Chapter 1

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I killed a person.

“Heuk… heuk.”

I didn’t mean to do this.

A man in uniform lay beaten in front of me shedding red from his head. As that color seeped into the ground, I thought as I looked at the dying man,

‘I feel relieved.’

How did I end up doing this? I was originally born as a noble lady and lived a normal life. But reality wasn’t so simple.

Why is it? Why have people in the world been so cruel to me?

Because I’m a troublemaker that was abandoned by my family?

Was it because I didn’t have any wealth or power to be treated like a fool?

Or was it because my curly black hair looked eerie and I had such a gloomy and ugly face?

Anything could be the reason, but at the same time, I didn’t know if that was really the reason.

“Sa-Save me…”

“…”

“Uurgh!”

Maybe these people were just having fun tormenting me.

“Urgh, please save me.”

I have suffered from terrible harassment over the past few years. Among them, there were many cases that hurt my body and some that left scars on my heart. Moreover, at the end of my life, my playboy fiancée, who I thought was the only light in my life, broke all his promises and framed me for things I didn’t do and tarnished my honor.

And that’s how I lost everything.

Those who tormented me remained steady like a mountain. Meanwhile,  I was living through days where it felt like there was no hope of me living any longer. In the end, I was so afraid that the end would come tomorrow that I tried to kill myself first. Eventually, I stood on a cliff on the deserted beach one day.

“…”

I stood alone on the cliffside crying for a long time. The moment I tried to throw myself off, the cool, blue water filled my sight. At that, I was suddenly scared and unable to carry out what I’d decided to do. My plans having fallen through, I squatted while surrounded by the cold sea breeze and sobbed.

‘Why am I the only one that has to suffer?’

It was then that I was hit with a sense of clarity.

“…”

There have been countless people who have abused and deceived me until now, but they get to live happily while I have to lose my life. Isn’t that really unfair?

It is unfair. It is really unfair.

“Heeuk… heeuk…”

So, I changed my mind.

My life is already ruined anyway. Rather than dying alone like that, let’s take the most unforgivable person who tormented me as my companion.

I called out the man who’d made the biggest contribution in ruining my life to the garden. He’d stolen my fortune and accused me with false allegations. He wasn’t even wary of anything when he saw me. I was a woman with no muscle strength after all. Besides, we were just a few steps away from the victory hall that was full of knights and nobles.

“…”

Killing a noble was the heaviest crime in this kingdom. The man in front of me is going to die soon so I will most likely face severe punishment after beating him on his head with a stone from behind. But, only now did I realize that I was smiling despite it all.

Why?

“…”

I killed him. Finally, I was relieved from the act of revenge I had committed.

“Ha.”

The man in front of me, whose blood painted the garden red, eventually stopped struggling. Only then did it feel like I’d really taken his entire future away with my own hands. His face, which had persecuted me in the past, overlapped with his present appearance, and a shrill laugh came from me.

He can’t bother me anymore.

He can’t eat the scones that he loved so much again. He can’t enjoy any happiness.

“Hahaha.”

I finally regained my long-forgotten laughter with the sense of accomplishment that I’d finally gotten revenge. It was something worth celebrating, considering I haven’t laughed even once in years.

“Hahaha!”

I danced excitedly around the fallen man. I grabbed the hem of my dress that was ruined by the physical fight and circled around to swear at his body. Soon, the knights, who were suspicious of him not being back yet, will search the area. I gave up the impossible idea to escape from here in the first place and waited for this place to be filled with armored knights.

But…

“?”

No matter how much sad things hurt my heart, was it enough to make me hallucinate?

As I was dancing without a partner, a foreign world was reflected in my gaze. Like a breaking snow globe, some parts of the sky outside the castle began to twist strangely. In addition, I heard the sound of an angel flapping its wings in my ear.

“It’s not wings.”

But soon, I noticed what the noise was.

This was the sound of turning pages. The world was shattered into fragments and ten thousand papers were scattered in the air by the time I realized it. I gazed coldly at the scenery. My life will disappear with the death sentence anyway. I laughed like crazy and tilted back in glee no matter what happened to the world. And finally, in a world that is collapsing, I really think that both my ears and eyes are all filled with falling paper.

“Ahahahahahahaha!”

An unknown message was delivered beyond the darkening consciousness.

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Press any key to reset.」

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Someone was lying on a fluffy and fragrant blanket on the luxurious bed made of high quality wood.

“…Isn’t she getting up by now? Is it really that serious?”

“She was conscious. It’s just that she fell asleep for a while.”

It was early in the morning. Amid the gentle rays of sunlight shining through the windows, those who came to the bedroom were having a simple conversation.

“If that’s the case, she won’t even know I was here.”

“Shall I wake her up?”

“Yes. What a waste of time.”

They didn’t seem to care that the person lying on the bed was on the verge of death. Eventually, the person who appeared to be a maid began to wake the person lying on the bed.

“Wake up. Wake up.”

As an unconcerned hand shook her shoulder, her skinny and small body shook here and there. And then, the person was forced to wake up.

‘Sleepy…’

I liked the soft feel of the blanket. I wanted to bury my cheeks in a soft cloth like this, but I couldn’t sleep at all because someone was violently shaking me from the side. I finally woke up to the maid’s voice that sounded like a shout.

“Vanora! How long do you plan to lie down in front of the guest!”

My name.

When I heard it, my heart suddenly started racing and blood rushed to my head. Whenever my name came up, the conversation usually went to bad topics.

But…

‘…?’

“Sigh, you don’t look good either. What’s all of this?”

I raised my upper body from the bed and found out that something was strange not long after waking up. Aside from the strange feeling of having a terrible body ache, the person sitting next to me right now is…

“Naverius?”

I stared at the man who was holding my hand by the bedside. But no matter how much I looked, the image in my eyes was still the same. He was my fiancée.

“The young Naverius…”

While I’d pushed to get engaged to him, he’d cheated on me dozens of times and broken off our engagement as he got sick of me. A man that I wanted to tear apart and kill was in front of my eyes.

Though… he looked quite young than before.

As my fiancée began to reply to my mumbling, I stood up from my seat, ignored him, and called out the name of the person standing next to him.

“…Seir?”

“Yes? Why are you calling for me?”

Seir did not express any displeasure on the surface. But, I already knew what kind of person she was.

‘How can Seir be here?’

Seir felt a sense of joy by targeting Vanora, an illegitimate child who had neither the support nor the strength to back her up, as a target of her bullying. I won’t feel comfortable even if she switches sides and stops mistreating me.

‘No, no. I’m sure I’ve already been through this situation once.’

However, the servant named Seir definitely got married 4 years ago and left this mansion. So I thought about it, trying to understand how she was here before my eyes, and then slowly realized it.

‘I’ve already been through this before.’

This was a very familiar day for me.

“What are you thinking about on your own there?”

I could still vividly remember how I shed tears at the words Naverius spit out on that day. I was silent for a while, unable to vent my thoughts.

“Anyway, since I’ve seen your face, I’m going to leave now. Everything is okay now, right? Quickly get better.”

Then, unlike my memory, Naverius left my room with a friendly goodbye. I didn’t chase his back. I just sat in bed without paying attention to the servant who went out with him to send him off.

‘My throat is itchy, and I keep sweating. My head also feels heavy.’

Considering my physical condition and the few words from my fiancée earlier, today was probably the second month of spring, just before my 16th birthday.

‘My memory is clear.’

However, how can a day that I have already experienced repeat? Besides, right before I woke up, I was smashing Haures’s head with a stone. I mean, I just committed murder! But what’s with this peaceful room? And the sound of birds chirping outside the window?

“…”

While combing through my complicated thoughts, I spotted a mirror hanging in the corner of my room.

“…”

As if possessed, I walked to the mirror and checked my face.

“!”

There was a girl there that looked familiar yet uncomfortable. It was a face that I hadn’t seen for a long time since I became an adult. This face was me from my childhood from a few years ago.

‘This same thing that happened before my 16th birthday… Am I now 15 years old?’

Is this a dream?

No matter how crazy I am, I’ve reached the point where I can’t tell the difference between dreams and reality.

I pinched my arm without hesitation to find out if I was just being delusional.

‘No. That can’t be true! I’m not that crazy!’

After I pinched the skin on my arm until it became red, I was convinced.

This is not a dream… It’s not a dream!

‘I can hear well too!’

My body right now is definitely from when I was 15 years old. When I was 17, I’d gotten slapped on the cheek so hard that it made me not able to hear well, but now I can hear perfectly fine.

‘Then, was everything that I’ve been through until now just a dream…?’

I’m confused. If anyone opened their eyes and realized that it was a day from 6 years in the past, they would feel the same as me. So, I did many things to prove that this wasn’t all currently a dream.