Chapter 51.2
Raniero had been away since dinner. Thanks to that, I could sit alone in bed and stare at the fireplace. It seemed like my thoughts were clearing up as I blankly watched the sparks rising from below and disappearing in the air.
Ok, lets get it together.
Nothing would be solved by being scared and worried.
Lets think about it for a moment what if Raniero didnt fall in love at first sight with Seraphina? For some reason, it seemed a little easier to admit that when Edens eyes werent looking at me.
I guess I want to stay here.
I admired Edens will to return to the original world, and I kept running away as well, still there must have been a lingering feeling in a corner of my heart that I wasnt aware of.
I wasnt very happy in my original world. It was a messy life. I was so poor that reading novels that cost a few thousand won per book was almost my only hobby, and I had no friends. On the contrary, Angelica Unro was a well-educated and pampered princess, and had a loyal friend named Cisen.
I let out a long sigh.
I knew I couldnt just hold on to such a thing.
Even if the conditions here were regrettable, there was no guarantee that Raniero would love me forever. Since he was easily fed up with things, as soon as he got tired of me, my safety would not be guaranteed It was like living with a ticking time bomb.
If you look at it rationally, itd be right to leave.
But
Wouldnt it be nice to extend my life here as much as possible? Whether it was a life in the other world with no future in sight or a life in this world where I had to live as a fugitive as long as he cared for me, wouldnt it be possible to look away as much as I could?
Its not that Im not vigilant. I just want to enjoy this.
I blinked at the thought of a future where he would grow cold to me.
Though the thought of leaving was serious, a corner of my heart felt warm, yet it wasnt terribly sad or painful. Even though I was a little excited by the omnipotent tyrant, it seemed that my emotions hadnt grown much yet.
I shouldnt let it grow big.
Because Im afraid of being hurt.
After all, it would be easy to step on the bud. No matter how sweet he tried to be, I couldnt entirely wash away my fear of Raniero Actilus so until this fear goes away, I wouldnt be able to fully hold him in my heart.
As it seemed that I was getting some direction while I calmed my mind by myself, I then remembered the bag of gold coins I had left with Cisen.
If I return to Actilus without much trouble, Ill give it to Eden.
After being possessed here, Eden checked everything he could in the temple for several months. If he wanted to get information outside the temple, then he would need money.
All right. This is enough.
If I stayed awake until dawn, I thought I would have useless thoughts again, so I decided to go to bed. However, as soon as I undid the cloaks brooch and went into the blanket, I could hear a knock.
I asked as I got out of bed.
Who is it?
Its me.
It was Ranieros voice.
Oh, did I lock the door?
I opened the door in a hurry. Then, stepping back so he could come in, I asked him in a very stupid voice.
Whats that?
Of course, I knew immediately what it was as soon as I saw it. It was a bread that was baked and cut into small pieces so that it would crumble easily when bitten and covered with honey, and beerboth were my favorite snacks.
However, why he was holding it was a mystery.
Raniero, whose hands werent free, kicked the door lightly shut.
Something for the Empress to eat.
Entering the room, he strode over to the bed where I had taken off my cloak and sat down, and I couldnt help but stand in the middle of the room and watch his actions. As he sat down on my bed, Raniero gestured for me to come closer.
You almost skipped dinner.
When I followed his call, I walked over and sat down next to him. He poked the bread with a fork himself and put it in my mouth.
It was sweet.
After I chewed it all up, I drank some bitter alcohol along with it. As the second piece of bread was delivered to my mouth, I stared at it for a moment and put it in my mouth. I then took the fork from his hand.
The third piece of bread was put into Ranieros mouth.
He, who didnt like sweets, frowned as he ate it awkwardly. But slowly, his jaw started to move.
Even today, he was outrageously generous with me as well.
I laughed and whispered.
Do your best tomorrow.
Raniero gazed at me without saying anything. Then, as if the inside of his mouth was too sweet, he took the beer glass away and washed his mouth with alcohol before putting the plate on my lap. He parted his lips again.
If you like it, just eat it quickly.
I couldnt help but smile faintly.
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