Chapter 88 - The Truth

"Tell me, Feng Mian, why can't it be love? I can see it in your eyes that you love Jia Yi a lot, so why are you denying it?" asked Yu Yingyi, her expression made a -are you serious- face.

"Because I'm..."

"Because you're what?"

"Because I'm in love with you!"

Yu Yingyi froze, she couldn't believe the words that came out from Feng Mian's mouth. It felt like the world suddenly exploded and she was left alone to survive. Her brain felt like it malfunctioned and something went wrong.

"Sorry? Could you repeat that?" asked Yu Yingyi, pinching her cheeks to make sure this was real life.

"You're going to make me say it again?" Song Feng Mian cried out, "I'm in love with you, Yingyi.."

Yu Yingyi nodded "Feng Mian, stop joking around, I'm being serious right now."

"I am being serious, I'm in love with you Yingyi, that's why I'm not in love with Jia Yi," said Song Feng Mian, the tone of her voice sounded like she was being serious.

Yu Yingyi shook her head, whatever Feng Mian was feeling towards her wasn't love, after all, Yingyi could tell it wasn't genuine.

"If it's love, then let me ask you this. When you saw me sad, did you want to make me happy even if you had to go through something painful in return?" asked Yu Yingyi.

Song Feng Mian stood there, silent. The answer was no, she didn't feel like doing whatever it took to make Yingyi happy when she looked sad.

"No, I didn't feel that way," said Song Feng Mian, her voice nearly came out like a whisper.

"Exactly, so is what you're feeling really love, or is it something else?" asked Yu Yingyi, her helpless expression unchanging.

"If it's not love, then why do I have the desire to make you mine? Why do I feel these urges to claim you? Why do I feel this way despite you being my sister's consort?" asked Song Feng Mian, her expression was again filled with desperateness for an answer.

When Feng Mian said that, Yu Yingyi knew what Feng Mian was feeling towards her. It was infatuation, something might have made Feng Mian infatuated with her.

"Feng Mian," Yu Yingyi said softly, "Do you hear yourself, Feng Mian? Although love is about making someone yours, the way you said it sounded like you want to force me to become yours. I know you don't mean it that way, but that's not love, it's infatuation."

"Infatuation...?" asked Feng Mian, confusion was written all over her face.

Yu Yingyi nodded, "Yes, infatuation. Infatuation isn't in any form love, it's similar to obsession. Just know that whatever you're feeling towards me is fake, whatever you're feeling towards Jia Yi is real."

Song Feng Mian didn't know how to feel, this was her first time experiencing a situation like this. After all, she didn't even know what love was.

"You're confused aren't you?" asked Yu Yingyi.

"How'd you know?"

"It's written all over your face. Here's an example, remember when Jia Yi claimed to love me? That was infatuation," said Yu Yingyi.

However, Feng Mian still looked dazed which made Yu Yingyi sigh helplessly. Feng Mian was a genius at everything, but emotions. It was a troubling case.

"Feng Mian, look at Jia Yi right now, and tell me how you feel," said Yu Yingyi pointing towards where Jia Yi was.

Song Feng Mian did as she was told and glanced where Jia Yi was, in her peripheral vision, she could see Jia Yi smiling while she was talking to the citizens.

Seeing Jia Yi smile made her want to smile, it made her happy, she wanted Jia Yi to be always happy. Feng Mian could feel her heart start beating rapidly as she stared at Jia Yi longer.

"You feel happy right? That's what love is, even if the person you love is doing the simplest thing, you'll find them amazing, and your heart will race."

Song Feng Mian couldn't deny it, she...she was really in love with Jia Yi after all.

"Ah, I'm in love with Jia Yi, aren't I?" Song Feng Mian asked, only to receive a forced smile from Yu Yingyi and a tick could be seen on her forehead, "Eh? Is something wrong?"

"You...you clueless woman!" Yu Yingyi scolded, "Do you know how frustrating you were?! I had to go through so many exhausting emotions and do so many things to get you to admit it."

Song Feng Mian was left speechless, the only words she could mutter was, "I'm sorry..."

Once Yu Yingyi was done scolding Feng Mian, she was out of breath, and her throat felt dry. She had to vent out all of her frustration or else something was going to happen, and it wasn't good.

"Do you want water?" asked Song Liya holding out a bottle of water. Yingyi snatched it immediately and gulped it down.

"Haaa," Yu Yingyi let out noise after she finished the water, "That was great. Now, do you understand the difference between love and infatuation or do I need to go again?"

Song Feng Mian immediately shook her head, she didn't want to go through another scolding. It felt like her mother was telling her what she did wrong and how troublesome she was, she wanted to apologize right away.

"Good, I wasn't going to tell you again. Now, you should go get together with Jia Yi, she loves you too. I don't care where you confess, but it can't be somewhere that's not romantic," said Yu Yingyi.

"Uh, what's a romantic place?" asked Song Feng Mian.

Yu Yingyi rubbed her temples, she wanted to mentally slap herself for asking that. How would Feng Mian know what a romantic place was when she didn't even know what love was.

"Nevermind, just find a place that you think is suitable for your confession. You two better be together by the next week, don't let my hard work go to waste," said Yu Yingyi.

With that said, Yu Yingyi said goodbye to the two and started making her way towards the city.

"This morning sure was eventful."