Chapter 343

Gao Yan takes a look at her secretly. Seeing that her expression doesn't show any disgust, he takes back his eyes, lowers his head guiltily, and goes on: "after a long time, I admire you more and more, and grow up slowly Abnormal feelings, but I never dare to think about anything, I know this kind of feelings are abnormal, abnormal, but I really can't control, so I wrote all my feelings into the diary. "

Li yinglu's expression didn't change. She seemed to be listening to him carefully. She also seemed to recall the old story many years ago.

Gao Yan continued: "Tian Xiao doesn't like me all the time. I can't provoke him, so I don't offend the river with his well water.

But once, I forgot my diary in the classroom, and he peeked at my diary. "

At this point, he looked more ashamed and embarrassed, "and then he knew what I was thinking. Since then, I have been afraid day by day, afraid that what I see from your eyes is no longer appreciation and liking, but disgust.

Tian Xiao blackmailed me with this thing. I gave him whatever he wanted. He wanted to be a representative of Chinese class. I resigned as a representative of Chinese class. He thought that I could not pass the exam for him. Since then, I have been playing an abnormal role from time to time. I thought that would be enough. I didn't expect that he would -- "

cover his face with his hands and block the expression of remorse on his face Step back and think he will be satisfied, but I don't know that he is such a brute, and he can't do such a thing as a pig or a dog to you!

Since his discovery of my terrible mind, I live in panic all the time. I'm afraid that everyone knows this. All the teachers who used to like me will look at me with disgust, and all the students around me will alienate me, so I'm more and more afraid to pay attention to you.

At that time, if I was not so timid, I would surely find your abnormality and stop that beast in Tianxiao. Later, you quit and left. Tian Xiao slandered you in my face with obscene words. He said... "

"I would rather believe that it was a lie he made up to stimulate me, but I know that he is not lying. I beat him up, but it's useless. Later I wanted to find you, but I heard that you left Jiangcheng after resignation. I asked your parents, and they didn't know where you went. "

Gao Yan said, his voice choking, "I really don't know that I will bring you such harm. If I knew... "

But now it's too late to say anything.

Twenty years later, the original scene was like a lingering image, appearing in his mind all the time, and Tian Xiao's proud expression.

"Gao Yan, don't you know what a fool you are? Miss Li, who is very holy in your heart, has been my person for a long time. You didn't see her at that time, just like..." The words behind are so ugly that they torment Gao Yan day and night.

Gao Yan did not regret that he had beaten him like crazy at the beginning. Even if he really blinded him, it was the animal's life.

The beast didn't know how to repent, and he covered his bleeding eyes and laughed, "you are a coward. I did what you dare not do, ha ha ha..."

"Later, I heard that you had graduated. You died and committed suicide. I know that you must have left a psychological shadow because of that. And the cause of all this is me, so I deserve to die. I have no complaint that you will kill me. "

After hearing this, Li yinglu's expression slightly changed, but still calm.

Su coco frowned puzzledly. Seeing that he didn't want to say anything else, he couldn't help but interjected: "Mr. Gao, why don't you say anything else?

For this reason, you have lost the quota of the first high school, just as Tian Xiao intended. At last, the quota falls to him. Not only that, but also because of the bullying of Tian family, your family has compensated for a huge amount of medical expenses. Your parents are running around to borrow money for you. When you live hard, you only eat one meal a day and eat one steamed bun. "

Gao Yan is slightly stunned, and hands are clasped and loosened uneasily. "These are my own things, nothing to do with Miss Li's things."

He didn't expect that the other party knew his things so well that he even found out the most embarrassing side.

But Su coco shook his head. "We practitioners pay attention to the circle of cause and effect. If we owe money, we must pay it back. Your diary is the beginning of everything, but you have paid off the debt. You should have a better life. "

Speaking of this, she looked at the silent Li yinglu. This time, she didn't address Ms. Li again. "Miss Li should know that Mr. Gao will visit your grave every year after you die. Not only that, he will secretly give money to your parents every year.

Think about it for yourself. How wrong is he? Should we not have uncontrollable feelings because of our ignorance in our youth, or should we not let ourselves be stared at by a dark and vicious classmate? You think he is your debt, but you are not her debt. "

Li yinglu looks up at Su coco. For a long time, she suddenly smiles, "thank you, little master. And -- "

she looks at the man beside her and sighs," I'm sorry, Gao Yan, you're a good man. "

Gao Yan was flattered and shook his head. "I'm not. I'm not really. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't -""All right." Li Yinglu interrupted him and said with a light smile, "I don't really hate you, but I was cheated by Tian Xiao."

"Tian Xiao made up a story before he died, saying that you used words to blaspheme me in the diary, he would move his mind to me because he gambled with you, and he also said that you gave me the idea to take the medicine to threaten me. Of course, I don't believe it all, but I have some anger in my heart. Sometimes when I have too much blood on my hands, I become less rational. "

She apologized to Gao Yan, "you don't deserve to die, you should live well.

Gao Yan, you are 40 years old, not small. Do you think you are still that kid? I don't blame you. I'll find a woman who likes you to have a family later. I think Miss Zhang who I am attached to today is not bad... "

Gao Yan listens to listen, suddenly his hands cover his face, and in a moment his throat makes a choking sound. Tears burst out of his fingers.

"Don't cry. Such a big man is like a child."

Gao Yan called her hoarsely, "Miss Li..."

"Well." Li yinglu gave a gentle hum. She used to hate the name, but she forgot how happy she was to hear the students call her when she was a teacher.

It's a pity, if only there were longer days like that.