19 Love and Hate 5.2

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"Putting your hands on my things for a second time you're an even bigger dumb ass then I thought." I growl as I watch this sick bastard try to recover from that hit.

Two men from the tree next to us quickly rushed to help this dip shit to stand up. The man turns to me then to Anna who was leaning against the tree. My lips twitch up into a smirk, as I follow his gaze as his eyes transfix on her. Ignoring his gaze on her as if he wasn't there her eye are transfixed on me, I can't help but wonder if this little thing even fears me sometimes with how cocky she's getting from how she was talking back to me of all people, and here I had come looking for her to teach her a lesson for her text but she wasn't home when I got there. Now I'm here in this mess and without a gun of all things damn it.Most people would be cowering at my feet but not her instead her cheeks look as if they are a glow. I walk over to her noticing his eyes watching us closely as I wrap my arm around her hips pulling her close to me as I trace her face with my fingers. Her body feeling limp as I hold her. Her eye staring back into mine. I feel myself letting go of my anger at her glance.

"Tell me how it feels to know another man has taken what's yours." David sneered as he stands up completely.

This prick, looking at me as if he's so superior for pointing out his crimes. My fingers rubbing across her cheek. My blood lust for this bastard boils up again as the image of the bruised swollen face that had been injured due to this bastard reenters my mind. My arm tightening around her enough to squeeze her to death. I know she hadn't let him violate her but feeling cold and enraged I let her go. I will beat shit out of him till his blood is spilling out and he is begging for forgiveness then I'll break his damn neck like the pussy he is.

"Now, now, I wouldn't lose your cool just yet." David grins.

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Feeling lonely from Ren's sudden coldness I find myself glaring at David. What the hell does he think he's doing. I have never hated someone so much that I wished harm to them but I could feel my own hatred grow from everything that has happen boil over.

"Your little whore over there gets excited when any man touches her it seems."

I listen to his cracks at Ren, hoping he will not believe what David says when I notice David's right arm fall back more behind him as he smiles slowly walking sideways towards me. Barley exposed I see a weird shape tucked into the back of his pants waist belt. Is that a gun I feel all color drain from my face? Remembering that day, the day I agreed to join Feng Clan before leaving the office, Maliki had stopped me from leaving and had given me that for protection. I fell to the ground as my hand slid into my purse for it. As my hands slid around a firm hand grip I pulled out the little light weight white hand gun that had been given to me.

Finding myself raising my arms, fingers squeezing the trigger so fast that I barley realize I had pulled the trigger as my body bent back from the recoil. My heart beat pounding in my head. My eyes closed I hear one of the men cry out in pain. Opening my eyes, I see I had shot one of the men I didn't know rather than David. He looks as if he had fallen back from being pushed as he sat propped up on the ground. The man I shot was putting pressure on his shoulder cringing on one knee where David had been standing. The other man and David turned and escaped in the confusion. Ren shocked, his eyes wide looking at me. David looking over his shoulder back only for a second. I bet he was surprised as much as Ren though because so was I. Realizing I just hurt someone I feel my head droop wanting to cry, but I couldn't let them hurt Ren all this was my fault. Ren came here for me, I feel my face get hot as tears streamed down my face. God I hate being such a cry baby my only solace is that it was dark so Ren can't see my tears. Arms wrap around my head without warning burying it into from what I can tell is Ren's chest. Ren's trying to comfort me. I Don't want to hinder this man I want to be worth something to him.

"Please help me, I want to be useful to you Ren. I don't want to be the reason that you are hurt. I don't want to be the reason you might get hurt." I sob into his chest it's all my fault he's always saving me and I'm just causing him trouble since we met. If he won't let go then I should do as Maliki suggested and be Ren's weapon and shield not his kryptonite.

"Are you prepared for what this means, what you are asking? In my world, it means to be able to kill all feelings and shoot without hesitation; if so I will teach you. However, I will become the one you hate most and fear most that way when you need to, you won't even think about what to do you will just do it. No more playing around you will forget me as a lover you will be a true Feng Clan member it will be the only way to stand by me and be useful. That way no matter what happens you can't be hurt being beside me and I'll never let you leave. I will forever be your lord." He pushes me back from him I feel his eyes on me.

My tears stop as I look into the coldness of Ren's eyes. I see, he will never look at me gently again, I am afraid; I have truly become one of them tonight when I protected him as if he was my lord and asked to stand next to him to follow the path I chose this means abandoning love just like he did. Rather than home I was brought to and given a room in the Feng Clans head residents. Ren left me to the attendants of the house hold and disappeared. Painfully I wish I could have asked him somethings but his whole attitude changed. I still don't know how or why he knew to come to look for me. However, will I no longer be able to joke with him or talk to him other than business or even touch him? I didn't want that I knew he won't love me but I wanted to be with him even if it was as his tool but if it means there will be nothing but hate that everything changes then why am I doing this. Cleaning up and closing my eyes I lay upon my pillow not even bothering to change clothes, I can feel my mind fade. I hear his words as if feeling everything in me died "No more playing around you will forget me as a lover, you are a Feng Clan member now." Ren please can't I at least talk to you like before.