Yan Xingwei thought, “Is it true? Does he dare to do this when he knows nothing about it? Isn’t he afraid that I will lose control and have a fierce sex with him?”
“How do I know? You asked me to take off my clothes last time. I thought I had to do the same this time,” Xiao Ling said shyly.
Yan Xingwei thought, “So, I’m the one to blame?”
“It’s your fault anyway. You misled me.” Xiao Ling’s face went redder.
“Okay, it was my fault, but I don’t remember what happened before.”
Yan Xingwei wanted to lighten the atmosphere, but he shuddered after he spoke. He quickly looked at Xiao Ling, who was disappointed as he feard.
“Sorry, but I didn’t mean it.”
“It’s fine. It’s true that you don’t remember.” The disappointment in Xiao Ling’s eyes didn’t go away, and a hint of sadness darkened his eyes.
Yan Xingwei thought, “Am I an idiot? Why did I mention that?”
“If you are upset, you can give me a punch. I won’t fight back.” Yan Xingwei stood still, asking Xiao Ling to hit him.
Xiao Ling looked up and shook his head. “It was also my fault. If I hadn’t followed you, this wouldn’t have happened.”
“Followed me? What was going on?” Yan Xingwei thought, “I had no idea about this.”
“That night, I bumped into Yan Chengyu at the gate of the bar. Originally, I wanted to say hello and leave, but he said that you were drunk and asked me to take you home. He wanted to go to another bar. At first, you didn’t say anything. I admired Yan Chengyu at that time and wanted to impress him, so I didn’t refuse him. But later…”
Xiao Ling didn’t continue. He seemed reluctant to talk about it. He looked sad.
Yan Xingwei thought, “Later I raped him? But I didn’t remember anything. Was I drunk? But I wouldn’t have raped him because I was drunk. Don’t men go impotent when they got drunk?”
Although Yan Xingwei didn’t want to say that he was impotent, he couldn’t have sex when he got drunk.
But suddenly, scenes of that day came across Yan Xingwei’s mind. He recalled that he sullenly watched Xiao Ling talk to his brother shyly. He was cross when Xiao Ling admired his brother.
Yan Xingwei froze. Wait. Was he sullen at that time? Was he cross because he saw Xiao Ling talk to his brother shyly?
He thought, “Damn it. Was I jealous at that time? But I don’t remember anything about that. No. Xiao Ling used to talk to Yangyi a lot and looked back at me from time to time in the classroom. He looked away when I met his eyes.”
“Did I start to care about him back then? Subconsciously? Or I lost my memory?”
“Damn it! Did I fall in love with him first? From a long time ago? And then I denied my feelings for him?”
“On the way, you suddenly pulled me away. You looked as if something was wrong. Your face was red and you panted heavily when you touched me. I was too scared to fight, so I followed you.” Xiao Ling suddenly told Yan Xingwei about what was going on, but he looked pale. Yan Xingwei guessed he raped Xiao Ling after that.
Yan Xingwei got suspicious. His face was red? His face turned red when he drank too much, but he panted heavily?
Panting?
Suddenly, Yan Xingwei widened his eyes. He recalled that Yan Chengyu and Zuo Bo said in the bar that they would give him something good and handed him a glass of wine with a weird color.
‘Damn it! Did those two bastards drug me?’