120 Chapter 53: Forgotten Memories - 2

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"Hhhhmmm no Raven..... don't please.... no....." Terrence woke up in the middle of the night again because of Chester's sleep talking and once again it's the same name all over again. He looked at Chester who's turning his head side to side. *It's like this all over again* he said in his mind. Terrence already took the courage and asked Chester on who might Raven is but Chester feign innocence and brush the question aside. If he doesn't want to answer him he will change the topic or he will run for an errand as if he's trying to avoid the question but the last time he asked Chester he answered him that he doesn't know the man. Terrence knows when Chester is telling a lie and it is clear to him that his wife is lying to him.

He looked over to his side and saw the tears that is now streaming down to his beautiful wife's face. Terrence cupped his face torn between waking him up or just letting him be for one more minute but the longer he waits the more Chester's voice is getting louder and the more he calls for the man's name. Unable to take it Terrence had woken Chester up

"Chester, chester wake up." Right for a week now Terrence has been calling Chester by his name. He slowly going back to how coldly he treats Chester before the first time he saw him after years of separation. He hated the fact that Chester is lying to him but most importantly he hated the fact that Chester is calling another man's name during his sleep. The sudden changes with Chester's behavior only adds up to his suspicion. He also refuse to sleep with him after the hospitalization incident. Terrence heart is growing cold by the days that passes by.

"Te-Terrence." Chester immidiately hugged Terrence which the usual thing that he does whenever he wakes up from his dreams and Terrence always tries to console him but not tonight. Terrence anger, jealousy and confusion is consuming him that he can no longer lie to himself anymore so he grab Chester from both of his shoulders and pulled him away from him.

"Chester tell me who Raven is." Terrence demanded he no longer asked calmly.

Chester went silent.

'You have been calling him in your sleep."

"I don't know who he is...."

"That's bullshit! You can't utter someone else's name who you don't know! Out of nowhere you begun calling his name. So who is he?!" Terrence shout made Chester flinched in fear. It has been a while since Terrence shouted at him. His caring and loving husband shouted at him made Chester fear grew bigger. He fears that the man would toss him away once he knew.

"I don't know." Chester answered. From his side he can hear a loud sigh followed by a loud laughter.

(Hey T what's up?) said the man on the other line.

"I have a job for you...._

(Woah take it easy man! Why does you guys keep on making me do jobs about your personal affairs?)

"Jules I'm not a very patient person." Terrence said with a hint of a warning to his voice.

(Terrence I'm also busy with my own matters of the heart thing!) Jules went silent after that sudden burst.

"Don't tell me you have fallen for that man?" Terrence asked.

(No of course not!) Jules immidiately denies. (I don't know.... recently I took a time off and distance myself to him. He rarely smiles and he's always angry and frawning but the first time I saw him smile my heart race. Just two weeks ago I beat someone to death because I saw him hitting on him.... I don't know...)

"If you need a time to think then help me first and when this is done then I'll help you with your problem. Don't think about it too much just give yourself some space maybe you're just infatuated with him because he's different than all those people who throws themselves at you." Terrence suggested.

(Ok then so what is it that you wanted me to do?) Jules asked.

"I want you to find out about this man named Raven." Terrence gave all other details to Jules.

Morning came and when Terrence woke up he found Chester sleeping while sitting on the floor. His head is using the back of his hand as his pillow as he hugs it to his sleep. Terrence carefully sit on the couch. He bend down a little and took his hand out from Chester. He gently lifted him up and carry him back to their bedroom where he lie him on their bed. His heart is breaking at the thought that what happened last night might have hurt Chester. So he set all his problem and anger aside. "I'm sorry that I might have been too harsh on you." Terrence whispered before placing a kiss to Chester's cheek.

A week pass and everything seems to go back to normal. Terrence brush all his suspicion aside and tried to understand Chester. He even apologize about what happened. He never asked about who Raven is and just thought that Chester might be telling the truth that he really doesn't know who the man is. Terrence tried to convince himself to the point that he no longer remembers about the favor he asked of Jules. Another week pass and things seems to get better except for the fact that aside from the sex life it seems Chester has been avoiding any intimate contact with him to the point that the only intimacy that the two are both sharing is a peck on the lips at least 2 times a day. No more deep kisses and no more cuddling. Chester doesn't even want to bath with him but even with all those things Terrence tried to be patient but what Terrence will about to find out broke all his patience with Chester.

Chester and the kids went out that weekend. He didn't go with them as Chester insisted that he needs to rest. He knows that him coming with them will only make Chester uncomfortable so Terrence agreed to stay at home. With nothing else to do he decided to clean the whole house but was surprised to find in Chester's closet hiding in the remote and dark part of his things are contraceptive pills. Terrence read the instructions and found out that Chester has been taking them on track. Terrence hands were shacking he thought that the two of them already agreed. He thought that Chester finally trust him. Terrence took a couple of deep breaths before he put everything back to where they were before. He sit down on their bed with gaze far from the reality. "No you promise that you will wait for him. You promise that you will be patient with him." Terrence mumble to himself and then a tear fell from his eyes and for the longest time he let his heart shed tears from the pain that it has been feeling with the weight of wanting for the person that he loves to love him back.

"But he no longer wanted me to touch him and know he doesn't even want to have my baby." Terrence was still wallowing over his sorrow when his phone rings.

(Are you at home right now?) Jules asked. (If you are can we meet at the cafe just outside of the village? You don't want Chester to hear.)

"It's ok Chester and the kids are not here they will probably be back at night." Terrence said.

It didn't take long for Jules to come to Terrence house.

"What is it?" Terrence asked.

"You asked me about the man named Raven. Raven that man is the son of that man named Julio Zargo. I know you are familiar with the man's name."

"It was the owner of that...."

"Yes the place where Chester used to work with as a prostitute to pay off his debt. As per my source and data which I have gathered. Raven used to be Chester's lover, Chester even got pregnant with his baby but unfortunately he loss his baby. Raven fly overseas and came back five years ago." Terrence hands are both trembling after hearing everything.

"Did they meet five years ago?" Terrence finally asked.

"See this footage. I was able to retrieve this footage from the CCTV five years ago see for yourself." The longer Terrence watch the video the more his face changes.

"Aarrrrrhhhhh..." Terrence throw the phone on the floor.

"Damn it T if you are angry then don't take it out on my phone!" Jules took his phone on the floor.

"Jules send me the copy of that video."

"What are you planning?" Jules asked.

"I'm going to ask him myself."

"Terrence I think it is bad idea to talk to him when you are this livid. You might end up killing him."

"Why would I kill the man that I love?" Terrence asked.

"I think I should stay here."

"Go Jules, this is between me and him. I won't kill him my sons needs me."

"Terrence you know if you do something to him I will arrest you myself." Jules threatened before he left Terrence house.

Terrence waited till Chester came home. He called Chester and asked for him to leave the kids at his parents house. He told Chester that he prepared a surprise for him. Chester was convincing Terrence at first not to leave the kids alone at his in-laws but in the end Terrence insisted.

When Chester came home the whole house is envelope with darkness. He opened the lights and found no one inside. He tried looking for Terrence but he found him no where then he went to their room and there he found him sitting at the edge of their bed.

"Terry?" Chester called.

"You're home kitten. Have you and the kids have fun without me?" Terrence monotonically asked.

"Yeah it was fun, we had fun." Chester answered nervously. Then he saw the smirk on Terrence lips.

"If you and the kids had fun how about making this lonely husband of yours happy too?" Terrence got up and walk towards Chester.

"Terry I'm kind of tired can we do this next time....aaahhhh" Terrence pulled him and throw him on their bed then he hover on top of him.

"You have been avoiding me. I don't trust your next time Kitten." Terrence start kissing Chester harshly that he can already taste a salty taste of iron to his mouth. He ripped Chester's top.

"Stop please stop..... Terrence please don't..." Chester beg but Terrence doesn't want to listen. The image of the man coming out of that room holding the bare body of Chester on the video is making his blood boils. Even when he was pregnant with their child at that time Chester sleep with the man who he calls in his sleep.

His anger is making him deft from all of Chester's begging. He turned Chester around and harshly pulled down his pants with his underwear. He inserted one of his fingers which made Chester beg him more to stop but when he inserted his third fingers in Chester stopped moving which also made Terrence stop with what he was doing.

"Go on this is what you wanted. I will stop fighting." Chester finally broke the silent between them.

Terrence laughed. He got up took his phone and throw it at him. Chester sit down and watch the video. His tears slid down from his beautiful face and his face pale from the horror.

"That man he is that Raven guy. Base from your expression it seems to me that you know who he is." Terrence was the one who spoke first.

"I--- it's not what you think it is.... I can explain. I just went to him to talk." Chester immidiately reached out to Terrence hands but Terrence pulled his hand away from Chester's reach.

"It doesn't show what you two did inside that room but it is clear as a day that you slept with him!" Terrence shouted that only made Chester cry. Chester can't deny it cause it's the truth.

"I asked you many times but you didn't answer me. You lied to me Chester. I thought you said that we will be truthful with each other. I thought you said you will tell me everything but why? You remember him and that moment you remember him you change. You won't let me touch you, you won't let me kiss you and most of all you lied about this!" Terrence throw all his contraceptives.

"Terrence, please believe me I love you..... you don't understand...."

"Then make me understand! Cause the only thing I can understand now is that I'm not the man that you love and the only reason that you are putting up with me is because that man is not here!" Terrence took his jacket and went out of there room, out from there house, far away from him.

Chester was left devastated that night.

"Aaaaarrrgghhhh" A loud roar echoed at the dark part of the park.

"Hey take it easy Terrence." Lance tried to calm his friend down.

"You know nothing Lance, nothing!" Terrence pulled Lance to his shirt. Luckily Lee was able to pull Terrence away from Lance and Adrian supported Lance.

"I may not know what you feel right now but I know if that happens to me I will try to understand him as well. You have lived like a dead man for five years because he's not by your side and now that he's here you are acting like a child throwing a tantrums." Lance said.

Terrence sit on the grass lifelessly and smiled bitterly. "He said it wasn't his intention and yet he volunteerely went to that man."

"I don't know what to say. Did Chester really said that?" Lee asked.

Terrence nodded. "He was having a nightmares again after not having them for a long time. He keeps on mumbling about a man who's name is Raven for nights now. I kept on asking him if there's something that I need to know and yet he keeps on saying no. I had enough and went on to make my own investigation. It turns out this Raven guy is the son of Chester's old boss but unlike his father Raven is clean. He run this high end restaurant bar for VIP's and the day before Chester disappear he went to see him." Terrence chug down to his through the whole can of beer.

"Hey hey take it easy." Adrian pulled the beer away from Terrence. "Here take this away from him." Adrian handed the beer to Lee.

"He told me that he went just to talk to him. Does he take me for a stupid person?" Terrence shouted. "He remembers and yet he didn't tell me hahahaha.... Maybe he can't leave me yet because that bastard is not here. His father's business got involved with a big child trafficking case years back and that bastard is currently away with his father. He's putting up with me cause he still can't be with that man. Maybe it is also the reason why he's secretly taking birth control pills. He thinks that I won't be able to find out? He doesn't want to get pregnant again with my baby. He wanted that bastard to father his child and not mine..... agghh" Lee slap Terrence.

"Get a hold of yourself Terrence! Did you even let him explain? I bet you didn't! Damn why you and Lance are so alike aaarrrrggggghhh."

"Hey why did my name got involved here? Aiden and I are now ok and for your information we are very much lovey dovey these days we'll except for sex his family is so strict." Lance sigh.

"Don't even start with me Lance! You both love to jump to conclusions and assumptions without hearing fully your partners explanation. That's why your relationship always ends up with so much dramas because you two like to make things complicated. Adrian don't take after these two they are the exact epitome of the word complicately stupid!" Lee shouted.

"Listen Terrence you are smart I know you know deep inside that is not what the truth is. Your emotions is only making up fake truths just to justify the hurt that you feel right now. You want to feel sympathetic to your self that has been hurt but I bet the one that is more hurt right now is not you but Chester cause his stupid husband just shouted at him and storm out without letting him explain his side." Terrence shut his mouth and stared at his bare feet resting on the ground.

"I'm so hurt right now." Terrence burry his face on his knees. "I don't even want to hear his excuse cause I know he will only be lying to me again and that's what hurts the most.

"Terrence buddy. Listen nothing will be resolved if you won't talk to him. If you won't let him explain. If you think that he's lying to you again and that he really wanted to be with that man then I guess it's time for you to let him go. It's hard I know but you need to do yourself a favor so that you can finally move on if this love is really not meant for you." Terrence raise his face and look at Lee. He smiled at his friend.

"What do you know Lee? Your life is perfect out of all of us you're the only one who didn't get a shitty love life. You manage to get Dexter, Dexter didn't leave you for his family he actually did the opposite, He always always understands and put up with you and now you two are finally about to have a baby in just a few months despite the two of you being an alpha. You are living a perfect life unlike us."

"Do you think things between me and Dexter went easy? It wasn't easy to live every single day fearing that some Omega or Alpha woman might steal him from me. It's not easy comforting him that it's ok when we both don't have a baby cause I know how much he wanted to give me a whole family of our own. It's not easy to watch your lover crying from a far whenever we both fail. I know it all, I saw it all and I felt all his pain. Do you know why we don't face same shitty things as you guys do? That's because we always talk things out even in the heat of the arguments. Dexy will just have to pull this card out saying let me say my mind first!" Lee explained.

"Wait what card?" Lance asked.

"Ow Dexy came up with this card thing ideas. It has different kind of things written on it. Like shut up let me explain first. Then he will shut up and let me say my mind first then he will tell what's on his mind after. We also have truce card. Ow I also got gift cards on my birthday where I'm allowed to win an argument." Lee happily showed them a little hard card that he pulled out from his wallet with a neat hand writing that states. "Ok you win, you are right and I'm sorry."

"I'm saving this bad ass baby for the right moment." Lee happily said.

"What the..... Efff" Adrian said.

"Dexter is really something else." Lance commented.

"I sometimes wonder who among the two of you is the crazy one." Terrence added.

"I think it's Dexter he was able to ride on Lee's crazy sides like it's nothing." Adrian answered.

"Yeah 6 years in a relationship and Dexter was able to tame, trained and control him. I really do salute Dexter." Lance agreed.

"Wait this is not about me it's about Terrence why are you criticizing my relationship with My Dexy?" The boys laugh hard after teasing Lee and that made Terrence feel better.

Later that night he decided to go home and talk things more calmly with Chester but the scene he saw is not what he was expecting to see. Chester was lying lifeless on the floor with all his medication that his psychiatrist has prescribed. Terrence didn't waste anymore minute and drive Chester to the hospital.

Terrence waited for hours and hours till the doctor finally came out.

"How is he?" Terrence asked.

"He was really weak when you brought him in. We lost him once and luckily were able to bring him back. If you have been late for more minutes we would have lost him. We pump his stomach. It seems he accidentally overdose himself."

Terrence felt guilty on what happened. If his friends hadn't convinced him to go home Chester would have died that night. "Can I see him?" Terrence asked.

"He's in the ICU you might want to were a PPE he's in a very critical state right now so the time you will see him might be limited too." Terrence nodded and proceed to where he could change. When he got inside he saw all the tubes connected to Chester's mouth to help him breath. His face is paler than before. Terrence hold Chester's hand.

Later that day he told what happened to his parents and he got a good punch from his father. They didn't tell the kids what happened instead they let the kids stay with their uncle and cousins.

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Chester woke up and saw the unfamiliar ceiling. He tried to speak but the tube is preventing him from doing so. He looked around, panic starts to build in but the moment he saw Terrence sleeping beside his bed he immidiately calmed down. He tried reaching for Terrence face to touch it. He caress it lightly afraid that it might wake up the Alpha and afraid that he might leave him again, but no matter how careful he is that didn't prevent Terrence from waking up and when he does his initial reaction was to run outside his room.

Tears immidiately build up from his eyes. His heart is crashing to the point that he just doesn't want to wake up only to feel such terrible pain of heart break but minutes later Terrence came back with both nurses and doctors with him.

The doctors made a full body check up and also pulled out the tube out from his mouth. When the two are finally alone Chester didn't waste any time apologize to Terrence. He tried to got up to beg Terrence not to leave him but Terrence prevent and stopped him from doing so.

"I'm sorry, I'm the one who's in the wrong." Chester continued to apologize with all the tears flowing down from his face.

Terrence could not take it any longer and hugged Chester. "No I was the one who's in the wrong. I should have listened to your explanation first." Terrence said admitting his short comings. After Chester had calmed down Terrence was surprised with Chester's question.

"Do you want to know what happened? While I was sleeping I remember everything." Chester said. Terrence stayed silent battling whether he still wants to know or not but Chester no longer wait for his answer and went on to tell him what happened 5 years ago.

"Raven was my ex. Five years ago he... he came back... He found me through Nadia. Nadia was running away from them at that time and it so happen that we both have connections with her." Chester pulled out from the hug. "While I was out shopping a man came. He told me the whole situation, about Nadia's involvement and what he'll do to her if I don't agree meeting him. He said that after Nadia he will come after you." Chester played his fingers he refuse to look Terrence in the eye.

"I told Nadia about this. She just recently knows about it that time but refused to get me involve so she kept it to herself. My conscience couldn't handle it and the fact that I also worry about you made me decide to accept his invitation. I told Nadia about it. The plan was just to help me sneak away from Damian and all the guards. I wasn't planning to be away for long but things didn't go the way how I planned it."

"what happened?" Terrence asked.

"I thought he would stopped bothering me once he sees that I'm pregnant and marked by you but I was wrong. He threatened to kill you and our sons even the one I'm carrying that time. He said that he only wanted to play with my body for a couple of days and after that he will finally set me free with the guarantee that he won't touch you and our kids. With my eyes closed I let him have his ways. It was painful accepting other man that is not you but what is more painful is the fact that I betrayed you. I feel disgusted but what's even more disgusting is when after he's done with me he let his underlings have me." Chester burst in to tears.

"When they were done I thought he will finally let me go but he said that he changed his mind. He asked me to write a letter to you. I refuse at first but he showed me a video where an assassin is point a gun at your direction. I was so afraid of losing you that I did as what I was told."

"He said that he will have me transfered to his other house. They blind folded me and then the accident happened."

Terrence hug Chester stopping him from telling further about what happened.

"It's enough." He said.

"I'm dirty Terrence. I'm no longer have the rights to be your wife. The reason why I avoided you is because I remember some parts of my past and that made me disgust myself but after remembering everything I feel even more disgusted with myself. I can no longer bring myself to see you eye to eye."

"Sssshhhhhh.... don't say anything anymore." Terrence hug him tightly.

"You need to divorce me." Chester pulled away from Terrence hug.

"Did I say that I want to divorce you?" Terrence asked.

"But can't you see I'm dirty! Those men they played with my body! They ravage it, and went on leaving their marks inside my body. I'm dirty Terrence. I'm not the proper man for you." Terrence slap Chester, it was the first time that Terrence had ever slapped him.

"Look at me do I feel disgusted? For months that we have been together after being separated for years have I ever felt even an ounze of disgust towards you? Those men I will kill them but you the only thing I want you to do is to stay with me and the kids." Terrence wiped the tears on Chester's face.

"Can I really stay?" Chester asked.

"You are my wife of course you can stay." Chester hugged Terrence and cried there for a while.

When he calmed down the two talked about what happened in past. Terrence made Chester promise not to keep things from him and Chester made Terrence promise not to look for the man since he's afraid that it might hurt Terrence or might cause him his life after all Raven and his father are both dangerous people. It's enough for him that the man knows that he already died five years ago. Terrence promise but also promise at the back of his mind that if that man ever shows up or bothered Chester again that he will bring him down. He doesn't care even if the man is a very dangerous person....

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"Man I'm going crazy here! I thought you said that you will help?" Jules complained.

"Yes I did but as you can see my wife is still here. What kind of help is it that you wanted?" Terrence asked.

"Tsk just because you're ok now you are setting me again on the side." Jules Mumbles.

"Ok, Ok what kind of help is it that you wanted?" Terrence asked.

"I don't even know what kind of help or should I be asking am I doing the right decision consulting with you? Cause right now psychiatrist is the best person. I'm going crazy by the minute! See this?" Terrence look at the bandage on his cousin's arm.

"Yeah where did you even got that from? And why do you have so many injuries?" Terrence finally see all other bandages and plasters on Jules face and other parts of his body.

"I told you that I will stay away from him right?" Jules asked.

"Yes you did. So how was it?" Terrence asked.

"It was hell! After two weeks of not seeing him because of the job you asked me. My mind suddenly hot wired and do all sort of crazy ideas of following him and watching over him from a distance! A dog even bite me!" Terrence was really trying hard not to laugh. It has been only 5 days since the last time he saw his cousin and if his memories serves him right Jules was still fine back then but judging from how he look right now there is one answer to that.

"Do you know how you can be better?" Terrence asked. Jules suddenly became silent for minutes before asking.

"How?"

"Confess to him, Court him and make him yours...."

"Fuck man don't say shitty things as that! Why do you think I took a time off from him huh? Is because I don't believe in such things! It's making me cringe Terrence!"

Terrence can't help but to laugh it is clear as a day that Jules is still in denial stage.

"For man who grew up in a warm and loving family you sure take the concept of love coldly." Jules glared at Terrence statement.

"Say the man who was a man whore before he met Chester and the man who became a man whore again when Chester left and a man who was about to become a man whore again if it wasn't for his friends knocking some sense from that dull, pessimistic and stupid mind of my oh so genius cousin.... Aaawwww why do you have to throw me that? Do you plan on adding more injuries on me now?" Jules said sarcastically.