Chapter 92 - 90

The Reif of the original timeline has absolutely no one to care for and love him. He lived a very painful life that would cause most people to simply yearn for death

Despite not doing anything wrong, the world has pushed him to commit mass murders for the sake of keeping his life

Despite not expecting any love after he blackened, deep inside the original Reif, he was still starved and yearning for love

Thus, it was understandable that he would find it hard to accept that the younger Reif that has everything he could only dream of has this low level of resolve

He would give up in life any moment from now if he was still experiencing that great pain

"I'm disappointed, really disappointed. How could you let down the person that cared and love you greatly?" The older Reif was beyond displeased, he was incensed

His anger caused a heavy pressure to bore down on Reif's spirit. The younger one was forced into the ground, the pressure preventing him from moving even a single finger

"Disgusting. Utterly disgusting" the older Reif was full of disgust for the younger one

With a wave of his hand, the younger Reif's body moved and he placed his hand on the man's neck

"You have someone with you and I don't but you think about giving up? Do you have any idea how much I yearned for what you have?" The older man asked dangerously before throwing the younger man away

He was seething with anger. No one, even Rhash that is a witness of his hardship does not have a 100% understanding of how much he wanted someone to give him warmth, to give him light

If Reif were to have someone that will light up his dark world, he would do everything for that person

If his light wanted him to kill a person, he would kill a thousand of them!

If his light wants his blood, he would give it all without regrets!

If his light wants to hurt him, he would gladly receive pain!

If his light wants to have the whole world in his palm, he would give it to him!

There is nothing in this world that the older Reif wouldn't do for his light!

Perhaps, only people that have absolutely no source of warmth, love, and light would understand each other

Other than themselves, no one would understand how willing they would be to be a pet, a puppet, a slave, or a doll just to have a single light in their dark world

Everything that the older Reif wished and prayed for is something that the younger one has yet he dared to harbor the thought of succumbing to pain?

If he is not disgusting then what is he?

"How dare you give up your life. The moment that you obtained your light, your life and death is not something for you to decide anymore. Everything that you have should belong to your light, even the decision of living or dying!"

The empty crimson space trembled as the older man raged and the younger man felt like he was slapped to death

Right, the older him was completely right

The despairing moments of his life were clouded and blurred by the blissful memories he created with Rhash

It momentarily made him forget how dark, murky, and hopeless his life was back then. Those were the times that Reif is constantly praying and wishing for someone to love

Now that his wish was granted, he actually thought of dying? He really is a disgusting person!

With a renewed resolve, Reif stood up from the ground with a head bowed in shame

"Y-you're right. I was disgusting and stupid. How could I leave big brother alone in this cruel world?" Reif repented but the older him won't easily give his forgiveness

In a flash, the older man appeared in front of the younger one and...

Pak!

The older Reif slapped the younger one and the latter felt as if his head would be detached from his neck

Even then, the younger man didn't dare resist. Not to mention that he does not have the ability, this slap and even death is something he deserves for harboring such thoughts

"You think that repenting and apologizing is enough? If not for my interference, you might be dead by now already! How dare you try to leave your light alone when you are aware of how cruel the world is!" The older man continued to rage, giving the younger one some senses

"You're right, absolutely right. Feeling ashamed is not going to help me. With that being the case, I beg of you to help me!"

After saying that, Reif kneeled in front of the older version of himself. Feeling shame or being arrogant right now is not going to help

Reif set aside all of his pride as he sincerely begs for help

"What makes you think that I would help you, someone, that is a filth? Do you think that you, a person with light, is something that I that lived completely in a dark will help? You sure are arrogant! If I don't have a light, do you think I would be happy that the others have one? "

The older man's words were completely true. Most people that are lacking something in their life would most of the type not want to be in a better position than them

Their twisted nature wouldn't be happy that others have something that they don't

However, even with that being the case, the younger Reif still raised his head with determination burning in his eyes

"You will help me" Reif said in a statement and not a question, causing the older man's eyes to redden

In anger, Reif was once again tightly gripped in the neck by himself

"I don't like that mouth that you have. Should I just kill you?"

Despite the threat in his life, Reif still removed the hand in his neck as he spoke confidently

"While it was true that twisted people would not want others to have a better living condition than them, are we, in our real nature really twisted, or did the world forced us to be twisted? A naturally twisted person is different from one that became twisted due to their experiences "

As of now, Reif is already a twisted person. He doesn't mind committing genocide if it's for his big brother

However, his birth nature is not a cruel man. Sure, he doesn't feel guilt for committing mass murders but he also doesn't find pleasure in them unlike the naturally twisted born people

The older man and the younger man are both Reif. They have different lives but the early stages were still the same

The older one knows what it feels like to be lightless. Would he easily let the younger one die just like that?

Not to mention, if he doesn't have any thoughts of helping Reif, would he even bring him here?

"Heh... you grew quite smart but I still hate you for thinking of giving up" the older man sneered before giving Reif a kick in the stomach

Before the younger Reif knew it, there are more and more versions of himself that appeared

Some are young, some are old. They are all similar but also different

However, there is a distinct feature that all of them have. They are all lightless versions of Reif!

One that doesn't receive even a shred of love their entire life

"Do you know how special you are?" The older Reif asked and the younger man shook his head

"If this world is a book, we Reif has constantly been trying to change our future. We have tried countless times but it seems like there is some force preventing us from being happy"

"No matter how hard we struggle, we couldn't escape our fate. In fact, don't you feel that it was strange? How is it really impossible for us, except the special you to not have a light?"

"The world has no lack of evil people but it also doesn't lack real saints at heart. There are countless kinds of people that wouldn't discriminate against everyone. You have heard the stories of my life from your light but don't you find it weird? "

"A person that tried to dress recognition and love for years don't receive even at least one genuine warmth? We are not greedy people. We don't need a lot of love. We would be content even with just one person to love us "

"However, as if everything is already pre-destined, we didn't have anyone to love and care for us. As if that was our fate, our destiny just like a... storybook"

"You know what our power is, it is the ability to destroy. Do you think our powers would only work on physical objects?"

That last question gave Reif a lot to think about. The chaos power inside him has the power of destruction, it was the only purpose

With the older Reif asking him this kind of question, could it be, his power has more that it could destroy?