realized her wife's silence.

"Alice, I'm sorry." Eunji recognized what was wrong and so she uttered the words that she should have told her ages ago.

"You damn woman! How dare you make me worry this much again? You ignore me for so many years and when you showed up you give me a scare?!"

"Hey! Hold up! Take it easy!" Iris came to the rescue.

"It's fine. You know I deserve this earful nag for once in a while." Eunji knew she deserved it so she didn't want Iris to stop her wife.

"Damn you! Even if you're like that, you know I can't hate you!"

"I miss you, too."

Sometimes, it's hard to understand the love language between friends.