Chapter 1718

Opening the notebook, a faint fragrance came from it. Ning Shiqian didn't expect Qin Ruolan to protect the diary so well. On the front page of the diary, there was a letter. The faint fragrance came from this letter. Looking at the paper and handwriting, it should have been put in before long.

Ning Shiqian opens it silently. Unexpectedly, it's a letter from Qin Ruolan.

My son:

mom doesn't know when you will see the envelope, but when you can see the letter, mom is no longer around.

I'm sorry that our mother and son should be able to talk in such a way. I'm also sorry that my mother never told you what you always wanted to know, but she really didn't know how to tell you those things. But if I don't tell you now, I'm afraid your generation won't know the secret. Let's tell you a story. It's a long story My husband came back with a four-year-old child more than 20 years ago.

On that day, my husband came back to me with a four-year-old child and said, "this is my old friend's son. They died unexpectedly. Leave this child behind, and the child will follow us."

I asked which old friend he was, because I should know all his old friends, but the husband kept quiet and refused to say anything more, only that he would treat the child as if he were himself, and the child would call us father and mother later.

I'm somewhat diaphragmatic. Such a child with an unknown origin will become my son, but I can't ask more. How could I have no idea.

At that time, my own child was only two years old. Suddenly, I had another four-year-old child, which I couldn't afford. However, my husband was obviously better than my own son for the child he brought back. Which doubt in my heart became more and more serious.

I have been pressing that question in the bottom of my heart, I dare not think or ask, because I am afraid that the result is something I can't bear.

But every time I see this child call my mother, my heart is always very uncomfortable, so I always forced to smile, the performance is very strange, hot can not get up.

There is a folk saying that the longer a child stays with someone, the more like he is. I don't know if this child has been with us for a long time, and even more like my husband as he grows older, more like my own son.

Others don't know. They always think that I have two sons. They are brothers. They say that I am blessed. But only I understand that the bitter taste of being corroded torments me day and night.

I have the answer in my heart, but I don't want to go deep. I don't want my family to fall apart. I don't want my husband to leave me. So I have been quietly enduring it. But the endurance of human heart is limited.

I can cheat everyone, but I can't cheat myself.

That guess and question has long been rooted in the bottom of my heart and can't be forgotten.

Finally, when my child was ten years old, I summoned up my courage and wanted to make an end for myself.

I took the child's and my husband's hair and went to the hospital for a DNA test.

In the two days of waiting, I also hesitated. If I don't know whether it's better to keep everything as it is, but I can't convince myself, so I went on time that day.

Because of the psychological preparation, I was not too surprised when I saw the result. The similarity of DNA is 99% and the biological parent-child relationship.

If it wasn't for this answer, I might have been more surprised.

Only that day, I sat out late alone. After that, I put away the report and went back peacefully.

When I returned home, I saw my son and the child I had a good time with. Their brothers had a good relationship. Because they were only two years away from each other, they almost came in and went out together. Moreover, the brothers were so similar that others thought they were twins.

I hear such praise almost every day, but others don't know. Every time I hear it, my heart will be delayed once.

I didn't tell anyone about the DNA test. In the following days, I lived a peaceful life as usual, but in my heart, I had alienated my husband, and even resisted. Unconsciously, our conflicts increased. Many times, I would fight for a little trifle, especially when I saw that child Son, the heart is suffering.

I know that the child is innocent, but how can I be calm when the child appears in front of me every day? I even need to look at him as if I were out. So I can't help but vent my resentment towards my husband on the child. The child is more and more afraid of me, dare not approach me, and then walk away when he sees me from afar. I think it's very good. I'm not bothered when I don't see him By the way, I can also control my temper a little.

But my son didn't understand and didn't understand. When he questioned me again and again, I had nothing to say to him. I could only scold him severely. So my son also alienated me more and more. I seemed to be trapped in a situation and bound myself. Until one day, I was the only one left in the lonely world. I disguised myself with indifference and stopped myself severely Frail, my son and I are also moving away, the relationship between husband and wife is needless to say, falling into the freezing point.In fact, what my son didn't know was that our husband and wife had been separated for many years, and only had to go through one procedure. We had already seemed to be separated from each other, and only maintained superficial skills.

Until that day, my husband gave me the divorce agreement.

He said that such a husband and wife relationship exists in name but in reality, and the children are old. We don't have to be so tired, let go of each other.

How grandiose it is to say that if I let go of each other, I only want to laugh and cry. After more than ten years of husband and wife's feelings, will this result in the end? I don't want to, I don't want to, I began to look at the past few years, thinking about whether the result would be different if I didn't do the DNA test.

But no one can give me the answer, even I don't know, if it is not such a result, what kind of result it will be.

We are all middle-aged. Now we are divorced. What else can we do? I began to introspect, convince myself, talk with him, can we start again. But he was determined to divorce.

I was very sad, but later I knew that it was the woman who came back and the woman who had been away for more than ten years appeared again, so he wanted to divorce me.

It's ridiculous that I raised him and the woman's son. When the woman came back, they thought about family reunion. What am I? What is my son in his heart.