Chapter 94 - The Guilt

Wu Lina slammed the door of the bedroom but Yang Xinyu opened the door and quietly followed her. She sat on the bed and he sat right next to her not daring to touch her.

Wu Lina gave him a side-glance and immediately felt guilty for creating such a commotion. Before she could say anything she heard Yang Xinyu speaking gently to her.

"Forgive me darling," he whispered softly and continued, "Please don't be angry… you are the center of my world… if something will happen to you, I'll be very restless… I can't think of a day without you… I am so sorry for what I did to you back at the office a month ago… it kills me when I think that I forced myself on you… I saw you with Yan Xiaojun…" he remembered and shuddered.

"I was experiencing so much pain without you by my side, I was so lost that I had shut down. Life became a constant torture that I was enduring every day… I was surviving, not living… Were it not for you, I wouldn't have been reassured… you are my emotional morphine… you are not just my love… I am addicted to you… you are an anchor I hold onto… so please don't be angry… I want you badly…" Yang Xinyu choked. She could feel his despair.

Wu Lina turned towards him feeling bad. She started crying and climbed onto his l.a.p. "Don't say that again Xinyu… I love you…" she said.

She stared at him, their glances battling, until tears arose and they found themselves crying. "Why did you do it?" She hiccupped with tears rolling down her cheeks. He wiped her tears and curled his hands around her. She found her solace in the crook of his neck. She knew he was in mental pain.

He continued, "Wu Lina whatever the distance will be there between us, I will always be attracted to you. Even if you will go to the end of the earth, I will come to you. When I became lost in darkness during those eight months of non-communication, you were the one who brought me back to light. So even though I see your face and skin, you should know that my attraction for you runs deep inside my body. In order to love you fully one lifetime is not enough."

He paused a little before continuing, "Wu Lina, I've never loved anyone so much in my life…"

She kept crying in the crook of his neck making it wetter, "Sorry, I fought with you so heartlessly…"

He lifted her chin and kissed her lips. "Shh… as long as you are with me…"

He rubbed his face against hers, his stubble rough against her cheeks and again he brushed his lips on hers. His hand traveled from her shoulders to her b.u.t.t.o.c.k.s and touched them, squeezing them. He took his hands to her hair. Gliding through them, he looked at her in a way he had never looked at her before. There was urgency. There was anxiousness. Goosebumps lined her skin - nothing mattered except being in the moment. He wiped her tears.

She was looking so alluring in her pale red lingerie. Her n.i.p.p.l.es had become hard and were standing against the fabric. Yang Xinyu brought his hands to her b.r.e.a.s.ts, circled the n.i.p.p.l.es and kissed them over the fabric. His breathing became heavy and he bit her b.r.e.a.s.ts over the fabric. Not able to resist him any more she pulled his shirt over his head. He lifted her hands and pulled out her lingerie exposing her fair skin. Gently he lifted her and pushed her hard onto the bed. She sunk down into the mattress with him gracefully sitting over her straddling her h.i.p.s. She tried to sit up but he pushed her back down.

"Xinyu…" he cut her off by kissing on her lips. She kissed him back, her hands coming to his neck and hair and gliding down his back, her nails almost digging his flesh.

He left her lips and said, "I'll go crazy without you…" and got up to remove the only clothing left on his body.

With one look at her he bent down to kiss from her toes upwards, slowly moving his hands and kneading her legs. His hands were going higher than his kisses. She arched her back knowing where his fingers would reach soon. As soon as his fingers reached the pink folds between her t.h.i.g.hs, she shuddered.

He inserted his finger inside and gently pressed her inside. Her head swayed back against the pillow, a m.o.a.n escaping her lips. Before she knew he was already s.u.c.k.i.n.g her pink folds. He was l.i.c.k.i.n.g and using his fingers all together, watching her reaction, feeling how her legs moved and watching her body writhe in p.l.e.a.s.u.r.e. She had come. "I want more!" she demanded seductively.