Chapter 147 - Grow numb [1]

Even Moon Jiwoo herself was shocked by how things easily went. That actually did not imply that she was pleased by it.

Initially she had believed that finding the truth would be harder than this, but who knew that the luck would be on her side for this. This was surprise to her.

However, Moon Jiwoo did not know whether or not to take this a good thing. Even her emotions at that moment was a mess over it.

Moon Jiwoo never expected to hear Oh Sookyung and Lee Eunmi discuss matters as she was about to enter their office. No matter how many times she tried to listen in on both of them while they were in the office, it did not work for her.

But this time around it was different. Both of them were loud enough for her to hear everything without her ear coming in contact with the door. It was if everything was going really smooth.

Although Moon Jiwoo was scared of listening to the truth, it did not mean that she would be avoiding it completely. This was her only chance to get the information about everything, and there was no way she was willing to let go of such a precious opportunity.

She was aware of how important it was for her to know about this. Since this was decided for her in the first place, she deserved to know about the entire thing whether or not Sookyung liked about it.

She beared responsibility to make a decision for this!

"I am really anxious about the entire thing. No one had ever done it before! Doing something this new and dangerous— I have never imagined about it. But I can't disagree with you. However, what if it goes all wrong? What if this brings in more harm than help?"

"There is no way that will be able to happen. This was meticulously planned. Certainly there will be lots of objections and all that, but I know that both of us will be able to do that. And to be honest, soon enough, everyone will be onboard with this.

I admit that there will be negatuve reactions because something like this haven't been done before, but sooner or later, everyone will be accepting the fact that I am not the king.

Giving up the throne hasn't been done before but it doesn't mean that it is forbidden or something. I have found something more important than this position, and I don't want to give that up for something I didn't even want in the first place."

"Yeah, you are right. The rebelling and the public opinion might get harsh in the beginning, but it's nothing that we won't be able to deal with. Let's just hope that I am alive by the end of everything like that."

"You will do just fine," he answered.

Moon Jiwoo found it difficult to believe what be she had just heard. As much as she wanted to deny it, there were no chances of her doing that right now.

Everything was laid out before her, and by now, it was pretty obvious to her on how Oh Sookyung was planning to give up the throne for real. This wasn't one of the things she was going to allow him to do.

Yes, she was aware of how he didn't want to be the king, but there was no one who was suited to be the King. Everyone put their trust on him, and they relied upon him. Moon Jiwoo did not want to take that away from them.

This time around she will be thinking about others rather than her. Then again, even this time around, she was putting herself into consideration.

The guilt would be too much to live with. Maybe she would be able to move on from Oh Sookyung one day, but the guilt of taking a king away was something that will remain with her forever. 

There are any innocent lives on this and even she wasn't that cruel to be inconsiderate for all of that.

Although it was tough, Moon Jiwoo put in her all into hardening her heart. She believed that she would be able to do it if she put in all of her effort.

Taking in a deep breath, Moon Jiwoo began to walk away from that room. As she did that, tears started to fall down both of her eyes, and those tears started to wet her clothing.

Her ċhėst ached terribly in that instant, and a headache was starting to form. Breathing was getting difficult for her, and continuing to walk was tough for her.

But she knew that she had to bear through all of it. Continuously she repeated in her mind on how she was fine with all of those regardless of how that wasn't true.

She was convinced that chanting that would making her feel better, but that did not work up until now. It only continued to make her feel worse.

She desperately craved to break down at this moment and let go of everything. She was tired of feeling all this sorts of emotions, and desperately, she craved to become numb to all of that. There was nothing that seemed better to her than that in that moment.

'Why can't I just forget about everything? They get amnesia so easily in the movies, so why doesn't it happen in real life? Should I hit my head against the wall to make that happen or something?

Can I even get amnesia in the first place? My brain would heal the moment I attack it. Then again, I am not a doctor. Should I just try it? I might get lucky and manage to forget completely about Oh Sookyung.

That would just be making the things best for me. Why did I have to fall for him in the first place? Why can't I get a smooth love story? Maybe I should never fall in love in the future! This is terrible!"