Chapter 183 - 182

"Happy Birthday!" Mika's excited voice echoed in the quiet room when he kicked the door open, a cake with candles in his hands. Philip looked at him, a blank expression on his face as his eyes met with his best friend's.

Their room felt too quiet. Reina was gone, the day he had chosen him as his Beta she had stormed inside the room and gathered her stuff. No matter how many times Philip told her to stay, that did not mean he valued her less than a friend she wouldn't hear. Now there was just him and Mika, her bed empty, just a mattress there, undressed, looking utterly depressing. He hadn't managed to see her either during those days, it was as if she was hiding from him and that hurt him. Slowly he felt like the people around him were leaving him. Kai, Reina, one by one they disappeared as if they were never there.

Mika had told him to not think about it. She was stubborn and immature, that was how he had described her but Philip knew it wasn't because of that. Reina would never argue for matters she knew were not involving her. His red haired friend believed the girl would walk through that door any moment now apologizing but Philip doubted it.  The truth was he knew why Reina had decided to leave them, even if he didn't want to face it.

She was more capable than Mika, Philip wasn't so stupid as to not realize that. She was intelligent, well spoken, educated and strong. She had a level headed mind and many connections, all that just at the age of eighteen. She felt wronged because she believed friendship shouldn't intervene with our jobs and she was right. She would have been a much better Alpha than him. 

"Stop being so depressed!" Mika shouted, shoving the cake right in front of his face, pulling him back from the thoughts about his recently lost friendship. "Come on, in just a few hours you will be having your memories back, isn't that great?" He asked him, pointing with his chin on the candles, making Philip blow them with an unexcited expression. 

"Yeah, because that will be great." He mumbled falling back and bouncing on Mika's bed with a troubled expression. "I barely manage to spend a few hours without thinking about him now I will have to get into a fucking comma and see the past, my own death even." 

"Your memories with that idiot will just be a small fragment of your life. There will be great moments, I will be there too." 

"Nice, having this carrot haired idiot with me will definitely make things better." he joked and a few seconds later a pillow landed on top of his face. 

"Die you piece of shit." Mika said playfully, pushing a bit the pillow in his face as if he was trying to suffocate him. 

Philip smiled, grabbing the soft object from its edges and pulling it away before he hit Mika with it and made him fall to the side, a giggle escaping his lips.

"I'm scared." Philip expressed himself, the cheerful moment slowly disappearing.

"Of what?"

"Of being wrong. I am scared that there will be more to the story, that I made a mistake like Reina said. I don't know. All this time something hasn't been feeling right. Like a weight on my chest." The new Alpha described and heard Mika sigh loudly. 

"Reina was trying to get in your head. What exactly could be a good reason enough to justify that Kai did kill you? He didn't even bother sharing the whole story with you. He simply told you to fuck off."

"He didn't really say that." Philip mumbled, rubbing the back of his neck. 

"Are you having second thoughts?" Mika asked him.

"I…I don't know." The werewolf said, his voice low as if he was scared to tell his friend the truth. The red haired man looked at him with an annoyed expression, sighing again as if he couldn't breathe well. Philip looked at him, his hazel eyes mirroring the mess that he called his mind.

"Philip, listen to me." Mika said, his eyes glued on his friend. "You are the new Alpha now. You need to focus on this, it's really important and a great responsibility. You can't have second thoughts about anything. Kai is gone, and that is the best thing, no matter how much you love him there is no way that could let you forgive him for what he did to you. It's impossible. Okay?" he asked and Philip shook his head, hesitantly. "Your memories will let you know, you will see that you made the right decision. I am sure of it." he continued and the alpha gave him a small smile. It was fake, both of them knew it but Mika didn't call him out on it. It was simply a bad moment, Mika had thought, everything would be alright when he remembered. 

"Okay, I am just a bit worried about all this." 

"It's very natural. I was terrified too."

"Mika…" Philip called out and his friend raised his eyebrow.

"What?"

"About your mate…"

"That's not the time to talk about my mate now." he told him and smiled. "You need to lay on your bed and close your eyes, fall asleep and wait for the memories to guide you. They are sent to you by the gods so try not to be so scared." he told him and stood up, whipping off some invisible dirt from his worn out jeans. "I will make sure no one bothers you." 

"Mika, thanks." 

"No problem. Philip, I know I sometimes whine too much but I…I just don't want to lose my best friend again, okay?" 

"I will be here, don't worry. Now go, I need to prepare." Philip said, a smile on his lips.

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