Chapter 218 - 217

Oh how love hurts, how the rushing of the heart and the clenching of the chest make you feel like you would die. The sweaty palms and the stutter, the feeling that if one word is wrong everything is ruined. Love is just thinly separated from madness. Love is just thinly separated from doom and that somehow made everyone feel so alive. 

Maybe that was the reason why Philip, while he looked at Kai, felt as if the world had come to life again. In his world, the colors were dull, the sounds muffled and everyday never seemed to change. In his world, the faces of the people he knew were blurry and the beauty of the things he liked the most seemed to have faded. 

In his world, the vampire that was called Kai was needed, because without him there was really not a world he could call his. His eyes, looking at him, vibrant like wild flowing rivers while his hair, gold a crown on its own. His pale skin and his long fingers, the smooth tone of his voice and the way he blinked, waiting for him to say something.

But how could he speak? How could he even breathe in his presence and risk to ruin this moment? Yes, with love every word, every stare and every move counted because love had the ability with just the locking of two eyes, just the entwine of fingers and an embrace to ruin you or break you, with every little detail love could be the hero or the villain and the risk right now was too much to bear, Philip just wanted to sit here. Kai right in front of him, a lazy smile on his face, everything seeming to be in sync.

"I need to talk to you. I know you might be mad, I know that I did something horrible but before I couldn't explain, but I can now, I swear if you're willing to hear me out I…" Kai started saying, the words escaping so fast from his lips that he didn't even breathe between them. Philip stopped him, sitting up and kissing him passionately. A collision of bodies, lips and Kai for the first time in months felt his heart beat. Yes, he was still alive, after two hundred years he was still living, his heart frantically beating into his chest. Yes, Philip's kiss was so sweet and his smell reminded him of a field, sunny during the spring and chilly in the nighttime while the moon bathed the flowers with its light. And there he was, right in the middle of this field, right next to him, alone in the world. 

Oh how he wished to be alone with him. No one else around as he touched him, as he saw him smile. How he wished to be held by him, to hear his voice say I love you. Everything, he wanted everything and he would give him his. From his heart to his soul and mind Kai wanted Philip to have all of him, bruised and flawed as he was; he accepted him and that alone made him feel hopeful.

He wanted their kiss to last more but their time was limited, like always. He wanted for their eyes to look into each other in silence for a while longer, Philip's face imprinted on his mind looked even better now than in his memories. He wanted to hear his voice.

"Say something." Kai begged him and the werewolf smiled, caressing his cheek gently. "Anything." 

"Kai…" Philip called his name, making it out like the most powerful spell. Just like that he could surrender his life. Just by hearing Philip's deep voice call him, he was his. "I am sorry." Philip apologized. "I am sorry I didn't hear you out. I was so stupid but I remember now, everyhting they did to you, all the things they did to us. I shouldn't have blamed you I…please don't cry." Philip said, his thumb gently wiping off the tears escaping Kai's eyes. 

"I…I was so scared, I thought you would hate me for the rest of your life, I…I love you Philip, I would never hurt you. I swear, no matter what happens I would never betray you." he said, sniffling, his eyes glowing from the tears. 

"I know, I know." Philip whispered as he brought him into his embrace. "I know. You did the right thing back then. I would have killed you and so many more. Thank you for not letting me turn into a killer. Thank you for keeping your promise to me. Thank you for bearing the burden for me all this time, for taking all this torture that I could have." he told him, kissing his nose, his cheeks and smiling at him. 

How could a person feel so right? How could a person simply have such a strong hold on your life? How could a person make your heart tremble in bliss with a smile and then in worry with a sigh? Kai had never loved anyone like that, had never felt for anyone like that, he hadn't even though he was capable of loving someone like that but here he was, a prince like him, captured by a mere werewolf. People would laugh at him but he would laugh at them because they would never come to know a love like that.

"Can I…can we be together now?" Kai asked, his eyes looking at Philip as a hope blossomed in him. "I don't want to be away from you any longer, I don't want to fall asleep at night missing you. I don't want to wonder if you love me or hate me. I want to be with you, no matter where you are. I want to be with you and I want the whole world to see. I don't care anymore." Kai said and Philip smiled, kissing him again. 

"I won't ever leave you again. I promise. I love you Kai. I love you with every bone in my body, I love you with every thought in my heart and I will keep loving you, life after life, again and again, no matter what happens, no matter who stands in our way. I love you so be with me, okay?" he asked him. 

"Philip! Oh shit, sorry!" Reina said. She was standing at the palace's entrance, both men looking at her and she smiled apologetically. "We are waiting for you to greet the queen, come on. Sorry to interrupt but you know…duty calls." she said and Kai chuckled.

"Welcome to BloodBound Philip." Kai said.

"The best welcome I've ever had."