Chapter 109: defence and attack

If it had been past, leaving would have been so much easier, but that thought never came to my mind in the first place. To save my life, I had planned to amend my relationship with Killian, it was just a wish to live happily nothing more. Soon this boy walked into my life with his slow steps and now, he was part of my life, a part that made me feel loved and cared for.

And the other part was his father, who was not leaving any effort to increase my hatred, but I don't want to be surrounded by the same darkness again, no in this life I would not be a villain anymore.

But should I stay or let go...…..

"Mother, what are you thinking, don't you want to dance with me?" he asked again as his forwarded hands hesitated.

His face had that moment of disappointment that he was trying to hide, and my heart broke. Once again I was being selfish to only think about myself. I put my hand in his, just when he was trying to take it back, a moment of relief washed over his face as he smiled again.

Lina set the music as he took my hand like a gentleman and we both walked to the centre of the room.

Each half box has three steps - a step forward or backwards, a step to the side, and a step to close the feet together. Follow us, my lord. The teacher started dancing, taking in the air as a human and started the waltz. "And start, one, tow, three, one two, three, one two three, here.. Copy my steps.."

The teacher moved and slowly he started following the lead, my whole life passed through my eyes as we waltzed together. This was the way it all started! A dance, I shared with Cassius, my mesmerization, meeting him in the academy, our chats, my inclination towards him, his marriage, my denial, death of Elizabeth, my marriage, his indifference and coldness, my madness, Killian's innocence, my selfishness, mistakes and my end. I closed my eyes as he twirled me, a soft tune running in the background. My rebirth, his innocence and my love for him, I thought I had been free but no, in my past life I was shackled in the toxic chains of obsession towards Cassius and in this life my heart is bound to the innocent love of Killian's, the way his eyes were searching the reason of my pain in my eyes. The way he was trying to tighten his grip on me, trying to stop me from falling into the same abyss again and the way his heart was beating fast looking at my tear welled eyes. 

That was the truest and innocent form of love I had gained. He dipped me, I smiled but my tears fell. He shook his head as he gently put his hands on my cheek and wiped them, a comforting smile on his face and I nodded, there were unspeakable emotions and comfort that touched my core.

At the end of the song, my head was trying to adjust on his shoulder as the symphony continued to play.

How much time had passed when he nudged me so softly as if I was made of cotton, a hard push could leave the damage.

"Mother, are you feeling sleepy because of the fever?" he asked me and only then did I realise the music had stopped and we were not dancing anymore. I was lost somewhere that I even forgot he was holding me like I would break if he left me.

"Yes, I think I felt a bit dizzy, I apologise, son," I replied and he shook his head.

"It's okay, go and rest, I will come and join you soon," he added as he walked out.

I walked towards the leather chair, my eyes hardened the moment I turned.

'No I had to find a way to bring Killian with me, Cassius did not care enough for him, anyway.' but what and how should I place the condition that he would agree to it.

I have to plan something big that he would come and ask for a divorce and then I will demand Killian.

But for that I had to be strong, I had to be the richest one and strongest one in the empire, that even emperor had to listen to me, I had to fasten the process of my growing because if he tried to touch me again I would not be able to handle it anymore.

"Kate, call sir Roselia in."

"Yes, your highness" she bowed and left the room, soon Roselia entered with a worried expression.

I walked to the table and wrote a letter when they both entered 

"You called me, your highness." She greeted me officially and I nodded.

"I want you to take night shifts too." she furrowed her brows as this was the first time I had asked that, normally I ask her to leave early so that she could have rest, not that I had any type of danger. The palace was one of the most secure places.

"Is everything alright, your highness," she asked, concerned and I nodded.

"Yes, I want you to guard my room, no one should enter without my permission. I repeat no one sir Roselia, not even my husband, no matter what the reason is. Would you be able to do that?" I asked and she nodded but her eyes had a thousand questions in it. But I was sorry as I had the answer of none.

"One more thing" i handed her the letter, "Please give this thank you letter to sir Damien, it is for the services they provided me, pack your necessary things. From tomorrow you are going to stay with me 24/7" she looked at me confused, concerned, tensed but accepted the letter and went out.

I closed my eyes, there are two parts of the battle. Defence and attack. 

Defence, I had planned, now it's time to attack. You wanted to celebrate the anniversary party together Cassius, I will show you the biggest celebration of this year.