19 Talk with Elder Brother

After breakfast, I asked my brother to come at bedroom before dinner.

"What is it? Are you also going to scold me?"

"No Niisama. First sit down. I want you first listen to me"

"Well"

"Because you are close to the Crown Prince, I was never to close to you because I always thought you would treat me at a similar fashion. Nonetheless you were always someone that I deeply admired."

"How could that be I-"

Brother looked really flustered about what I just told him, but I always thought it was obvious why I avoided him.

"Calm down let me finish"

"After you met Miss Julia and all your group started to play Harem in school I was really ashamed, angry and disappointed with you and Albert"

"We are not like this, is just that-"

"First listen, you can argue later"

*sigh* I remember the first time I heard about their behavior I could not believe. Although I knew how it happened in the game, but this is real life, they have to consider so many things about their status and family that I never thought that they would actually ignore everything they fought all their lives for just to chase someone they knew for less than a year.

"I was ashamed of your public conduct. You both looked like those disgusting noble playboys who always try to do something with someone in a lower class than them. I was angry because you both never consider my feelings, you as my brother did nothing after finding their relationship and did nothing to stop them"

"I warned them!"

"SO WHAT? You warned and then? They did not stop and you did not even stop to see them. Instead the times you spent with me were less and less. Every time I saw you at the Academy you were either with her or with both of them, do you know how I felt? I *sob* was always been looked with weird stares because of you guys. And you even defend her instead of me **sob* how could you?"

As I remembered how my own brother would ignore me to spend time with some random chick all the anger that I felt and always hold back escaped. I can't control my tears of anger anymore. At least I still can stop myself for hitting brother.

"Ceci.."

"Don't touch me! And do you know why I was disappointed? My handsome and brilliant Oniisama, who always has the best results, was smart, the one who always had the right answer, started to commit many mistakes. Now my brother instead of being known as smart and handsome was known to be one of the chasers of the prince lover! FOR FUC*ING GOD'S SAKE SHE IS THE PRINCE LOVER!Your friend and your Lord. Besides you are so skew from the things you always fought for and believed that Dad is really considering to revoke your heir title. You still have it because Mom and I plead for you!"

"I-i "

"SHUT UP! I'm not done yet. Furthermore you only know this woman for a year. A YEAR dear brother, are you going to throw all your hard work until now because of a woman that you know for a year!"

*gasp* *gasp*

I need to calm down. Lets take deep breaths.

"*sigh* actually brother I care not if you throw away you hard work until now, but the premise is that it is for a future that you want. If you don't want to be the Prime Minister or be a Duke I will support you, I will always be there for you brother. I just want to make sure that this is really what you want"

Looking at my brother, I finally can say all the things that were hidden deep inside my heart. I feel liberated.

"I suggest you go see Uncle Brennan. I think you need time to think about what you really want. Whatever you choose I will help you in what I can. Hell, even if you want to rob Alberts Princess I will help you with it"

Closing my eyes so that the tears could stop. The only thing that I know is that I'm emotionally drained right now. I don't even want to see the look on Brother's face.

"That's it. You can go now"

I heard him getting up. Not even trying to argue hm? Stupid niisama. If I could I would punch you.

Then I felt something hugging me.

"Hey Ceci, I'm sorry I was wrong. I was wrong for playing with the prince instead of you, I was wrong for not punching that bastard until he cry, I was wrong for ignoring you and was wrong for being such a jerk of a brother"

"Yes you were stupid niisama"

"Hey Ceci, can you forgive me? I promise to make up to you. You were always the one I was the most concern about. If you don't forgive me I'll understand"

Sorry I can't take anymore. I started to crying like a little kid. I cannot even talk. I should have talk to brother sooner.

"Shh. Don't cry Ceci."

Brother hugged me tightly and brushed my hair while I soaked his shirt.

As I slowly slept in brothers arm after crying to much, I remember listening 'thank you' before I slowly descend to darkness.

...

The next day, when I woken up starving I heard that Brother left to the border.

'Stupid niisama, not even said Good bye'