Chapter 57

These days, he has not been so holding her to sleep, habitually swab her nose before going to bed, afraid of her silent to leave, and in the new day to see her still in his arms, light shallow breathing, his wavering heart just slightly return.

In the past few days, he has been dressing and grooming for her, but he can't summon up the courage to see the scar between her abdomen. He is afraid to see the twisted scar on her white and soft abdomen and make a silent accusation against him.

He believes that the bravest people in the world may not have such courage.

And he, Zhang lingshuo, has never been braver than Mo Hui.

Now Zhang lingshuo is mo Hui in the seventeen years. He has to chase him like Mo Hui did in the seventeen years. That's fair, isn't it?

Zhang lingshuo thought, holding Mo Hui's arm for a few minutes.

After half an hour's rest with her eyes closed, Zhang lingshuo carefully lifted the quilt on his side, got out of bed, went to the table, picked up the medicine on the table and poured a cup of warm water.

Dr. Huang said that she didn't need to take medicine. She needed a heart doctor for her heart disease.

Her heart disease, medicine on him.

"Here, take some medicine!" Hide all the mood of pure black eyes, go back to the bedside, gently shake the Mo Hui who has been asleep or in a false sleep.

Don't go back.

"Don't go back, my dear. Get up and take medicine! " He called again, but she did not move.

"Don't go back ... "

the answer was a strong wave. The Yellow medicine particles fell to the ground, and the cup on Zhang lingshuo's hand fell to the ground, marking a bright red mark on his hand.

Mo Hui turned her small face. Her pale face was full of tears. Her black and white eyes were full of pain. Through the misty mist, she saw those beautiful eyes.

It was a pair of eyes with the same pain as him.

Pain, became their common character!

Outside the window, the cold wind and cold rain meet and soak their hearts into a cold ice cellar.

"You go, I can't hold on. I can't hate you or love you! I feel bad. It's hard here! " The broken words escaped from her mouth, and the expression painfully pointed to her heart.

This is when she wakes up, "we have no road, only cliff." Mo Hui's face dead white said, trembling all over, words Lingluo.

"There is a way. As long as you are willing to see me, there is a way between us." Will face buried in her cold neck, close to feel her weak rhythm of life.

Tears, broken like beads, all seeped into Zhang lingshuo's clothes through his clothes, ironing his skin.

"Mo Hui, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" Zhang lingshuo felt that his heart was about to split, split into several cracks, and filled the void with nothing.

"Your apologies should not be given to me. It's too wasteful. I'm sorry for you. I've been pestering you for more than ten years and fantasizing for more than ten years. At last, I used deception to get a feeling that doesn't belong to me. You left right. I'm selfish. You go away and don't come back. That's the end of our knot. "

"But I love you At this moment, he knew that a man's heart would hurt like this.

She didn't want him?! After more than ten years of love, Zhang lingshuo suddenly took it all back. He couldn't imagine what that life would be like. His powerful arms will hold her more tightly, hoping to let her fall into their own flesh and blood, never separated.

"Love?" Teeth bite into their lips, not to cry. At this time, he even said love, how to love, broken body, residual heart, how to stand after heartbreak.

"I know, you won't believe it. I haven't noticed it before. Mo Hui, I've been used to hiding my temperament since I was a child. My parents don't know my real character. Only my grandfather and you have seen it, and only the two of you have seen it. I'll show you the most real side... "

Don't be silent. Zhang lingshuo took a deep breath and continued:

"after my grandfather died, you are the only one in the world who can let me treat you with temper. It's not because I'm really tired of you, but because I put you in a secret corner of my heart that I didn't even realize. Grandfather's last journey, you accompanied him through, you know how jealous I am, how sorry? That's my closest relative, but I didn't even accompany him on the last leg. I know he was relieved at the moment before he died, because he always believed that grandma was waiting for him in another world. If he didn't meet you, he would let his life disappear after going where Grandma wanted to go. But he met you, cherished you for more than ten years, and left me more than ten years of family affection, which made me feel that my future is not so dark and boring. Grandfather must have told you, let you accompany my future life. He knows that we are the most suitable people. Your simplicity, straightness and tolerance can accommodate my awkward temperament. We met at the simplest age. He knew that I could not accept another person like you in this life. He expected that I would not really hurt you, but I still gave you countless scars, leaving you alone Don't go back. The way I used to go was wrong. I can't go back. Let's move on until you want to see me again, and then we'll leave here. Here gives you a place to heal your wounds, but it will become a permanent pain in your heart. It's like a scar in your heart. Every time you think about it, it's like a stream on echo cliff. "Mo Hui shook for a while, Zhang lingshuo eyes a burst of pain.

"Don't be afraid." Caressing her tight back, his gentle voice rang out again, "the stream in the small village has left a deep impression on you and me. From that time on, I noticed that the clowns I always despised were stronger than me, healthier than me, more patient than me, more sensible than me, and more suitable to stay with my grandfather. Without you, I would not have such willful language, and my grandfather would not have such a happy old age. Don't go back. My grandfather said that you are God's favorite. It's true. Do you know how grateful I am to have you with me in those days? When the pressure is the greatest, hearing your hearty laughter can relax my spirit and give me the strength to challenge those old ministers of Zhang's group Don't go back... " There was a sharp pain in his arm. He didn't move and let her bite him.

The thick smell of blood permeates Mo Hui's mouth, tears slide down, and the sweet smell in the blood mingles with the salty taste in the tears, which turns into a hard bitter.

Bitter!

"Mo Hui..." He called her softly for fear of disturbing her.

Mo back in the past, Mo back now, always let him long heartache.

She's not hurting him. She's hurting herself.

Even if he hurt her like this, she still did not dare to bite deeply. After biting the skin, her teeth became loose. He's afraid of pain, she knows.

Who else in the world can do this to him?

No, no more. Only this thin woman can love him like this. She has loved him for 19 years.

Nineteen years, such a long time, love without hesitation. She loved him even when she hated him. What can he do? To have her deep love,

"don't go back, don't hurt yourself." Zhang lingshuo said in a general way. He did not look down at her or touch her face. He was afraid to touch her tears. Her tears were like this, but there was no sound. Why could he not see them before! I think she is strong and optimistic, and I don't know what it's like!

She just wanted to leave the happiest side to him.

The teeth on the arm loosened little by little, and there was still no sound of whimpering.

"You make me sick, you know?" She said.

"I know."

"I can't go back to the way I used to be. I'll never be the same again."

"No matter what it becomes, I will be with you. Just follow your heart and I'll be with you. " The former Mo Hui was killed twice by him, how could it be the former Mo Hui. Zhang lingshuo thought bitterly.

"Zhang lingshuo, I hate you!"

"Hate. I wish it would be more comfortable. "

Time goes by bit, tears dry, the heart is still more than pain.

"Go to sleep." In the days to come, I will support the storm for you.

Mo Hui in the arms did not respond, Zhang lingshuo gently moved his arm, let her lie back in the bed. Tears drenched her little face, the hair on her cheek was clinging to her face, and her nose was still slightly red.

Reach out, gently open her hair, revealing her whole pale face.

Then he went to bed, hugged her, warmed her with his body temperature, and prevented the cold wind outside the window from attacking her body.

She did not resist, but her hands obediently placed in the bed, beside his clothes, but would not touch him, twisted into a deadlock.

Zhang Junshu's eyes slowly flickered over the ground.

Outside the window, the sky is white.