Chapter 1067

99th dragon scale (I)

Really back.

Fu Dang raised his hands slowly. He had not owned a human body for a long time. He was about to forget this feeling.

In front of him is a familiar but very strange place in his memory. It is a place he often dreamed of when he was still alive. At that time, he was still young, in his early twenties, started from scratch, and just started. The poor boy came out of a mountain village. Bit by bit, he worked hard to become the richest man in the country and created an amazing business empire. It can be said that twenty years later, The daily life of Chinese people is closely related to his group.

However, what Fu Dang most wanted to return to was when he was 24 years old. This year happened to be 1990. He passed the most difficult period of entrepreneurship. His career gradually improved and began to stand firm. While being able to give his family a good life, his wife Jiang Yingxiu was pregnant.

In 1990, Fu Dang was too busy. He was too busy to touch his feet on the ground, let alone take care of his pregnant wife, so he invited his mother. With his sister Fu Xia, he felt that he had no worries at home, so he worked harder and harder to seize the east wind in this era of opportunities.

Facts proved that he succeeded, and his wife gave birth to a daughter for him.

Fu Dang is a workaholic. He always wants to work harder and succeed in order to be worthy of his wife who is a native of the capital and loved by his parents. However, he forgot that his wife doesn't need much money, and it was too late for him to understand this truth.

When Fu Dang was 26, Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide.

At that time, after a brief period of grief and despair, Fu Dang quickly devoted himself to work, which paralyzed his pain. As long as he kept working, he would not think of his wife and would not have that kind of heart piercing sadness. That's how he told himself that he could live the rest of his life without her for decades.

But such sadness, after his success, can no longer be ignored.

He was a cowardly man. After his wife committed suicide, he didn't have the courage to look directly at her relics. He didn't dare to open those dusty boxes until middle age. He knew how lonely, lonely and painful she was in those years when he worked hard.

In the 1990s, there was no saying of postpartum depression. From outsiders, even from Jiang Yingxiu's biological parents, they thought she was groaning without illness - you said you had a good life and what did you do day by day? Although men are busy, they are busy with their career. You don't have to do anything. Just take your daughter at home. You don't need everything. You use everything best. You're not satisfied. What emotions can't you mediate?

Yes, it hurts to have children, but which woman didn't come over like this? Since she became a mother, she had to take her own responsibility, but Jiang Yingxiu stayed alone every day. She was always sick and couldn't raise her mood for anything. If it was decades later, Fu Dang would certainly understand that she was suffering from postpartum depression, but he didn't understand anything in the 1990s. He just wanted to make a career and forgot his original intention.

Everyone is blaming Jiang Yingxiu. They don't understand why she has such a good man, such a good mother-in-law and such good parents. Fu Dang loves her so much. Not long after she was pregnant, she not only took her mother to take care of her, but also asked her sister to talk with her, and even hired a nanny. Where can I find such a good son-in-law!

Even Jiang Yingxiu's biological parents were embarrassed. They felt that their daughter was too spoiled and secretly criticized education.

Everyone thinks that Jiang Yingxiu is too aggressive, and there are many women outside. Fu Dang is not only highly educated and capable. He is also handsome, has means and courage, and is worth millions at a young age. If Jiang Yingxiu doesn't want to be Mrs. Fu, many people want to replace him!

Everyone was blaming her, and everyone thought she was wrong.

Jiang Yingxiu was only 24 when she died.

It is a woman's best age, like flowers just in full bloom, but before they can be appreciated, they wither and die.

No one thought she would commit suicide. Really, because no one can think of why Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide. Where did she live badly? Fu Dang made money. The first thing she did was buy her jewelry, clothes, beautiful houses, cars and nannies. Why did she commit suicide? Did she forget that she was a mother and that she ignored her two-year-old daughter?

No one can understand Jiang Yingxiu's pain. In everyone's opinion, she just moans without illness.

Even Fu Dang didn't know why until he was middle-aged and finally had the courage to open the dusty box of Jiang Yingxiu's relics.

For Jiang Yingxiu, she doesn't need luxury houses, famous cars, flowers and jewelry. She just wants Fu Dang to accompany her. Don't be busy as soon as you call, and don't see her several times a week. No matter how good her mother-in-law is to her, she can't relax herself in front of her mother-in-law. When sleeping alone at night, she always wants to cry and want him to hug. He's never there.

He always said that he worked so hard for her to make them live a better life, but Jiang Yingxiu didn't want it!

She just wants him to accompany her more. She knows he's busy, but can't she even call her? Mingming was not like this when he was in college. At that time, he worked for living expenses and tuition fees. No matter how busy he was, he would come back to dinner with her. However, since he started his business, the family has become bigger, more luxurious and more deserted.

She didn't even tell anyone, because she married him just after graduation. When her former friends heard her say this, they were always speechless. They said that she had been soaking in the honey pot for a long time and that she didn't know her happiness. No matter how Jiang Yingxiu explained, everyone thought she was showing off.

I told my parents that what I got was criticism and reprimand. I thought she was still like a little girl when she was so old. She was still not sensible and considerate of her husband.

Slowly, Jiang Yingxiu said nothing.

When she realized that she was emotionally wrong and tried to talk to Fu Dang, he was always so busy that he finally got home and fell asleep. No matter how much she said, he didn't have time to listen.

This is not the most painful. The most painful thing is having children.

Her mother-in-law was kind to her, not because Jiang Yingxiu was Fu Dang's daughter-in-law, but because she was pregnant with a fat grandson. During pregnancy, her mother-in-law took care of Jiang Yingxiu and obeyed everything. When she gave birth, Jiang Yingxiu had some dystocia at the beginning. Doctors and students suggested caesarean section, but her mother-in-law firmly believed that caesarean section would make children stupid, so she asked for a natural birth, Jiang Yingxiu almost lost most of her life to give birth to the child!

And having a baby is not the end of a nightmare.

She felt that her life had been terrible and had been completely declared over at this time.

She had more lochia and a terrible stomachache, but Fu Dang, who was busy with her work, didn't come to the hospital until she had a baby.

She didn't have milk. Her mother and mother-in-law forced her to drink greasy soup. She vomited out, but she still had to drink. When the newborn was sucking, it really hurt. She couldn't help crying. A month later, she was not allowed to get out of bed, take a bath and wash her hair. Even if she changed clean clothes, she always exuded a milk smell.

After a month, Jiang Yingxiu found that she had ugly stretch marks on her stomach. In addition, there were loose fat circles, which looked disgusting.

When she looked at herself in the whole mirror, she could hardly recognize the haggard, fat and ugly in the mirror, as if the woman who was a teenager was the school flower who was famous in the University.

Because she was born a daughter, although her mother-in-law didn't say anything, she was still dissatisfied. After all, their family was in the countryside, and their ideas were somewhat conservative. It was better to be interested in their grandchildren than their grandchildren. Many times, Jiang Yingxiu had to take care of her daughter by herself.

She changed her baby's diaper while crying. The diaper she pulled down was dirty and smelly, especially disgusting, but her mother-in-law said it was your own daughter. How can a mother dislike her child?

The child is very difficult to take. She cries all night. She needs someone to hold her all the time. She sucks fiercely. Jiang Yingxiu has been bitten and bled many times.

She felt more and more that life was hopeless. She just stayed in the big house every day and looked at each other with her crying daughter. She became more and more dull and her brain began to work hard. She couldn't remember what to do one second and the next.

She also began to lose her hair crazily, forcing herself to eat food that is good for children, but she doesn't like to eat at all. What she saw from the clean and transparent glass reflection is an extremely bad herself.

Jiang Yingxiu couldn't control her emotions and often cried and shouted. The more she was like this, the more people bothered her and felt that she didn't know what she wanted. Fu Dang was too busy. When he came home, Jiang Yingxiu always had to clean up herself decently. She always said nothing to him. I'm fine. Don't worry - he actually believed it.

Why are you so happy when you are not married, but only torture and pain after marriage?

Jiang Yingxiu doesn't understand.

She doesn't know what's wrong with herself. She is a very quiet girl, but she has become like this. She feels that if she continues, she will really become a madman.

She was afraid of that day, so she was in a panic all day. When she found that there was lipstick print on Fu Dang's shirt, a long hair in her pocket, and a woman would answer when he called... After a series of things, the last light straw finally crushed her completely.

Jiang Yingxiu committed suicide by swallowing sleeping pills. She kept losing sleep after giving birth to her daughter, but she couldn't take medicine because she had to feed her daughter. Therefore, she often looked very haggard with two huge dark circles under her eyes. Only after her daughter was weaned at the age of one year did she receive sleeping pills from the doctor.

At first, the drugs were still effective. Later, they had no effect at all. Jiang Yingxiu stopped taking them and put them all away.

Then she swallowed it all at once. This time, she finally went to sleep as she wished. She would never wake up because of her daughter's cry, feel sad because of her self rejection, nor Miss Fu Dang.

No one can criticize her as a bad mother and a bad wife. She is a neuropathy who doesn't know how to enjoy happiness after too many good days.

After Jiang Yingxiu died, Fu Dang never remarried. Even if there were many women who loved him, he was not interested in them.

Slowly, people changed. As he became richer and more famous, his parents began to worry that leaving his big family property to his daughter would be tantamount to leaving it to outsiders. His sister felt that she could share a share of it if she had a son. His father-in-law and mother-in-law were afraid that he would suffer losses if he remarried and had children. Family affection gradually began to be beyond recognition. Fu Dang found that the most precious thing, I have already lost.

He is undoubtedly in love with Jiang Yingxiu, otherwise he won't try so hard to be a person and don't let others say that she married the wrong person. In fact, others did not say she married the wrong person, but began to talk about her bad. Was that what Fu Dang wanted at the beginning?

No?

He wants her to be happy, not to slowly turn the marriage into a grave and trap the people he loves.

Many years after Jiang Yingxiu died, Fu Dang lived quite quietly. He didn't seem to be in pain for this. He himself felt that he might have come out. Otherwise, when he thought of her, the familiar pain in his chest had disappeared?

Until he grew old, he realized that love did not disappear, but was covered up by his cowardice and escape.

He can no longer fall in love with people other than Jiang Yingxiu, just as he has to spend the rest of his life in regret.

"Fu Dang? Is that you Why are you sitting in the living room at night? "

Behind him came a woman's soft voice. Fu Dang slowly turned back and snapped. The light in the living room was turned on. The young woman with an obvious bulge in her sleeping skirt stood behind him. Because it was a night light, the light was dim, which more and more set off her good-looking. "Don't sit in the living room. It's not good to wake her mother and Xiaoxia in a moment. Go back to the room."

She thought for a while and then asked, "is it because I don't sleep well or because I talk in my sleep that you can't sleep? Why don't we sleep in separate rooms, in which case -- "

She stopped before she finished, because Fu Dang rushed over and hugged her very tightly.

Obviously, she was standing at the entrance of the living room, and he was sitting on the sofa, but when she spoke, he really rushed over. He propped his hands on the back of the sofa, turned over the sofa, and suddenly held her so tight that Jiang Yingxiu felt a little painful“ Fu Dang, take it easy... I hurt. "

Fu Dang relaxed a little, but he still held her tightly. Jiang Yingxiu forgot when he held her like this last time. Because he was too busy, she was pregnant again. Her mother-in-law said that she could not hold her during pregnancy and would collide with the child. Therefore, the two people who had spent less time together had no physical contact and were not held by him, She didn't know how much she missed her husband's arms.

Fu Dang still held her tightly and refused to let go. Jiang Yingxiu patted him on the back and he refused to let go. She was helpless: "what's the matter with you? Is there any trouble at work? Can you tell me? Although I don't understand, I'll listen carefully. "

Fu Dang's eyes are wet. At this time, her mood has been wrong, but she has never shown it in front of him. She always smiles at him. It is clear that she is very uncomfortable - does he deserve to be her husband?

"Fu Dang? XiuXiu? What are you doing at night? "

Fu's mother was woken up when she heard something outside. She got up in her clothes and saw that her son was holding her pregnant daughter-in-law. She hurried forward to pull them apart and scolded: "look at you. What are you doing at night? Let you two sleep in separate rooms long ago, so that you won't quarrel XiuXiu when you come back late. You can have a good sleep and have to go to work tomorrow! So is XiuXiu. Why are you so ignorant? "

Fu Dang hugged his daughter-in-law and avoided his mother's hand. He raised his eyes. In his memory, there was only his mother's lustful appearance when he finally distributed the family property. He said faintly: "did you wake up? Sorry. "

Jiang Yingxiu tried her best to poke Fu Dang with her finger, which means to let him go. It's not good to be seen by her mother-in-law. If Fu Dang goes to work tomorrow, she may be scolded again. She doesn't want to sleep with him!

Fu's mother looked at the time: "it's so late. What are you doing? XiuXiu is pregnant and can't stay up late. You -- "

Before he finished, Fu Dang interrupted, "OK, go back to sleep. You don't have to take care of my business."

Jiang Yingxiu opened her eyes quietly.

You should know that Fu Dang is a very filial son. The conditions in his family are not good. Fu's mother used to be an educated youth in the countryside. Later, she stayed in the village and married and gave birth to two children, Fu Dang and Fu Xia. Because she had read books, she attached great importance to her children's achievements. Fu Dang was admitted to the best university in the capital and won a lot of honor for Fu's mother in the village.

It's not easy for his parents in the countryside to send him to school. Fu Dang has been trying to make money by himself since he was admitted to college. He hardly stretched out his hand at home because he knows that he works hard. Jiang Yingxiu has always been a good and sensible girlfriend. He never wants gifts or goes to some luxury places, even if she can afford it.

Fu dang... When did you talk to your mother-in-law in this tone? Sounds like a stranger, no feelings at all.

Maybe it's because of pregnancy. Jiang Yingxiu is very sensitive to the changes of these small emotions, but Fu's mother doesn't notice what she's trying to say. Fu Dang has brought Jiang Yingxiu back to her room. Before leaving, he even left a sentence: "work will be tired to death, so don't nag."

After returning to the room, Jiang Yingxiu carefully observed his face and asked tentatively, "what's the matter with you? Why did you just talk to mom like that? "

Fu Dang looked at her with a different look. After Jiang Yingxiu left, he had an almost fatal illness. All he saw was that his parents and his parents-in-law debated how to distribute his family property. It was strange that he was not disappointed or angry at that time. Both sides had wives, brothers and nephews, who wanted to share as much as possible, but Fu Dang divided all his property in two, Half for her daughter and half for donation.

The last thing he can't lose is her. He didn't understand this until too late.

"She's always in charge of heaven and earth. I'm not a three-year-old. I don't need her to tell me what to do with my life."

Jiang Yingxiu listened and looked at him in disbelief. Fu Dang looked cute with his eyes wide open. He couldn't help kissing her. When he was on a blind date, he realized how eager he was.

He was used to forbearance and was able to hold her in his arms again, almost out of control.

Jiang Yingxiu was kissed by him, but when his hands began to be restless, he quickly stopped him: "no, no, this can't..."

She was frightened by Fu Dang's appearance of eating her. She was flustered, but she had unspeakable joy. She wouldn't show him what she was like now! The belly bulges, the body becomes denatured, and there are many spots... It's ugly! She looked in the mirror with great anxiety.

Fu Dang knew that this birth had left a huge psychological shadow on Jiang Yingxiu. If he came back earlier, he would not choose to let her get pregnant“ Well, I won't do much. Go to bed and I'll accompany you. "

"You come back so late every day." Jiang Yingxiu murmured, "you said yourself, accompany me, but when I wake up every morning, you have left. Why are you so busy?"

When she was a child, she lived in the South with her grandmother for several years. She learned the Wunong soft language. Occasionally, she would bring a tail. It was soft and needed special care.

Fu Dang kissed her forehead, "this time I lied to you that you were a puppy."

Although she may be criticized by her mother-in-law tomorrow morning, she talked a lot with Fu Dang and kissed him tonight. Jiang Yingxiu feels that she can be full of strength tomorrow.

The pregnant woman was sleepy. She soon fell asleep. Only her legs cramped occasionally, so she slept uneasily and often talked in her sleep. For Fu Dang, who was busy in the company, he couldn't sleep well at home, which was very bad. Therefore, in his last life, he slept next door with the encouragement of his wife and mother.

He thought she really didn't want to sleep with him, but that's not the case. She was vulnerable. How could she not need his care?

The big hand gently covered Jiang Yingxiu's lower leg, and a faint glittering light flashed in the palm. Jiang Yingxiu's tight frown slowly loosened during her deep sleep and slept more soundly.

Fu Dang just looked at her all night.

The next morning, Jiang Yingxiu opened her eyes and met her husband with Zhang Junmei's still face. She quickly covered her face and didn't show it to him because she didn't wash her face and brush her teeth. After marriage, she changed from an elegant and beautiful school flower to a haggard and obese pregnant woman, but Fu Dang was more mature and handsome. It's unfair between men and women. Looking closer, Fu Dang didn't even have pores on his face. Unlike her, when she was pregnant, her mother-in-law took away all cosmetics and skin care products, It's bad for the fetus.

She hasn't dressed up for a long time.

"Good morning."

Jiang Yingxiu did not dare to look at him and said, "good morning."

She tried to turn over and remember to go to the bathroom. Fu Dang reached out to help her. She was embarrassed. Although she got married as soon as she graduated and fell in love for several years before graduation, Jiang Yingxiu has been working hard to maintain her image in front of her lover and dare not relax at all.