This is the story of a certain girl. Her life is not stable in terms of money, but she is genius. She look at the human as rotten, but she is beautiful that have black hair, no makeup nor foundation… it's just a pure beauty that you can see in her face. But she is irritated in her own beauty.
You can say that she want to be alone. But those gazes made her hates the human, lust, jealousy, and hatred those eye looks at her. As you can see she is annoyed on those gaze, and the truth is she is more annoyed that every day she experience it that every day everyone look at her with those gaze.
Her name is Mira Francesca, 18 years old, living as a student. Everything is normal for her, but somehow she stand out too much. She can't tell the difference between beauty and average. But student and every people who saw her, say that she is beautiful or perfect wife. 'I hate that kind of human' as she keeps saying in herself. Just hate them.
And she was annoyed how people decide on their own how they recognize others as beautiful and not. She is standing too much 'I am standing too much because I am pretty'. Well that is to say they are all like that… everyone look at her just following their instinct whenever they saw beautiful being… you can say they are all scum of all.
Therefore, in the end she grow to hate human.
Ngami: "their annoying as always right?"
Ngami, her friends and classmate in the school they're entering, she is genius but she did not stand out too much, because of her short hair and stylish glasses… she's not popular because Mira attracts more attention than her. She loves to read novels and manga she also watch anime but her specialty is sometimes out of league by Mira… she's into BL (Boys Love).
Ngami: "don't mind them."
And her everyday life start with this annoying feeling of her, being stared by boys and girls. Scum always stay scum in her eyes and it will never be change. Other people ask why she loathe her own being. well the answer she say is simple… "if people is made by fair why people itself always see me as pretty than the other girls".
The simplest answer she wants to say is nobody has made as fair from the start that's why everybody envy the superior being and only watch their superiors back.
Call her a monster if you want but this is how she see the world, you can loathe her and she will also loathe you that's how she live.
Ngami: "you're looking at them as trash as always… well it can't be help because what I am after for is not the lust of boys to girls but another boys."
If only Ngami choose the norms world… she will become beauty itself. But world is unfair that's why she become like that.
Mira: "*Sigh*, if only you change your taste I think your pretty itself."
Ngami: "no need to concern about me, this is where my joy can be founded."
She said it many times, she said it to Mira many times that it become more than enough to irritates her. Mira is more concern in her life than herself. Well in the end, as the class started her life is simple as always… she got the highest score in the class, she is still top in the school, and people looks at her with admiration. Everything is fine and she like how it turns out.
Ngami: "you're really genius Mira."
Mira: "don't praise me everyone can do this if they only invest more time to study."
Yes if only people is not lazy and corrupted being. This is why she loathe her own being, she don't know why she saw the dark side of the human being but after she saw it she started to hate them one by one. If you easily read how people act, you will also simply hate them. For example, people will not starve from the start if there is no management who steal money.
For Mira's life and point of view, nobody would be poor if nobody tried to be fool. Living in peaceful life is what Mira's only want to have, but wanting a peaceful life is like asking for miracle… you could never achieve it no matter how hard you try. You could only feel the peaceful but you could never have a perfect peaceful.
'The world is truly unfair for us' as Mira always voice out in her minds, because Mira live in poor lifestyle she become aware to this world. Talent? Knowledge? Or Grades? None of them could be used in the near future because the thought of thinking like that is only an idiot. Yes, you could get job, work hard, and get payment.
But for those who born as a rich people from the start their life has been tied in having a work without working so hard like the others.
As the time passes for Mira she keeps walking while being irritated somehow, because a student like her was working so hard, BUT only found her surrounding school mate flirting with the opposite sex… 'how annoying, it's makes me burst out in anger'.
This is supposed to be school that could be learned by teaching the student. She could not comprehend why everyone of them is doing like that while in the school.
Ngami: "… piss off again?"
Ngami who always look for Mira beside her smile, like she knew what Mira's thinking inside her head. It's funny how you can predict some people thinking in just simple looking at them, that's how Ngami feels right now.
Mira: "hey, Ngami this is school right? not a park or flirting area?"
Somehow Ngami suddenly feel danger about that question… 'she is really piss off today' as Ngami thought. If she answer this wrongly Mira would vent her anger to Ngami… she know it because Mira did it before.
Ngami: "w-well this is school, your corre—"
Mira: "--but why? Why? Their doing that shit in this school?"
'Scary, scary... she's beyond in help because of her odd thinking about human beings' as Ngami think. Well that's how this two every days life become so Ngami could bear with it somehow… but for the others who could hear Mira… some of them whisper to their friends just like now.