Chapter 847

Mood swings

"well, I was born to suffer. There's no way to give him a good education, make him a useful person to the society, and let him suffer in the society. I'm not happy either."

"But it's just your wishful thinking. What do you think of your child? You don't know and haven't asked. Is the child really unwilling to come to this world because of suffering?"

He Xinying thinks how selfish it is for her parents to give up their children just for one or two reasons. She once had a child and lost it. She is still in great pain. She didn't protect him at that time.

"And The father of the child has been married. Just yesterday, the wound of the child's bloody forest appeared in front of he Xinying. "I don't know if the child will be persecuted by him when he was born. Originally, it was about breaking up, but I was pregnant. What do you think I should do? How can I get married with him? "

“… There are also many examples of single mothers finding a lifelong love. " He Xinying said dryly.

"That's because you are not in my present position. Of course, you will not know how contradictory and painful I am now! Who can not love their children, I used to like that person, but he got married! He doesn't want us anymore! "

He doesn't deserve to be a husband, a father.

He Xinying thought calmly, watching the girl crying in front of her, every cell in her body was screaming, she didn't want to, she was very painful.

But she's pregnant.

For the future, in order not to be criticized, in order not to be looked down upon, she had to give up the child even if she was sad and suffering to die soon.

Is that a good reason?

Quite enough.

She stood stupidly, looking at the girl's crying face in front of her. She couldn't say a word and didn't know how to comfort her. After a long time, when the girl was in a stable mood, she said it dryly.

"I'm sorry."

Maybe she shouldn't meddle at all, she thought, but she couldn't help talking.

"Please forgive me for saying so much. I still think that, compared with the thousand and ten thousand regrets in the future, we still attach importance to the possibility of sex less than 0.0%

maybe now 99% of them have to be killed, but even if there is one%, please keep him." He Xinying thought of her own child at the beginning. She felt a pain in her heart. "What she lost can never come back, but what she had Think about it, you will be a good mother, there will be someone to listen to you, you will never be alone

What that man has lost, he doesn't understand at all.

…

Twenty minutes after she left, she was still thinking about the girl. I wonder what she will do, whether she will leave the child and bring him up by herself.

Only after becoming a mother can we feel how great those women who dare to be single mothers are. They are just like Chimonanthus praecox in winter, tough and lonely

blooming alone, beautiful and admirable.

He Xinying is also a single mother. That time was the happiest for her after many hardships. Her children were really like little angels, comforting every mother's heart. Xiaochen is not even her own child, she can love him so much, let alone a piece of meat that falls from her body.

If you really have a child, no matter how hard and tired it is outside, as long as you think of him, you can't help but smile. The child is the mother's armor.

It's also a weakness.

"What are you doing alone?"

Harsh voice will pull her back to reality, he Xinying conditional frown, looking at the full face disdain expression of Zhang Ya.

"You won't understand what you said." She replied stiffly, and then changed the topic, "you said you would talk to me after you finished the infusion, why, can't you help it?"

Gangzhangya deliberately made trouble for her, saying that she didn't want to speak or hear the voice, especially her voice.

He Xinying decided to argue with her today, so she sat down and waited without saying a word.

It's just waiting for the infusion to finish. It doesn't matter. She can wait.

During this period, her thoughts have been in the flow room just passed by, and she has been thinking about whether an innocent little life will be abandoned by her mother. I really hope that the girl can bravely leave her child behind.

Every child is an angel who can't help coming to his mother's side because it's too hard to see his mother alone.

"What are you thinking, so preoccupied? Thinking about how to kill me again

Zhang Ya regarded her as the object of observation and kept staring at her.

He Xinying rolled her eyes. "If you really want to say something, we'll get down to business. It seems that the speaker is not the topic I can talk about with you."

"You finally showed your hostility to me. Why? Didn't it hide well before? Now Junquan is not here Zhang Ya said calmly, there was a kind of peace of dying people.

"Oh Did you hear that? " He Xinying didn't hide anything, "I'm not hostile to you, I hate you. The last video is still hot. Do you think everyone has no memory like you? "If we say that the last time she had a little respect for Zhang Ya's elders, she had some pity for her poisoning, but now, it has become her own hatred.

How could there be such a stupid person? She couldn't understand.

"You hate me? Shouldn't I hate you? You have poisoned my food, which leads me to lie here like a useless person every day. After infusion, my body will swell. I dare not look in the mirror at all. Who made me become like this? It's you! "

"Not me."

"Long has told me all about it. It's all about you!" Zhang Ya suddenly excited, trembling, pointing to he Xinying, with her hand that tied the indwelling needle, "it's you who made mercury! You put this in my food and let me eat it, you wicked woman

"Don't move!" He Xinying couldn't bear to see her pulling the needle all the time

and growled at her, "if you want to die, I won't stop you, but don't stand in front of me!"

He Xinying stares at Zhang Ya fiercely. Zhang Yacai finally stops. He Xinying turns and calls the nurse.

"Let the patient not be so excited and look at her blood pressure. That's why she doesn't want too many people to come to see her. This person says this, that person says that, and stimulates the patient. Isn't it a disguised way to kill her?"

The nurse called to Zhang Ya for a blood vessel, while blaming Yu Xinying.

Zhang Yagang pointed at her with too much movement, pulled the needle, and the sharp needle directly pierced her blood vessels.

The nurse was here before. After a look at he Xinying, she always felt familiar.

He Xinying is calmly looked at by her, calmly looking back, indifferent.