31 Blank...

I truly hoped that the conversation would have ended there only. ;

Damon looked at me. It was for a second but I think his eyes were red with anger. And I assure you I am not speaking just metaphorically. The eyeballs they looked like orbs of ruby. ;

He averted his gaze. ;

Room became awfully silent. My brother, my savior of the eve, for the first time in history he did something good. ;

Let's toast, he said cheerfully. ;

But what should we toast to?, said my parents in unison. ;

Jace: Damon has finally settled down in a relationship. Let's toast to that. ;

Mrs. Petrova: Oh hoho... Who is the lucky girl? Show me her picture. ;

Damon passed the phone to me. Although I saw het earlier but I couldn't remember her face, so I looked at the picture before giving it away. ;

Holy shit, my mind screamed. ;

I showed the picture to my mom. ;

Mom: Isn't this? ;

Alexa: Yupp.. You're right. It is her. ;

Damon and Jace faces were in confusion now. ;

Mom laughed and said, Oh don't worry it is nothing serious. This is Donna isn't it? ;

They nodded. ;

Mom: She was the Alexa's Best friend, before high-school. Her house is also not very far from here. ;

Damon: Wooww.. This is an amazing surprise. ;

Things went back to normal and everyone had a cheery mood at the end. ;

It was already half past eleven. So Damon and Jace left after the dinner. ;

I went back to bed, put on my headphones and went to sleep. It was kind of a weird reaction of my consciousness. Whenever I felt sad, I tend to sleep more. I guess it was that way, so that I could escape from all the emotional torture and save my soul from being torn. ;

Now, to think of it. I didn't actually experience many emotions. ;

Once, younger brother of my friend got unconscious in school. Everyone got worried sick. But I was standing there, observing the situation and not feeling any kind of emotion. It was not that I hated them or something. I was neither feeling empathy, concern nor happiness like a sadist. ;

I was just blank. ;

I wonder, when God made me, did he actually forgot to put some emotions in me. ;

I normally feel happiness or anger. Except these two I don't think I have any other emotion. ;

Today I felt sad too but now come to think of it, I am not even feeling sad anymore. ;

When I close my eyes and peep into my soul, I see nothing. Everything is just blank. ;

Sometimes I wish I could see what's it's like to be the blood flowing in my veins. I wonder the insides of me are same as others. ;

I dream of a world where I am just a no one. Staying behind in shadows, observing everything and everyone. ;

Everyone thinks, Everything is either black or white, but they don't know there's so much hiding in the greys. This is their weakness. ;

If only I could melt into the shadows, dive deep not just in the shallows. If only I could rule without revealing my true face. If only... ;