Chapter 9：Feelings and Desires

[Detailed mature scene ..skip if it will make you uncomfortable]

[Nana POV]

"I want you." He replied as one of his hands start pulling my nightgown trap sleeve down and the other pulling my panties underneath the nightgown, making me feel so confuse and good.

He is messing with my head.

Don't let him, don't let him Nana ..you can do this..

"Oh my god!" I moan when he start nipping on my neck which is currently still sending tingling all over my body ..when I realised that I had moan out loud, I cover my mouth in awe and disgust.

I look down at him to know if he is mocking me ..I know I'm crazy for even thinking that but yeah, whatever and no ..he isn't. His eyes look so focus as his lips kisses me everywhere. I'm disappointed in myself to say this but ..I really love his kisses ..especially when his lips is kissing mine a little roughly ..thinking about it makes me want to capture his lips in a deep kiss and I could have if he hadn't just done that.

I didn't even know when he slipped my nightwear out of my body now leaving me with my underwear which happens to be only a sokgot as I don't like wearing a band to bed because it makes me uncomfortable.

He is pulling down my sokgot and at the same time kissing me like crazy, making me completely his ..to kiss, take and control.

God he's distracting me from panicking or refusing him and he is succeeding.

"Nana you're so beautiful." he murmurs as he completely pull down my sokgot from my legs, then drop it where he dropped others and he start placing kisses all over my body ..starting from my lips, neck, stomach and now he is going downwards which makes me have goosebumps all over my body. I jack my body in shock when his lip cover my pussy then I started panicking thinking that he's going to bite me there too like he did with the rest of my body but no he didn't.

I feel him kiss me there sending me to heaven but all of a sudden, I feel my body receive the sharpest pain ever. I hear him hiss and at the same time mutter with a tone that i've never heard from him before..

"So tight ..so tight and beautiful."

I try to suppress the pain thinking it will stop at just that once but then he started kissing me again as he stick not one this time but two fingers which send a very painful pain all over my body ..making me to start pulling out of his hold.

"I'm so sorry ..did I hurt you." He asked then as if sensing that his question is quite not wise, he said. "Of course I know I hurt you but I promise, it will only hurt just once."

"Nana." He called when I started pulling out of his hold more forcefully.

"Please leave me alone." I plead as I struggle out of his hold but he wouldn't let me go.

"You're my wife! Why do you always have to be difficult!?." He yelled then stand up in anger when I started crying.

"I don't even want to be your wife in the first place! For god sake I'm just eighteen!! If you and your father hadn't kill my parents and relatives ..I'm sure my life wouldn't have been this sad and I would be doing what I want instead of sitting down here in this palace filled with people who have and are still killing innocent people!!." I said angrily not caring if he's going to punish me later for my words and behavior.

"You father died because he was forming an army so he can use them to overthrown Yi Chae-Yul ..the late emperor who happens to be my late father and your family decided to go with him ..they made their choice when they were deciding to break a traitor out of prison!! He yelled back angrily.

"That's not true and i hate you! I hate you so much!!." I yell crying then start dragging the bed cover to wrap it around my chest, which I did ..hiding my nakedness from him because he doesn't deserve seeing me naked.

"Nana.." He started to say but what surprises me is his soft tone which makes me cry harder for an unknown reason.

"I'm scared.. I don't know me anymore _I don't even know if there's me anymore. I'm not ready ..please don't force yourself on me ..I'm just not ready yet ..I'm not ready." I plead in between crying.

"Shhh.. It's okay. I'm sorry I brought your parents death up and I understand that you're not ready. I will wait Nana.. I will wait because I love you."