Chapter 19.1

Don’t Let Go of My Hand (1)

The medicine should have been working properly, but my body was heating up.

I unconsciously placed my hand at my lower abdomen. I felt a tingle down there. A rush of pleasure ran down my back and I curled my body.

This might be bad.

I turned my gaze at Yuugo, feeling desperate. Yuugo looked at me silently.

When he noticed that our eyes met, he narrowed his eyes slightly.

That alone was enough to make my body tremble.

“…I guess I better leave the room.”

I hurriedly shook my head at his words.

No, I don’t want him to go.

My chest hurts as if it was being squeezed. I moved my lips as if I was gasping for air.

“Don’t go…”

“No, Sou. It’s not good to go further than this.”

“Why… even though it was because of you.”

I had noticed that the scent had gotten stronger.

Even though my body started reacting because Yuugo did something… Why did he just decide to leave me?

Inside my body felt so miserable.

An unknown urge was swirling in my chest.

“Yeah, it’s my fault. That’s why I shouldn’t stay here… I want you to understand.”

Yuugo said that and got up from the chair without waiting for my reply.

I was more annoyed than sad that he had turned his back to me. My clenched fist was trembling.

“I don’t understand that kind of thing!”

I shouted and got up from the bed.

I tried to run toward Yuugo, but my body couldn’t keep up with what I wanted to do.

My feet were wobbling. I couldn’t muster any strength at all to even stand on my feet. I tried to clutch onto the table but my hand ended up grasping the air.

“Sou!”

When did he come to my side, I wonder.

The next moment, I was in Yuugo’s arms.

I clung tightly onto Yuugo’s body that I could finally touch.

“Sou, you should go back to bed. Come on, can you let go of my arm?”

“No.”

“…If you cling to me too much, it’ll be harder for you too.”

That’s right. It was all because of this scent. This scent is driving me crazy.

But, I don’t want to be apart from him. I want to keep smelling this scent.

I put more strength into my arms that were circled around Yuugo’s neck. It was a sign to show that I wouldn’t let him go. If he tries to let me go, I just have to forcefully pull at him.

Because Yuugo is definitely superior to me in size and strength.

“…Sou.”

Yet, Yuugo didn’t do that.

He just called my name in a slightly troubled tone.

His arms that were supporting my body moved. He patted me gently as if to make sure I was still there, and then he lifted me up.

“Uwaa…”

I hadn’t had someone carry me up like this since my father did it to me when I was little. I clung to Yuugo, surprised by the unfamiliar feeling of being lifted.

I could hear the sound of Yuugo’s voice chuckling lightly.

“Don’t worry, I won’t drop you.”

His voice that whispered to me felt ticklish.

I was carried to the bed and lowered onto the sheets from the back. As I lay there, I couldn’t help but let go of my arms from Yuugo’s body.

I tried to grab onto him again, but it was easily avoided.

“Yuugo…”

“It’s okay. I’m here.”

When I thought he was going to turn his back to me again, Yuugo said that and sat down on the edge of the bed I was lying on.

He faced half of his body toward me, staring at me.

I wonder if this means he would stay together with me.

But, being like this was tough in another way.

The temperature of my body was still rising because of the pheromones… And now even though the medicine I took earlier has managed to keep me rational, my body was tingling helplessly.

I want to touch it, I want to let it out. I was overflowing with such urges.

There was no way I could do it while being watched. That’s why I have no choice but to endure it somehow.

I didn’t know what else would make Yuugo say he’s leaving the room again. I didn’t want that to happen no matter what.

To disguise the urge that was hard to suppress, I rolled over to my side. I curled my back and put strength in my stomach. Other than this, I could only hope that this fever wouldn’t rise any higher.

“…Are you okay?”

“Mm…”

I actually wasn’t really okay, though.

But I felt like Yuugo would go away if I didn’t say that, so I couldn’t say the truth. I just gave a small nod and tried to endure it.

However, no matter how much I tried to suppress it, I couldn’t stop my body from twitching and shaking.​