34 A talk about life

Sheng Tian saw his last target, Qin Cheng. Before he took any action, he felt a familiar aura nearby. He shifted his gaze and dashed towards the south.

"Hey, got any Seals?" Sheng Tian casually glanced at the Cold Beauty.

Even though she is in water, she is still wearing a veil and didn't allow the water to touch her body.

Sheng Tian felt that it was a pity given her figure to be not wet.

The Cold beauty looked at him.

Her eyes were still the same with that cold indifference.

They didn't even hold a shred of curiosity or interest.

Sheng Tian felt that she was the living manifestation of a Cold Moon—beautiful, cold and unreachable to the world.

However, he sighed the next moment.

Results stem from actions, actions stem from thoughts.

What could make someone so cold to the world?

Earlier he saw the two disciples from the Mystic Ice sect during the fight.

Even though they too exhibited a cold demeanour, they still had their expressions and feelings.

But she, she feels like someone who barely feels anything. What could explain this?

As these thoughts kept running in Sheng Tian's mind, the cold beauty looked at him and waved her hand as two Jade seals appeared.

Seems like her high status of Mystic Ice Sect disciple is not for show after all.

She did do a good job.

If it was Xiao Lian, he would have patted her head. But towards this World repelling woman, he could only nod lightly and smile.

Some time passed in silence.

She still didn't speak and stood there calmly as if waiting for him to speak as he didn't leave.

Sheng Tian could only start speaking " Cough, you know what? I will tell you some things which you might not believe but remember nothing is impossible." he straightened his back and looked straight into her eyes.

His eyes didn't contain the usual playfulness he had nor the enthusiasm he showed. There was only calmness and sincerity.

Taking a deep breath, he started " This is not the first time I knew about someone with a Cold temperament.

It is also not the first time for me to see someone so indifferent about life.

In fact, I met someone who just wanted a serene death because for that person, a calm death meant liberation from the sufferings of life.

But that doesn't solve anything. If you want something, you should fight for it.

Even if it is impossible, as long as you keep fighting, the battle isn't over and you are not defeated.

If you give up without a fight, then you would truly lose that last ray of hope."

The Cold beauty was shocked inwardly. Even her face showed a sign of slight surprise.

This is probably one of the few times an expression other than indifference came on her face.

After he spoke such words, it was as if talking about her own life.

Seeing her expression, Sheng Tian continued as he felt the icy indifference in her eyes decrease by a negligible amount.

"I know that it isn't respectful or moral for me to poke my nose into other's business. But I'm not a person who abides by the morals and ethics of the World. So, I don't care.

I am sure that you must have experienced something which others couldn't even imagine.

You might seem cold and distant, not caring about anyone or anything. But Miss Qin told me the reason you joined us is to keep your word and return her favour.

You took the favour to save a disciple of the Mystic Ice sect.

Someone like you would never feel that the others are unworthy of your thoughts.

Instead, if I had to guess, you are isolating yourself, not just from others, " he spoke slowly "from the world itself."

The Cold beauty's body shook.

The cold and indifferent look in her eyes was now filled with shock, but also desolateness.

She couldn't believe that someone like her who always tried to avoid people and even more avoid her personal life would listen to someone talk to her about it.

She found her stable thoughts like a Snow mountain having a landslide with his words as her thoughts were in chaos.

'Why?' 'Why did I even bother listening to him in the first place? Why didn't I leave or ask him to stop? Why didn't I even attack him when he spoke all those things? Why? Why did I do that?' She asked herself again and again.

Finally, she found the answer she was looking for.

When he first told her that he wanted to tell her something so seriously and calmly, she arrived at the subconscious thought that whatever he is going to say should be the truth since he is seeing straight into her eyes while speaking and she could tell it from the look of his eyes if he ever lies.

And next, he told her that he saw someone similar to her. And that someone also felt that death is a liberation from the sufferings of life, just like her.

She unconsciously pictured herself as the person he was speaking and the next things she heard made her feel think, as long as she fought for it, she could at least have a chance of winning rather than losing every chance by giving up.

In the depths of her mind, she somehow agreed with that as she felt that she herself should fight her own fate.

And then he said the things which struck her heart. She did experience something which others couldn't even imagine. All these things made her feel that he is someone who understood her just like her best friend.

That was why she was willing to listen. That was why she was hoping for him to continue.

She really did try to isolate herself from everything else.

Sheng Tian continued slowly " From your reaction earlier, it seems like my assumption is true. I think you must be believing that you should do what you are doing because it's 'Right' by your principles.

Tell me, is your heart alive or dead now?" at last, his tone didn't contain a hint of politeness or respect, it was a question he asked with more intensity than when asking about a person's life or death.

Sheng Tian wanted to help her because he somehow felt that she is pitiful.

Sure, he is not a saint. If the person in question was normal person, there is a 99% chance that he would have not cared. But she is a cold beauty, someone who he took interest in the novels he read. Thus he cared about the matter.

He is biased but has his own beliefs.

After all, what he believes is based on his own judgment, choices, and preferences.

This world has no right to label someone as 'good' or 'bad' based on that.

Because just like most of the men care about a woman's beauty, most of the women care about the man's abilities. There is nothing wrong with this.

Everyone has their own preferences and set of choices they choose for their own life.

That doesn't mean love is not pure.

The love is pure in itself but the conditions for it to bloom are usually not. But the Love which is developed later will not be in requirements of the conditions it needed for it to begin.

For example when a couple truly loved each other, even if the man loses his job, his wife would still stand by his side and support him even if she were given a chance to have a better man.

Of course, there is be this rare case of Unconditional love without any prerequisite.

As someone who lived in a Society filled with more lies than truth, he knew that people don't always show their real self to the public.

They show what the others expect them to see, their 'ideal self'.

This meant wearing different masks for different people.

Sure, there is nothing wrong with the art of deception as it is meant to make life better.

But how many can be sure that the friend they talked to yesterday won't be backstabbing him today?

A Human's heart is fickle.

For this very reason, Sheng Tian knew that having feelings for someone without knowing them properly is a very dangerous gamble which might hurt him badly in the long run.

So, he didn't let her appearance affect his judgment of her character.

His talk with her was him trying to test as well as help her.

If she was blindly arrogant without giving a damn about his words or treating everything as sh*t due to her appearance, status or cultivation, then he would not help her even with her breathtaking beauty.

Everything depended on her responses.

If she was willing to become someone who she truly wanted to, even if it means she has to ask him for help, he would do it as long as it is not excessive. This was Sheng Tian's bottom line in helping her.

But what if Xiao Lian was in a similar situation? Would he help her regardless of her response without expecting anything?

Sheng Tian asked himself these questions and found that he had no answer to them.

Xiao Lian became a close person to him, but he was not sure if she would remember him after she leaves him to the Divine Realm.

Sheng Tian had mixed feelings about this. Would he stop her? What rights did he have to do that?

Then, go with her? Hm, why is he wanting her company in the first place?

At the same time, Sheng Tian's question reverberated in the cold beauty's mind.

She herself didn't know the question.

She felt that all her feelings have been sealed up.

From that day onwards, she first felt coldness all over.

Her heart was frozen after seeing that sight.

All the guilt, self-blame, hatred was something she pushed upon herself, an 8-year-old little girl. It was when she felt the true coldness of life.

Then after that incident, she witnessed the coldness of the people, the warmth of her master, brutality of this world, the joke fate played on her life with a cruel destiny.

After she resigned herself to fate, she met her best friend.

Should she be regretful about meeting such a person only now or feel happy for having met her at last?

Gods seemed to like to toy with her as the person who treated her as a friend also had an impossible goal on her shoulders, just like hers.

They became closer.

But what truly kept her heart still alive was her master!

She shook her head a little and talked for the first time "My heart is still alive." Her voice was gentle yet cold. It was enthralling and beautifully sounding like a celestial song.

Sheng Tian was a bit stunned when he heard her speak for the first time.

After a little while, He opened his mouth wide and asked " You! Do you know how to speak and actually not mute?"

This time it is the Cold Beauty who opened her mouth wide. But then she closed it from cursing him.

Sheng Tian too calmed down or at least that was how he seemed. He did it intentionally to anger her which in his terms would be stimulating her emotions so that they are not sealed off and remain dormant.

Sheng Tian gave her his advice " If your heart is still alive. Then, do what it wants while being conscious of your own actions.

If you are going to die tomorrow, you have two choices—either fully embrace death or completely struggle for life.

If you choose to struggle for life completely, then you would focus on everything you could do to have that one ray of hope to survive. It might or might not be successful, but nevertheless, you did your best. You will die without regrets.

If you choose death, then enjoy the day before the best way you could. Party, Drink, Eat, travel, sleep. Do whatever you want as it will be the last day you could do something before having an eternal sleep."

Sheng Tian concluded his speech and left off. He didn't even wait for her to understand his intentions.

The Cold beauty was deeply moved by those words as she felt her heart's true desires.

Her heart never wanted to become a puppet of fate but be master of her own life.

So, even if her efforts might be futile, she decided to put up a final struggle before she goes down.

She would pursue her dream of a life with a full heart.

Her icy blue pupils glowed with dark blue light as she emitted a determined gaze.

A mysterious energy dormant in her body lightly shook, moving her strings of fate.