Chapter 34 - 33

"Leave!" Kai shouted, his voice turning cold and distant. Obviously he was not referring to Philip but the woman who was trying to invade his private space. "There is nothing going on, I am just talking to myself." he told her but she didn't seem to back down.

"I am sorry your highness. Those are strict orders from your mother. I will open the door now." she said and Kai could hear her soft hand touch the doorknob from the outside. The eyes that hid the secrets of the world widened and in a hurry he pushed Philip off his bed. The man fell on the ground, tangled with the silk sheets and rolled towards the balcony, meeting with the outside world half naked with his shoes in his hands. He jumped off, supporting his hands on the railings while he had moved the shoes around his neck, somehow managing to keep them in place by their shoelaces. Kai found himself in the balcony and in those few seconds he looked at Philip.

A playful smirk on his lips, his eyes glowing with excitement and he winked at him. His black long hair was messy, giving him a more dangerous air and the muscles on his arm flexed as he held himself in the air. Kai blushed, finding his image so attractive even at a moment like this.

"Promise me." Kai whispered and looked at him with a serious expression.

"Promise you what, love?" he asked him.

"One day, we will make our own world." Kai stated and Philip winked at him again, his smile getting wider.

"Promise." he said before he jumped off. Kai ran towards the railings, looking down at the grass but the wolf had already disappeared. He wanted to see him for a little bit longer. Admire his carefree nature, engrave his promise in his heart. When he first realized he loved him he decided he was contempt with simply being around him, then after he achieved that he had told himself he would be fine if they were friends and then after they became friends he was seeking for his kiss, his touch, his love. Kai was greedy, he always wanted everything and everything was never enough, especially when it came to Philip.

The door of his room finally opened and he realized that the maid had actually the decency to give him sometime. Kai moved back to his bed, grabbing the fallen sheets and covering himself, standing behind the curtains that were surrounding his bed.

"Excuse me your highness, it's just that the queen…"

"Just search around and get it over with. You've chosen to disrespect me anyway."

"I...I would never disrespect you. I swear."

"Fine, fine. Just go." he told her with a frown. Once she finished her search he laid on his bed, smelling the sheets. They still had his scent and he closed his eyes, bringing back Philip's words as if hundreds of years had passed. Not even an hour alone and he felt lonely, his absence a deep wound that was slowly getting deeper because he didn't know when he would be able to see him soon.

Kai had never seen a vampire be truly in love, feel the anguish of the heart breaking. They were superficial creatures, driven by last and desire. He was one too, until he met Philip. After him he became a fool, tortured by those absurd feelings. After him the bed he had so adored was too big just for him and his body felt cold when he wasn't sleeping by his side.

"Oh" Kai mouthed. "I am in big trouble." He told himself but he was still smiling like a fool.

Back to his painful presence though Kai was being tortured by his poison. Philip looked at him and with a wet towel he wiped away the thick beads of sweat that were gathering in his forehead. He sighed, seeing him as he bit his lips so hard that he drew blood.

"I'm sorry." Philip mumbled. He had said that again and again, trapped in a self made prison of guilt. "Please don't die" he begged him and for the first time in hours Kai opened his eyes. Not in a panic crisis or some delusional moment. His blue eyes simply flattered opened and as if they were lost they traveled in the room. The prince coughed, getting Philip's attention and the werewolf looked at him. "Kai? Can you hear me?"

"Where is everyone?" he asked, his voice coming out rough like sandpaper.

"They are going to find an antidote for you. They will be back soon and everything will be alright." He said, a small spark of hope ignited inside him as he realized that Kai was not trapped in his paranoia caused by the poison. The vampire smiled bitterly, slowly turning his head to the side to face him.

"That is a really bad idea." he said and Philip stared at him with a frown.

"What do you mean? Does this have to do with what you told me? That you wanted to die? What has gotten into you? I won't let you die."

"But you have to." Kai said, a bloody cough escaping his pale lips coloring them a deep red.

"No."

"Yes. A sinner must pay for his sins. The sins he can't talk about and cannot redeem. I am sick of living in this world, I am sick of not being myself. You said it yourself, this whole calm mask of mine is very annoying."

"Not annoying enough for me to want you to die" Philip exclaimed making Kai giggle. He started coughing again, the wolf raised him up, making him sit so he would be able to breathe better and Kai closed his eyes for a second trying to endure his pain.

"Thanks, that says a lot." Kai said and Philip rolled his eyes.

"Do you want me to be honest with you?" Philip told him and Kai looked at him. He seemed tired, as if he hadn't slept in years. His under eyes were a deep purple color while his cheeks looked a bit hollowed. Still even with all those signs of the sickness surrounding him he looked divine. Like a classical painting, his beauty was in the smallest details and seated in his black couch, his appearance as if it was painted by a ripper showed so much pain and torture. Those eyes really, Philip thought, were filled with secrets and he, for some unknown reason, couldn't stop himself from searching for the answers.

"Let's try that, I guess." the prince told him.

"I am a man who appreciates beauty and you are by far the most beautiful man I have ever seen." he told him, getting closer. "From the very first moment that I saw you I realised that your face, your elegance will get stuck in my brain, all that until I got to have you. That's why Kai, you can't die yet."

"I can't die because you want to sleep with me?" Kai asked him. He was dying, laid in a very uncomfortable couch, feeling his whole body burn up while his neck felt like someone was clawing it with hate and right now he was having the most absurd conversation with Philip. Maybe he was actually hallucinating, maybe he had truly lost it.

"Yes." Philip said and nodded eagerly. Kai fell back to his pillow, his arm landing on top of his eyes. He couldn't look at him. He would burst out laughing. He couldn't believe what he was hearing at such a moment. Only his life could be filled with so many ironic moments and idiotic people. "So you have to listen to me and stay alive. No more I want to off myself thoughts."

"Did you ask me if I wanted to sleep with you?" Kai asked, gathering all of his remaining strength.

"Why wouldn't you? I'm hot. Also I can see how you look at me. I am a snack." he said.

"Please stop talking." Kai begged him, his face still hidden as he started coughing again. This time more blood came out and Philip stood up, distressed as he didn't know what to do. The hours were passing and the rest were nowhere to be found.

"Kai?" he called out and the prince looked at him, unable to speak now. He was losing himself again in the rising fever. He tried to keep his eyes open but as it seemed this all he could do. Just before he fell asleep again though he parted his lips whispering something. Philip moved closer, trying to listen to what he was about to say but it was so low that he couldn't make out any of the words. He raised his eyebrow filled with curiosity but Kai had already lost consciousness.

"I'm in big trouble."

That was what Kai had said.

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