Chapter 247 - 246: Didn't Want History To Repeat Itself

Nathan was sitting on his office desk while looking at Eunji's photo he kept on his wallet like his most treasured position. It was like the photo was connected to his lifeline.

It had been almost two years since she had left him. But he still could not accept that she was no longer with him.

Days without her was so lonely and that loneliness felt like killing him.

She had left him with two sons that longed and missed their mother so much like he did.

Every time he looked at their faces, especially Li Wei's face, he wanted to cry. But he could not. Men should not cry!

Li Wei and Evelien reminded him so much of Eunji, his beloved wife.

He heaved a sigh as he looked at the photo one more time.

Tomorrow, they would be leaving to Paris to attend Iris and Alice's wedding.

Mei and Celine would be attending and the kids would be a part of the ceremony since they were like their second mom.

So in order to make sure that they were safe, he had to attend.

But he felt a huge pang of pain every time he heard about wedding as he could still remember Eunji's happy face when they had their own.

He could still not forgive himself about what happened to her.

He felt like what he was experiencing now, this unbearable pain, was a rightful punishment for failing her as a husband and for hurting her so much.

Those who knew their story would tell him in a subtle way that he should move on and let her be in peace in heaven.

But as what he had understood, the definition of moving on was leaving those painful memories behind and make them a part of in the past until it was forgotten along the way.

But he didn't want to forget about Eunji! No, even if he wanted to, he just couldn't. She's forever embedded in his heart and soul. She had been a part of him. Always will and always will be. Asking him to forget her would already be too much for him.

He did tried to end his life after three months that she was gone but the moment he looked at the two boys sleeping on their crib, the thought vanished in thin air.

He knew he had to continue living for the sake of his boys.

He vowed to pour the love he had for Eunji to his two sons.

Then he thought, he could move on but not necessarily forget about Eunji. She's irreplaceable in his heart. And no other woman could replace her there.

When Evelien came, he did want to abandon her. The poor child who took the blame for his failure. The child he never showed love and affection since she was inside the womb.

For him, she represented a mistake.

But as soon as An Qi showed him her birth photo, he felt the strong father daughter bond between them through the photo alone.

Not only that, he felt Eunji's presence in her. And this made him up for days.

He never told anyone about it as he didn't want others, even Mei, to call him paranoid or delusional. He was not like that. He just felt an indescribable feeling the moment he saw the child's photo.

Because of that, he asked Marco to investigate about the baby.

About the true origin of the other egg.

While him, he went to the safe house and meet the baby personally to see her for himself.

As soon as he saw her, he felt like a huge bucket of iced water was being poured into his whole body.

He immediately kneel down and apologized to her even if the child was sleeping when he arrived.

He was about to commit the biggest mistake of his life because of his stupidity.

She was his baby! His own flesh and blood. Even if her existence caused a huge misunderstanding and confusion, she was innocent.

And good thing he realized that before it was too late.

Nathan then received a more shocking news from Marco that made him to sob even if he was a proud man. He didn't care that his people were watching him.

Because of this information, he named her Evelien Bai.

Then he ordered Marco to keep all of the information regarding her origin very confidential by keeping it into his safe and burning the rest as he didn't want others to dig it up.

Nathan didn't explain why he named her Evelien but Kelly told Mei and the rest that Eunji's full birth name was Evelina Lien Eunji Kim. So she was named after her-- Eunji.

Later on as she grew up, Mei and the rest would know why.

After all, she was Nathan and Eunji's child.

If Eunji was reincarnated into Evelien, then he would love and pamper this daughter dearly.

Good thing was the woman who gave birth to Evelien died while giving birth, that way, no one would and claim that she was the birth mother and would claim rights over Evelien.

Still he would surely kill her with his own hands should she survived.

They could address Kelly, Celine, Iris and Alice as mom but they should only recognize one mother and that's Eunji.

The privilege of being his wife and bearing his children only belongs to Eunji exclusively. Therefore the privilege of being their mother would only belongs to Eunji. That explained it.

Nathan sighed as he thought of the kids.

He had been very busy with the business lately that he was not able to bond with them more.

He had failed to be a good husband to Eunji and he didn't want to fail as a father to his three kids too.

He didn't want them to hate him because he was neglecting his duties as their father.

Growing up as a child, he didn't have a father beside him and he hated him for leaving his mother and him. And that hate turned deeper into resentment.

As a kid who grew up in a single-parent household, he knew the feeling better.

Therefore, he had to take action as soon as he could.

He didn't want history to repeat itself. And he didn't want to be like the father he hated the most.

Because of this, he made the decision to have a week of vacation in Seoul after attending the wedding.

But why Seoul though? They could just stay and spend another week in Paris.

His reason was simple.

He wanted the kids to visit the country where their mother came from and got a taste of the culture.

That way, they would got closer to their mother.

That was a perfect idea indeed.

He then kept his wallet back in his pocket and grabbed his coat as he prepared to leave.

He was lost in his own thoughts that he didn't realize it was almost eleven in the evening.

For sure, the kids were already sleeping the moment he arrived at home.

With that thought, he could only sigh deeply.

Sure enough, when he arrived, the kids had been tucked to bed three hours ago.

Mei welcomed him at the bottom of the steps as she was about to sleep too.

"Son." Mei softly called.

"Have you eaten? I'll preheat the food for you." Mei added.

"Thank you Mom but I'm good." Nathan answered.

"The kids are asleep now. The boys were sleeping together as usual." Mei informed him as she tried to fill him little details about the boys.

"I see. But I think it's best if those two would start sleeping on separate beds. That way, they would learn to be more independent."

"Geez! They're not even two yet. Let them have sleep beside each other. After all, they were used to being together even before they came out and said hello to the world."

"Alright Mom. You knew better than I do." Nathan said as he didn't want to hear another lecture from Mei.

He did earned a handful of lecture from Mei ever since the kids came.

It was like Mei loved her grandchildren more than him and it hurt his feelings.

"Nathaniel Bai!"

"Yes Maam!"

"Stop being a kid! You're a father of three now. So you better be one." Here comes Mei's lecture of the day.

"Mom, it's late you better go and rest before those wrinkles pop up on your face. Don't worry about me and the kids. I'll make it up to them. I promise that."

Nathan sighed as he knew that his mom was worried about his relationship with the kids.

"Good. I'm counting you on that. Or else you'll receive a beating from me!"

"Mom...don't you love me? I felt like an abandoned child now." Nathan told her.

"Of course I love you that's why I am doing this." Mei explained the obvious reason even if it was already unnecessary.

"Alright mom. Go upstairs and sleep. It's late." Nathan said softly.

"Oyasumi (Goodnight) Nate." Mei bid goodnight to him.

"Oyasumi, Okaasan." Nathan smiled as he hugged and kissed his mom goodnight.