I'm Cen Luofeng.
He is the son of Cen Huai An, the only scholar in Xiahe village.
My mother, Liu, is the hair wife of a scholar's father, but as a scholar's wife, she has a bad life.
Because my father also married a ping wife, who was the niece of a nai's family.
Although Jin's family came in after my mother, she had three sons. I remember that my eldest brother, cen Changqing, was 15 years older than me.
And I'm only a few years older than my eldest nephew, cen Tianyou.
Jin is arrogant and domineering by nature. He often bullies my mother on the basis of her relationship with her aunt and nephew. Although my father is the only scholar in the village, and my family is not short of money, my mother and I are often short of food and clothing under the pressure of Jin.
At the beginning, my scholar father, who didn't care about the world, would care about it. But at this time, Kim would come to ah Nai with a splash and a howl.
Next, no matter what the cause of the matter is, in short, the result is my mother's fault and I, my father is afraid of the punishment of ah Nai, so he dare not say anything more;
Over time, my father did not dare to talk about me and my mother.
It's hard to be bullied.
I tried to resist;
I also tried to theorize;
Why is the son of the cen family? The eldest brother, the second brother, and even the third brother can live a good life of wearing new clothes and eating eggs. But I am always not warm enough to wear and eat.
At this time, my mother always gives me her food;
She made me endure and give way;
I don't understand.
Finally, after we were bullied by the Jin family again, I couldn't bear it. I personally asked my mother: why am I also a descendant of the cen family, but you have to force me not to fight? Why do you want to let Er Niang bully me when you are a wife? Why don't you resist?
I only remember, at that time, my mother hugged me and looked at the main room of the old man's memorial tablet of Cen family in silence. The color of her eyes was very complicated, very complicated.
For a long time, she just said: This is my own retribution, because my mother is sorry for all the ancestors of the cen family.
My mother also said: child, my mother is sorry for you.
At that time, I really didn't understand why my mother said that, and I couldn't see through the complexity in my mother's eyes at that time.
until.
Another six years have passed.
On that day, when I was 12 years old, I found a secret, and I finally knew the reason why my mother had endured for many years.
On that day, the weather was fine.
My mother had a cough, but Kim refused to pay for my mother's medicine. I had no choice but to take a firewood knife to chop some firewood on the mountain and prepare to send it to a tavern in town to exchange some money for my mother's medicine.
I was carrying firewood. When I passed the ditch at the foot of the mountain, I heard a woman's cough, which was very similar to my mother's voice.
I wanted to make sure it was my mother, so I stopped.
Then, I saw my mother burning some paper money for the dead by the river. Later, my mother found me, and then, under my questioning, my mother told me another shocking fact - I'm not a child of the cen family!
She picked me up;
It's in the cave of child ridge on the mountain!
My mother told me that it was a secret that she had tried to hide for more than ten years.
No matter in the village or in the cen family, no one knows.
And she, all these years, has been quietly enduring the oppression of Kim, not let me fight, it is precisely for this reason.
Because I'm not from the cen family.
I'm not qualified to fight with the elder brother and the second brother. It's because she confused the blood of the cen family, so her heart has been very guilty, very guilty!
She always felt sorry for the ancestors of the cen family and my father, so these years, she has been forbearing and silently regarded everything given by the Jin family as the punishment of God and the ancestors of the cen family.
This news makes my heart very complicated.
I once lamented the injustice of my father and my mother, but I never thought that I was not a child of the cen family.
That day, my mother and I, in the original abandoned sister of the river, sat for a long time, for a long time.
Niang said: son, it's Niang who's sorry for you. It's Niang who made your life so miserable. Now, you've grown up and you have the right to know a lot of things, so Niang tells you this.
Niang said: son, Niang has now figured out that the cen family has Jin's family and her mother-in-law. You will never have a future. Go and find your parents.
Niang also said: your parents are from Shengjing. They should be very rich. If you go back to them, you will have a chance to read and read. In the future, you will be admitted to a senior official and have a promising future.
Slowly, my heart those, to my father's resentment, to Cen family's resentment, seems to dissipate; And I seem to be able to understand my mother's mood and her indisputability.
I wanted to go.
Because now the cen family, to me, really has no future to speak of;
However, when I saw Liu's eyes in the reluctant and distressed, my heart, suddenly soft.
I couldn't help but ask myself: it was Liu who gave me a second life. If I left at this time, how would she survive?
So, I told her.
I said: "mother, I won't go. I can return the kindness of giving birth, but it's hard to break the head of raising. Although you didn't give birth to me, the kindness of raising is greater than heaven. If you raise me, you are my mother. Even if I want to leave, I will return your kindness of raising before I leave."
My mother cried;
I was tearing my heart out.
But I know her heart is happy.
Since then, I have worked harder to earn money by cutting firewood and cure my mother. Since then, I have no illusions about the cen family. What I have to do is to repay my mother's kindness.
Later, the eldest brother, the second brother and the third brother got married one after another.
I'm getting older.
The older you are, the more capable you will be and the more money you will earn. In addition to giving your share to my family, you can also have some spare money to give to my mother.
My mother, on weekdays, is reluctant to spend more than a penny. She saves everything.
She said, save money and get me a wife.
In fact, it doesn't matter to me whether I marry or not.
But my mother thinks that I should marry a woman.
Mother said, a family, in addition to a man, also have a virtuous housekeeper woman, two sensible children, this is like a home.
When she saw that I really refused to leave the cen family and wanted to support her, she took advantage of the time to go back to her mother's home and began to help me with the wedding.
The girl in my mother's mind is Zhang Meihua from Zhangjia village, a neighboring town.
It is said that Zhang Jia village is one of the best looking villages in the world. She is more beautiful than the elder sister-in-law and the second sister-in-law of the cen family. I saw her once before I got married.
I don't know whether she is virtuous or not;
But, good-looking, it's true.
She seems to have taken a fancy to my appearance. After finding Huang Sangu to get married, she took the money she had saved for her daily life and went to hire her. She married Zhang Meihua to the cen family.
Until, I and Zhang Meihua worship hall, my mother just wipe tears, full of joy.
Later, I learned from the village's stone craftsman's aunt that my mother had always felt that I was inferior to the sons born by Jin family in both life and knowledge cultivation during my years in the cen family. For this reason, my mother felt very guilty;
But, Zhang Meihua's appearance, also let me win a chip finally;
My mother is very happy.
After getting married, I began to be very happy;
However, with in-depth understanding, I found that my wife was not as virtuous and capable as the matchmaker said, but she was also filial.
That's enough.
As long as she can treat my mother sincerely, it's very good. As for the things she likes beautiful clothes, beautiful Rouge powder and dressing, I'll try my best to earn money and buy them for her.
After getting married, we moved to the backyard;
Although there is an occasional Kim to find fault with, but she always depends on the money I hand in. She does not dare to go too far, so our life is not harmonious, but it is just calm.
Shortly after marriage, his wife Zhang Meihua became pregnant.
The next year, she gave birth to a group of twins for me.
My mother is very happy, wiping tears way, she also finally hold grandson.
Looking at my mother and wife, as well as a pair of lovely children, I am more determined to work hard to earn money.
In those days, I went hunting in the mountains and fished in the water. As long as I could earn money, I was willing to do it.
I want to earn more money;
To mother, to plum blossom, to children's rich life.
However, the plan is far from changing fast. My child is just about full moon. A military service notice issued by the imperial court completely breaks this calm.
It turns out that our country has always had a bad relationship with Xiling. The imperial court also sent troops to fight against Xiling several times. The ninth Prince Yun Jin was ordered to lead his troops to xiheguan to supervise the war. The imperial court did not have enough soldiers, so it sent a notice to recruit a man for military service from a family with more than four adult men.
Originally, in the name of father's scholar, the cen family had the quota of exemption from military service;
However, there are many adult men in he Cen's family.
Even in the name of a scholar, the number of adult men in the cen family still exceeds the standard, so there must be a person in the cen family to perform military service.
Originally, military service should be performed by the eldest son, that is, elder brother Cen Changqing.
The night when the notice was sent, the cen family seemed to turn over the sky.
That night, there was a lot of noise coming from the always quiet main room. After a long time, I learned that after negotiation, the cen family was going to let me go to the military service instead of my elder brother.
Niang, who has endured for more than 20 years, suddenly broke out at this moment. She said that she would not allow me to serve in the army. She quarreled with Jin and a-nai in the main room. In the end, Niang couldn't resist the fierce Jin and a-nai, and finally she was so angry that she fainted.
My mother fainted;
The farce of Zhengfang is still on.
In addition to the two niangs who cry, make trouble and hang themselves three times, there is also the elder Jin. She supports Jin's practice and gives an ultimatum to her father, saying that if my mother insists on not letting me go to military service, she will let my father write a letter of divorce and divorce my mother!
Later, I went to the village head who gave the notice and learned about the military service from him. I also learned that the military service this time was not as terrible as I thought.
Because the whole soldier is Yun Jinli, the second prince under the empress's knee.
With the support of the empress, the second prince will never go to the front line to fight, so the scene of the golden age and iron horse will hardly appear.
Moreover, if I am lucky enough to be elected as the second prince, I will get a salary every month. That is to say, even if I am a soldier, I will not go to war. And the mother and plum blossom in the family will have silver to take.
Even if I'm not lucky, I don't have to die when I go to war. Even if I die in war, there will be a pension!
After inquiring about all the details, I went to the main room to talk with my father about the terms, and asked Kim to give me twenty Liang silver in exchange for my taking the place of my elder brother to serve in the army.
The time of military service is very short. Even if I want to save money immediately, I can't, so I can only focus on Jin. She has been in charge of the cen family's money all these years. If I want to serve instead of her son, she has to pay money.
Kim disagreed at first.
But at my insistence, she had to agree in the end.
After all, she knew better than anyone about the importance of her son or money.
I divided the twenty taels of silver I got from Kim's family into two parts, one for my mother to keep for a rainy day.
My mother said that she would not accept any money and cried that she would not allow me to serve in the army.
I had to persuade her: "Niang, I asked the village head. The conscription is the second prince. He is the son of the empress. It's not dangerous to follow him. Although the cen family treats me badly, it's kind of nurturing for me. This time I'll take the place of Cen Changqing to serve in the army, which will be a reward for the cen family's nurturing. Niang, wait for me in Xiahe village, When I go out and make a name for myself, I'll come back and take you to the city to enjoy your happiness. "
Finally, Niang compromised.
However, she insisted on refusing to accept the money. She said: "it's not easy for Mei Hua to take her children at home alone. You can take all the money to her. I'm the only one at home. I don't have to spend money on food and clothing."
I know my mother is right;
Finally, my mother's share of the money was also given to her wife Zhang Meihua. I told her to take good care of her children and mother at home. After I went out, I would find a way to bring back the letter. In addition, if I succeed in joining the second prince, my monthly salary would also be brought back.
So she doesn't have to worry about money.
Having settled everything at home, I started my military service.
At the beginning, I participated in the special training camp for soldiers in the county as a principal. After two months of training, I passed the examination and became a garrison soldier. At that time, I found that military service was not as easy as the village head said or as terrible as I thought.
My real turning point in life was the day when I passed the examination of garrison soldiers.
On that day, before the examination, the examiner informed us in advance that a distinguished guest would come to the scene of the examination today to supervise our examination.
It was on that day that Yun Jinli and I met.